hypersexual awareness until its not how tiktok portrays it

hypersexual awareness until it consumes my whole day sometimes and i cant focus on anything else

hypersexual awareness until i would allow someone to groom me again

"hypersexual awareness" until i daydream about getting raped

im gonna stop inviting ppl to hang out because my rooms disgusting . but i cant go to others houses because it just isnt worth the anxiety. like ill sit in your car trembling and refusing to speak if youre driving me, and if my dad takes me there then he has to walk me up to the door and knock for+

whys it so hard to keep a stable friendship?

got a pencil sharpener!

FUCK I WENT TOO LOW I . MIGHT GET CAUGHT IF IM JOT CAREFUL FUCKFUCKFUCKFYCJFUCK

2 days in a row,,, getting a litle risky here neil

ehhh ill just cut myself a little so i can focus on the pain instead of whatevers going on around me at school,,, i can stop when i want

vent art lol

i want to KILL MYSELF

whys that girl crying whats wromg with her

laughing at the girl in the mirror so hard right now. shes such a loser. she doesnt have a life ahead of her

ii dontknow if i can dven stanff lonh enough to shower

fuckfuckfuck

im hopeless

ooh what should i write or draw next..? :3333 a star maybe hahahhhgjghff

carved failure! <33

i found a spot that i can cut deep and it bleeds a lot without much effort horray!

i love drawing and writing with it

carved Tranny into my thigh lol

i KNOW theres a pencil sharpener somewhere in my room but i cant find it so im sticking to the eyebrow razor

searchijg my room for a pencil sharpener

i need a better blade

my leg hurts

im not scared of bad men, im scared im going to be a bad man.

i saw a future with you after not wanting one at all ill love you forever

and i was clean for so long

???? ive been disassociating(?) for a bit and i just realized im real again and??.???? theres a cross carved in my thigh?????..? huh

i just remembered how high the chances are of me ending up dead before 18 and now im really confused and uncomfortable and scared . when this feeling used to get to me a couple months ago it felt freeing, but now its just... upsetting.

what do i fucking do bro

i feel bad getting help from my bf because then my bsf gets jealous of him uuehghfhhgnmf kmsss

i hate you so much keith

how get blood out of white carpet

ok whatever ill just go shower . iys break i shouldnyt be thisnworried

literally why did i do that my legs are shaking

i fucked up again

fuck

hrhehhahhd i liked how that felt..,,,, itystujg and now its drippinghhjgkdjfkgjfhaha

"small ones" proceeds to cut deeper than ever before!

you arent a real man ifyou cyr. realmenm bleed

ok im filled with such fear and agony i literally have to cut myself to deal with ts . ill only do a few small ones ok

iysmy faiult sjhes upsetr