missing him: day ????

The urge to mute them

So everyone’s only interacting with me actively when they get to laugh at me, got it

The urge to delete my account

I’m so fucking irritated right now, I’m almost hysterical

Oh yeah I love it when I tell a certain someone that I have or suspect I have a certain affliction and their response is either “no you don’t have it, you’re 100% healthy” or “everyone has it/gets it sometimes”???? Even with my anxiety they go “well it’s only SUSPECTED”. It’s only suspected because

does watching fucked up content make me a fucked up person

I don’t need anything from anyone at this point.

I feel like everyone’s mocking me at this point

Funny how a good day can change into a shitty one in just one moment

Or I might be just clinically insane

Sigh I’m done trying to be friends with them and interacting more, I get it 🙏🏻 no more

I should stop trying to drink every day bwawhwh

It feels like once certain people become more popular and get more mutuals, they start interacting with you way less and way more with those mutuals, and you become their last option

Time to curl up and feel like shit

Sigh….

I must learn to accept people not considering me a friend and not wanting to interact with me or it’ll be the death of me 🙏🏻

I notice everything, and I wish I didn’t

I need to be reassured way too often just so that I don’t feel upset or anxious..

I feel very sick

It’s crazy how fast I get attached to people and then get upset we don’t talk every day. Because we’re not even close duh

Always alone

I don’t want to do it anymore…

I wish some people online understood they shouldn’t flirt or overstep boundaries if I don’t know them well enough and we’re practically strangers

sad and vulnerable

Am I even okay I spent five minutes staring at this stupid moving eye namecard

I love being terrified of seeing actual figures and things even though it’s been years since I saw things like that

Annoyed all of a sudden again…

No one would think twice about me if I wasn’t constantly posting and interacting and I can prove it.

I love walking outside and having to reassure myself that none of those people walking nearby have any intentions to do terrible things to me

To stab my hand To stab my hand To stab my hand To stab my hand To stab my hand To stab my hand

It’s certainly been way too long since I last cried, huh Like several days

I’m so annoyed it’s crazy

staying here forever

I’m sorry Just come back

Days spent as someone’s #1: 0

Time to feel lonely again

Keep all the knives far away from me right now 🫶🏻

Of course something has to ruin the day

blood

I love feeling devastated for no reason

Love the haze that comes with alcohol

Not feeling quite myself, but then again, who even am I AHSHSHAHA

I miss him

I love saying yes and feeling sexually violated afterwards, as if I’m not the one who agreed to “help out” This is so stupid

I am too loud online

I want to stab my hand Repeatedly with a knife

Silent hill mood.. Depression

This excitable mood again

It’s so tiring to talk about my anxiety with someone who constantly says “you don’t have anxiety” or “you just need to learn how to control yourself” it’s not that how that works? How many times do I have to explain it to you