its kinda insane like HOW little so many things in my life matter rn. like objectively shitty things but i cant even be bothered to care. theres worse shit somehow

jaehyun....jaehyun.....please

lord in heaven plewse make that prettyboy cry

woonhak is such a cutie patootie whay the heeeeeeelll bro

i hate ptsd wdym a little kid being silly at work triggered me. and idek what the trigger WAS exactly. cmon now

not an rpf guy but theo and intak cant do a photobooth strip where they have some dan and phil ass cat whiskers without people starting rumors. employee of the month for fan service And they dont even know it. They dont know dan and phil. I assume

like you Know youre really depressed when youre like Nah i dont wanna make money that bad. and maybe i should just find a random man and get into a relationship w him and say fuck it! and just go whole hog on this being miserable thing!!!! LIKE WHAAAAAT. WHO SAID THAT

you Cant let the depression win and blow up your whole life because youre sad and tired of how it is. but its very tempting for super obvious reasons. i so badly wanna quit my job and just stop doing all this bullshit but i would regret it....RAAAAH

they hit the starry kpop pentagon (boynextdoor is enjoyable👍)

its crazy how often i just. forget i have ptsd and will be like Omgggg why am i so scared when people raise their voices or call my name or whatever. Like well. You think youre in danger. cuz you were for a long time

the fact that i may just not be a lightweight when it comes to drinking is an outcome i have literally never once in my life considered, due to literally everything about me. like being 1 foot tall. and generally having the constitution of a withered leaf

literally the second bluesky has private accs ill be all over this app

new @ dropped cuz its not luke anyone else is taking an alice by heart @

pripate account pleeps

tears in my eyes. i love hyun xlov

i basically cant type anything anymore without getting a whole Word wrong. like not just a misspelling like The Wrong Word. which could mean nothing. i just did it twice trying to type this

born to squee forced to meep is all...

im just sayin... its not surprising i felt most comfortable rambling abt xlov to the woman i pay to listen to me

i was built for stanning and also i was not at all. i love obsessing over artists. i also am deeply embarrassed of loving things and feel the need to keep all my thoughts inside lest i be cringe. i think abt haru xlov and do cartwheels. i talk abt her and i get a STEMI

no dude actually the fact that your actions retroactively dont feel like your own means nothing trust me

soemtimes you have to hear the thought "do people even like me" and handwave it away cuz You are being annoying and sad whoever said that

no dude its awesome i love living every day in fear because theres just like a disconnect in my brain and im constantly terrified

somethings wrong but i have a job so idrc abt that

ARE YOU KIDDING ME DO YOU FUCKING HATE ME (not abt anything important this is me vagueposting a tv show trailer)

not to be like a Bitch but sometimes i remember none of my irls asked me how my trip to boston was and i get a touch resentful. i know its very expected for ppl to Talk abt something without being asked but like... I FEEL like it wouldve been polite to ASK ME..

it feels ljke i just Cant escape the things that have been bothering me lately. like, im Okay but i am exhausted. at every turn im reminded me mom didnt love me enough to get me therapy after i asked and was having a major depressive episode where i was essentially bedridden

it only took a year but there it is....❤️

talking to ppl my age is thinking im super behind cuz they have so much more figured out than i do and then like. it turns out they always have more privilege than me and ive been screwed on so many levels

finny..

i am serious when i say hollywood, the ryan god damn murphy project, is calling to me like the green goblin mask and i dont trust myself

sorry tammy i was like 90% sure i was already following u on this acc LMAOOOO WHOOPS

tw eating disorders today was an eating disordder Loss i forgot to eat properly until uuuummm 9 pm or so and then, if you can believe it, got insanely lightheaded. im okay now tho just Wow i forget!! that i have an issue!!!!

the nicholas hoult demon is bacj in my brain somebody Kill Him

huzzah! fucking huzzah!

huuuu huuuuu must go to cons so i can get w cute girl

lord beer me a xanax

come to me clarb

when they have priv accs onthis app i will. unfortunately. go crazy

hilarious how ive alreadu run out of things david corenswet is in that i actually care to watch. like well! okay!!!!! im not watching a fucking ryan murphy show, let alone two!!!! so please be in another movie soon

so lucky i didnt watch hairspray at my most mentally ill i mightve had such bad gender envy that someone wouldve gotten hurt

sigh i just dont know

everythings just gotten so hard and i cant place why

i hate ptsd so fucking much i really do like im not even particularly upset rn but im just like. pissed i even got triggered today. i expected it but it is so annoying

i am So depressed lately and im unfortunately coming to the conclusion that what i need to do is rewatch better man

ch....chiitan....

how do you flirt eith girls and does it include sitting right beside her to read manga w her

the only downside of my friend wanting to usher w me to chat abt our creative projects is that its one less time i get to try and work up the balls to flirt w the transfer thats leaving soonish. oh man. gotta spend my hours before work reading WHA for her...

man i love girls

blinks slowly......i should send my coworker a vid of my fandom shit too....pukes in my mouth

cute girl at work is really getting along w me eerrrrrmmm