I logged into my DeviantArt for the first time since Eclipse and like, nothing has changed since then. The UI is completely unusable. The notifications areas are nonsense. 98% of the people I followed are gone or not themselves. The front page is just non-stop scrolling of AI content. It's crazy.

I have successfully completed my mandatory week of "accidentally do nothing for seven days once the new year starts" and I am sorry to add another to the streak, but it'll be the last one.

This has been my default state since before middle school and let me tell you it ages you like a colorless television.

It feels like each time people agree it was one of the worst of the worst years, I end up having one with significant personal growth where I absolutely have to say it was one of my best years. As ever I haven't really expressed this in public so it's something only my friends understand, but yeah 🥴

It's never the wrong night to give Hybrid Theory a whole listen.

taps quietly

Just watched my W11 computer attempt to restart, fail this action, and push itself back to the previous desktop state after making me click a very bare login button I've never seen before. (Main topic: VLC keeps crashing this computer and I am feeling very forced to use a different media player.)

2026 probably the first year in my life where I can artificially say it's a turning point, yet actually mean it.

『天才はいる。悔しいが。』 #umamusume #TokaiTeio

A little part of my soul dies every time I erase something in my sketchbook and instead of removing the pencil it just transplants it across the paper and sometimes embeds it permanently. I didn't even know graphite could do that... 😭

Want to post more extrospective things but it's pretty clear that's the last thing the world ever wants. I'm tired.

It probably doesn't seem like it to Bluesky but I've been kind of sick and also really anti-social lately (possibly in conjunction) and I would like to be neither of these things when I wake up tomorrow.

It takes more water to rinse mouthwash than to shower, I swear.

Every time I repost tiddy or something on my other account I quadruple check to make sure Bluesky didn't magically whisk me back to this account first. I trust no web service so that paranoia will always exist.

Feeling an intense amount of whatever the opposite of imposter syndrome is. I really wish basic things out in the world made sense anymore.

It's winter so now every grocery walk has to be: ✅ Cold ✅ Snowy ✅ A bit slower than normal ❌ Windy as fuck EVERY DAY ALWAYS 🥱😴🤢🤮

They fixed it as reported 🥳

Hmm, I can't seem to post on Bluesky anymore... Hitting the Post button brings up a blank interface and softlocks the page. I hope this isn't another sudden Windows 7 issue :s

It is astounding to me that blue checkmarks on Twitter seem to be in a perpetual state of trying to be the worst humans on Earth.

I wish coffee took less than four hours to hit my system. Honestly just feels like constant self-trolling at this point.

This new dollar store liquid soap I'm trying does seem to actually work well, but it feels laser-engineered to slip out of your hands as effectively as possible. It is now a battle of trying to learn to lather it literally AT ALL before it decides time's up.

I miss the old lies. The old lies were a lot more pleasant than the new lies. It's like the difference between old and new memes. The new ones don't have any substance at all. They're not even a little fun.

The one silver lining to it being too cold and snowy to go outside now is that I can finally clean my window screen and tape up the holes (again) without fear of lots of bugs crawling inside. I refuse to do this job when it's not the dead of winter lmao

The last four (or more?) times this one friend has poked me throughout this year, they either never responded to my reply, or they responded once and did not reply again after prompting. This is honestly such a waste of my emotional investment to get even a little interested in this. It's not fun.

Extremely unrelated tweet where I wish I could have the last five minutes of my life back.

My bad habit is crunching my toes into the carpet in order to focus while I'm drawing or programming. Where's the bingo space for this 🥺

I literally never have any spaces on any of these bingos on any subject 🤷‍♀️

I did it. I resisted my urge to eat this hot dog while it was still hot enough to burn my tongue. I waited three whole minutes!!!

Man I have not like been on Bluesky in prolly two weeks. Been busy (positive) and really laser-focused.

Ate 11 mini chocolate bars yesterday (Happy Halloween) felt wired until like 5AM (and that was after DST). There's no relation here whatsoever 😬

"Eating eggshell by accident isn't so bad. It's like eating sand but it sucks way less." I'm truly a salesperson.

Note to self: up-end the salt and pepper shakers next time you make pasta with no garlic.

I don't actually think this was it. Just seems like more life RNG which is the only force in the world that has any sway over me. I'm sure it'll be all fixed for no reason in 2-3 weeks :)

Monthly art post: the sketchbook I'm using is still in good condition (it only has like 10-11 pages left, which is exciting) but the spare sketchbook I keep underneath it as a solid surface to draw on is actually doing way worse. The edges are fraying/splitting a lot since I grasp it way more.

I'll do it again.

Life advice you didn't know you needed: DO NOT eat Takis and drink NyQuil within the same minute.

Okay, the one very large spider across my room at the start of the month was novel (and terrible). There's been FOUR of that same giant spider since. I was going to eventually post about three of them, but I just found/stomped another... and they all crawl along my carpet. I am not enjoying this 😰

The photo: The comments you will laugh at:

Took the walk during a dry moment. It was okay. Listened to the angry playlist the whole time, though.

Wanted to go for a walk because I've been feeling like garbage all week and today was no different, but it's raining kinda badly out there (this has also been true all week) and I'm confident I'll only feel worse when I get home if I go out now. I'm just tryina take care of myself, man...

Figured out why I'm struggling to fall/stay asleep this week 🙃

Back from the eye appointment. Everything went really great and honestly I had a lot of fun, haha. My new glasses will be here by this time next month 🥳

Oh God, doing push-ups two days in a row is always the most painful/stressful part of an exercise week lol

Rain all week, standard October. (Yes this is what the weather icons look like now 😭)

It usually rains a lot during October but for some reason I never remember this even though I joke every year that the first snow is always on/before Halloween. It's suddenly a lot colder this week so we'll see if that one pans out.

Yeah no I'm excited actually, in the same way I get excited days before taking a trip or seeing a friend, haha.

"Actually Vsync is good 🤓" my bad I didn't mean to wander into FGC Twitter by accident

I'm really looking forward to seeing the optometrist and getting new glasses, but I'm not excited for either the choice paralysis of me not feeling that passionate about what the new frames look like, or me settling on something and really disliking it down the line 🥳