MY PARTNER SURPRISED ME WITH A MY MELODY BIRTHDAY CAKE. AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️✨✨✨!!!

my first birthday that sounded damn pink and cute. ❤️ thank you, plave.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!?/?//? THE NEW SONG IS OUT. WHAT. AND IT'S A SANRIO COLLAB????? AAAAAAAAAA ok, my birthday doesn't feel so lonely anymore. ❤️ youtu.be/8L001YT4k6k?...

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my drifter as i learn to feel normal with coloring again.

no response once again. the usual. it's 10pm anyway so the restaurants are closed. back to my nightgown!

ack. cringing so badly. i just asked... my friends if they're free to spend my birthday with me. usually, it's not celebrated or acknowledged by any of my IRL friends. but here i am initiating it???? CRINGE. CRINGE.... CRINGEEE!!!!!!! well, here goes.

tw suicide my birthday is tomorrow. im ready to throw the fuck upppp like i always do every year. planned my suicide when i was younger but it failed (twice. my useless ass cant do nothin right) glad.. it failed. now i have this "i didn't think ill be living this long" nausea i gotta deal with.

watching A3! anime after like. years. auuughhh, bringing me back to those COVID lockdown days.. holds them like spaghetti.

GASSSPPP. WHEN DID THEY DO THIS. AND WHY IS IT ALL FOR ME. A3, I LOVE YOU TOO??????

Was working a bunch on getting these properly photographed and listed up this weekend. Spend $20 or more and get 25% off your entire order. 10% of all sales go to Trans Lifeline, and 5% goes to local food banks. Shop: Cosmic Whale Cafe #ShopUpdate #bsnm #artshop #fanmerch

you probs see my posts and think, "ah. amirah's probs drunk and an emotional drunk at that." nah. i'm drunk in that halal way aka severe brain chemical imbalance. woooooooo

why is it whenever i talk in a discord server-- or just anywhere, i keep thinking someone is going to throw plates at me??? it feels so specific.

Moonlight 끝이 없는 midnight Sunshine 반복되는 highlight Woo woo woo woo woo woo woo ... Way for love, way for your love. Way for love, way for your love! 거짓말이라도 믿을게 영화 같은 스토리의 끝에 youtu.be/FxB6_qaqHlY?... #musiclog

tearing up a bit. i think the reason why i adore my partner is because.. not only is he great-- -- i never met someone that treated me so kindly before. he doesn't scream at me, or go passive aggressive. he doesn't make me cry and then comfort me, making me confused. he just likes being with me.

Aseel has lost her account her but she wanted to share this picture of her with her cat a Lisa few weeks ago and this week. She is just looking to have enough money to be able to eat. Her family has a PayPal which is quicker ( tiny.cc/hbcuzz ) and a GoFundMe (gofund.me/54db81e4 )

My Operator 🏳️‍⚧️ and all her dear friends, featuring my partner's Operator! 💕 I think I got everyone, right? Anyway, excited for 'The Old Peace' chapter. [ #tennocreate, #warframe, #artlog. ]

"... And your mother even agrees that emotional lottery is all you'll ever get with me. So, don't worry. I'll make you worry, like no other girl can. Damn sure I'll never let you know where you stand. So, don't worry. I'll leave you feeling like a shell of a man." youtu.be/soKG9DDv3_A?... #musiclog

O' Romeo, Romeo. His heart misses you so. [ #liesofp, #artlog. ]

i wish i could fall deep in love with gacha life-sim games again but ever since i lost A3! and AFTERL!FE, i find it very very difficult to put so much of my love into it. it was devastating when those games shut down.

"this town is too fragile for your thudding steps." [ #pathologic, #artlog. ]

me and partner played as these guys back then. loved the sabrina carpenter battlepass. [ #fortnite, #artlog. ]

seeing my old posts makes me sentimental and embarrassed. haha, it's cute. it's cute to see how i handled things. proud too.

"You only see me when the tears roll down your face. You only show up when the clouds won't go away. You always said we'd be together, forever, whatever the weather. It's me and my umbrella now." youtu.be/WHskTpyR1XY?... #musiclog

deleted all my art becaaaaause i'm a neat freak. and i looove arranging thiiiings, i hate my love for arranging my stuffff

"oh no, youre in [insert game]?? nooo their fandom is bad!!!" how dare you call my discord group with 4 of my closest friends bad?? apologize to the entire fandom right now.

idk, anaxa reeks of chappell roan's the subway and i refuse to explain further. it's just His song.

way 4 luv, way 4 your luv.... 🎵

Honkai Star Rail likers. Who else thinks Anaxa and Dr. Ratio should kiss

me back then when i went to therapy for the first time: IM SO BROKEN. SCARED.... I CANT HANDLE THIS. me now after getting too used to the hospital smell: ...... meh, on the bright side, it means i was never alone afterall. *shakes my head around, thinking it'll shake the guys in there. it doesn't.*

Textile Market, Cracow, from Au Pied du Sinaï

does sunday know that welt has a co-parent and kid while he's trying to f*ck him. would that even stop sunday

oooooo?

MY CHILDHOOD. LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. a-another remake... (but meh, the new fatal frame games in the series, weren't so great.. so of course they're remaking 2)

i do be waking up in the dead of night and going, "when the fuck did i write this post / message this person?"-- jfc what year is it. when did i sleep

yeesh, g' morning. woke up from a nightmare of old memories.

Henriette Willebeek LeMair (1889-1966), 1912

Welp the TWST posting has began, sorry guys tried to hold it in for as long as I could 💔 Anyways I don´t really ship anyone in game but I love these two their dynamic! Romantic or platonic, they are so adorable! Epel's parents fr, Pomefiore best dorm. #rookvil #twst #twstファンアート #xitrieart

PLEASE DON'T TAKE ME THERE. HELP. SOMEBODY HELP. WHY AM I GOING TO AN ESPORTS CAFE

now? whenever someone hints at me that something is wrong but CHOOSES to be passive aggressive instead, i ain't gonna do my old anxious dance of being your therapist trying to pry what's wrong, out of you. i was 'the therapist' for ppl for a long time, even to my mom. talk to your friends properly.

YESESSSSSSS YEEESSS I GOT CHOSEN!!!!!! AND ITS A 5 DAYS A WEEK WITH FLEXIBLE HOURS AND MEDICAL BENEFITS YEEEESSSSSSSSSS

Never, ever accept people that insist or demand that you must put your best foot forward for them but then they trample on it harshly or disappear on you with no explanation. Talked to online friends and I'm glad (but also sad) that I wasn't the only one that got left by all our IRL friends.

ill be going to a new mental health centre soon, to look around the facility. nervous!

this is funny to say but im happy i played league of legends. not because it's a good game (+ we left it after knowing more of riot's history and continuous bad decisions) but because i met my partner through it. 2 years now... time flies. 🫶❤️ idk how i found a genuine person in that game, don't ask.

"we're not going to talk about how u had a suicidal meltdown and that u were holding a knife alone in the house, just 2 days ago?" it's been like that for 10 years for me. therapy and hospital don't mean my meltdowns get more rainbow-y and High School Musical Summertime.

my partner is sharing me 'joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat' ? idk what this is, but he won't stop laughing about it. so, why not. i got zine pieces and comm pieces to render.

I really do feel like we gotta be nicer to ourselves sometimes (Also points at myself too because of course.) For example: Just because your mental health issues are more manageable and less destructive doesn't mean they aren't still there. My BPD is more manageable, but it's still a bitch ❤️

weekend plans

"Everything one says on socmed? it's all for the Branding. 🙄" I was a MySpace user since 2007, telling my 26 online friends how being alive was shit like an Xx_edgelord_xX while i tell them what i'm eating and listening to. It's a diary to me and others. Not everyone is in social media for branding.