hh the suicidal thoughts are comign back fuckkkkk

i need to cut so bad

is it supposed to be like this

why is my life so agonizing

i need to learn to trust. im starting to trust someone fully now

why bother? its gonna hurt me its gonna kill when you desert me this happened to me twice before /lyr

im really trying . whats wrong with me whycant i do anythjng

i need to cut myself let me go home

im so fuckign stupid

i wish i was enough for my parents

i thought i was finally getting better and maybe fixing my grades but nope! still just as anxious! still just as much of a disappointment!

hypersexuality pmo cuz why is it telling me to crop v1 ultrakill r34 and put it as my discord pfp ??? im not doing that

only a few . not deep . but i still relapsed. fuckk

come on man i was over month clean and i just relapsed im goimg to crash out

i wish i could wear my old fav pair of shorts but i cant because of my scars

i cant tell if the Bad Habit is related to hypersexuality or not and its pissing me off

hypersexuality is so fucking horrid like . genuinely i domt want to think any of these thingns its disgusting and it wont go away

i cannot be cryjngf in a shcool bathro om rn

fuckkkk why am i so fucking stupid . i promise im tryingh

put everyone first, but when i finally put myself first and defended myself, im in the wrong

cant stop thinking about all those things

hearing oomf be upset for the first time in the 4 years ive known him is one of the worst things ive felt

"why does nobody but you want to hang out with me" DUDE ILL ALWAYS BE YOUR FRIEND I PROMISE DUDE ILL ALWAYS BE HERE

dawg im not even that upset anymore but he was so handsome dude i fumbled so bad (+idk what i even did but ik i did something)

come back i promise ill do everything you ask and ill be whoever you want me to be

im lonely

who want me

i love my best friend so much hes the best i dont deserv him

where do i get someone like that again

i miss u

i give up whats wrong withme

i loved you and i was willing to continue that

iwanted to be friends still

"here if you need me" fucking liar im gonna cut myself

im so annoyed . "your room smells musty" MOTHER. MOTHER I AM PUTTING *ALL* OF MY ENERGY INTO SCHOOL AND I DONT HAVE ANY MOTIVATION LEFT . AND NOW IM ON MEDS THAT MAKE ME MORE TIRED AND IM JUST . GRADUALLY GETTING WORSE . one of the main things keeping me together is . still there just . less .

i do wanna be near you

the one person i actually opened up to

mmgjdkffyouu promisef

neil please just fucking fix yourself you goddamn faggot

i gotta be better

i just suck as a person dont i

god im so immature and pathetic

im sorry

why am i so upset it was inevitable

you promisedme

stop fucking crying

i feel bad for being upset but i know its valid ,,? i just constantly feel like im overreacting about everything what the fuck

id love to be friends still just . give me the weeked to calm down ok

i understnsd

i promise imnot upset with you