I sure didn't miss the stupid furry drama

Midnight thoughts... I'm feeling so stuck at the language... I'm so stuck at the dances... I'm feeling like I'm depressed in that aspect.. I'm a bit stressed out, and it is making me want to quit.. but I can't bc they need me.. I thought I was gonna feel good that they do, but it makes me stressed

I'm so tired of my family using the ai 4 the stuppidiest shit like y would you do an ugly 🎨 if your (*or even MY)🐶 or mockups. If I can Why am I so upset about it? I want to cry Like one thing is to use it for stupid shit... other is to actively take more job away from me like ur part of the problem

Wdf why all of a sudden, I feel so disgusting and want to cry

Oh look that's me.... (Ik I said about not refaring as us as a system but I still will be posting about some things)

I know things are tough for everyone, But not everyone feel them as tough They say things are going to be better, But that better never comes I envy everyone who makes it look like they have everything together, I used to be one of those But now that I have my head here, I wished that it was gone

Apparently me having to eat with them bc I'm hungry is a crime now.. Apparently I don't want to do nothing with them anymore....

Dysphoria is hitting hard tonight

Sometimes... I get the feeling of... Like... other than alba... like.. if I get to ever be with someone... the fear of just being rejected bc of being trans is hard... Like, idk if my mind would be like, "I can be a girl for you," or in the case of being with them, "I'm not man enough"

Tw//ed food It is wild to me to think that I was consuming somedays less calories than a newborn baby... Today, i was finally able to hit at least the 1k kcal...

Idk who am I... I'm having a bit of a trouble pointing who's fronting.... man this feel weird

Why am I feeling so damn tired... like... I had been sleeping and im still exhausted

I really thought I was close to paying my debt off? What a joke... I need gas... my phone bill is due, and I still owe above 1k pesos I'm so tired...

What a nice memory, fb... I really needed to remember that I'm not important

Okay... might be out of adrenaline, but... if you know I'm a system, no, you don't.... I don't want to be asked about the others... I don't want to try and figure things out... I'm tired... I'm just feel like I'm faking even if I can feel them... I better do as if they aren't there

Why did I think that people would complement me / be proud of me in my normal account with my gym photos? I feel dumb...

I was gonna try and read for a bit... but man... I started to feel VERY VERY VERY EVRY DISSOCIATED.... Nothing is real....

Midnight thoughts: tw . . . Ppl who take their own life they had been asking or saying about it multiple times and people is still like "everything was okay. It came out of nowhere". Now I'm softly thinking (not saying I will, but) if I get to do so my family will think that there weren't any signs?

Me:Why do I feel so.... weird... like wanting to cry, not wanting to sleep... Also me; forget to take my meds on time... idk why I don't see my alarms lately.. idk if my mind is just all over the place

My hip is killing me lately... I do know if the going pop back into place badly or something, but it feels like it is not in the right position... I tried to crack my back, but it is not working.. It doesn't hurt badly, but it feels like something isn't right

I totally missed my meds and just took them... My ears are clogged for any reason, and I feel so dissociated... I will try to finish the chapter of the book if I can before I go to sleep

I feel so unmotivated today.... I want to draw buy I physically can't make myself do so.. too tired

I wasn't able to sleep... I forgot my meds and took them till about 2 am... I was feeling like my head split in parts (not sure how to explain it but like preassure parts) and with thought mixed up that I can't catch... dissociated a bit... Tonight is not a good one... I'm okay but confused

Took a test just for fun.. being as real as i could be thinking it was gonna say that I don't have it... Well... I guess that responds to our questions a bit

Using this post for myself and to keep track of my alters.

I'm feeling my head with tension and a small ringing... I feel rivers near.. I might be having a bad night.. but well.. I just found this test for fun... (I'm a bit laughing that they skipped a d on childhood), but well I'm fucks apparently lol

This account might get messier and messier as I can't use other platforms to vent... so this is my little corner where I can just exploit in peace... please don't comment asking if I'm okay, don't ask me about things I post here... This is my only way to cope rn...

As I feel that my pinterest is being flags after all the tags on my pins... and I REALLY don't want to lose that account. I will be posting things I find.. not bc I find them related to myself in that moment, but at some point, so dw

Why does my legs hurt badly tonight? I feel like I ran yesterday.... Tomorrow will be hard kn my body

Art by chicane pc

I'm back. Much calmer They really helped me calm down. If anyone is concerned... they step in early so I didn't smoke that much... and they ate... they had a kinda big dinner to hold us through the night.. Anyway... we are safe... I'm better.. I will be offline for a bit Trying to understand things

Not sure if I should update here... but we are okay... I got him... not giving farther information without his permition

After a year and a half of quiting.. I got back to vaping... I just need something to distracción my head... And im do close to just mix meds and alcohol... I had been sober for 3 years I believe... but who gives a fuck (I can't afford alcohol tho)

Noooooo vegettaaaaaaaa Chale ya murió ahora a ver a luz XD a ver si sigue vivo

Man... thanks for making me feel bad for eating pasta... I'm not gonna Cook for you any longer... I should puse my guts out and live without anything in the stomach

Damn it.. the squid games are at the same our I have to make food and eat.... I guess I will have to watch the video again once is up... so sad

Dude I'm crying... my poor baby... let him go... let him be with husk.... he deserve better... Man y really just want to protect this Lil boy... he deserve so much better

I'm getting so much spoilers from HH.... aaah I need to see it as well... I'm starting to feel so overwhelmed...

Today I'm very sensitive wdf... Why the idea of watching the squidcraft with alba made me so sensitive.. I will take a bath and try to finish everything I ng I have to do before watching it to enjoy it It reminded me when I used to watch foolish (need to follow him again ngl)

Just realized I almost forgot my meds

I really wish there was a way to make accounts private here... . . I really 🚫 want to be present.. the 🍼 is near.. bit not quite 🔀... so I'm stuck in front.. I hate wanting back ekon ngl... he was able to manage things a bit better than me... But not sure if I really want hm back at the same time

I'm feeling bad... why I'm missing having an alter who can just front and do things... I don't want to be fronting rn...

I feel just so overwhelmed... I draw a bit but not much... I just want to rot in bet today