I could do routines full for art practice every waking minute of the day and still not do 1% of the shit people recommend doing every day to Become A Good Artist™

why can't art have a skill tree it feels like becoming a damn doctor would be more straightforward

when will things start to get better

additional traditional now with tan toned paper and white stuff (charcoal and sharpie)

why can't I just be a decent artist

why do things always have to get worse

how do I keep finding ways to make things worse

help I found my calling and I hate it

when you had two absurdly lucky sculpting sessions and now everyone thinks you're some 3D wizard but you can't even sculpt a slightly asymmetric head from reference

🍈 vs 🍑... in 3D

still wishing I had a way to talk with some of the artists that have been most inspiring to me, but won't bother with me ._.

@lowontrash.bsky.social was very sweet and let me print his wonderful new new sculpt uwu

Boop at your own risk Some more fanart for @lowontrash.bsky.social

hanging out and jamming to music for 5 minutes while blender takes forever to do something stupid on 256k verts

augh I wanna draw good

Awoo?

it'd be neat if you got a little achievement every time you came up with a genuinely new thought; something that no human being had ever conceived of before

ok so media usually portrays werewolves as murderous, carnivorous, instinct-driven beasts when they lose control and transform, but that makes me wonder what other were-creatures would do

I wish someone could fix me and my art ._.

if looking for refs makes me jealous enough to cry, should I even be trying to draw

*converts you to webp*

Wish I could do what jollyjack does. Or arata18. Or Alesteir, or aaat, or ayanamifan, or redsilver, or hutska, or phurreh, or...

Some fan art of @lowontrash.bsky.social‘s particularly beefy deer absolutely dwarfing the sun.

Big Momma wolf kiss 💋 Amazing art by awesome @lowontrash.bsky.social

genuinely never thought I'd hear a credentialed medical professional suggest over the counter T booster pills instead of medical treatment

why can't doctors ever be helpful on the things that matter

I wish Quadratouring was still around ._.

Mission failed 😞

gender-affirming anabolic steroids please

After 6 years, I've finally got my first appointment with an endocrinologist tomorrow. God I hope they can fix me and I can actually get in shape...

I don't know what I want anymore. I get jealous at almost anything and everything...

the disgusting male fantasy of being worth something other than a potential stream of currency

the reasons I care about social stuff so much aren't because number go up 📈 it's more that it means people might take me seriously, and that I could *maybe* reach some people I'd like to get to know but now, those people would probably just block me if I tried, if I even could try at all

looking at a guy who's a month younger than me, is a genuine art pro, and has 10k followers and a bunch of high profile friends on bsky is just kinda depressing

"Protege" is a word that's been on my mind a lot lately. It'd be nice, wouldn't it? Meaning enough to someone, or being promising enough that they'd help take care of you, and help you achieve.

I wish I could draw well, even just for a day. Get it all out of my system, and be done. That's it. I could be happy. I could move on. There are hundreds, if not thousands of artists I'd love to draw like. Why can't I get anywhere close?

it's always kinda nice when you follow someone and you see a few notifs from them later on

I fucking give up

I'm never gonna be good enough ._.

Some more fanart for @lowontrash.bsky.social with some hyper muscular neck choker snapping

I tweaked Judy's sweat shader to make it look a little more natural. Hopefully, the effort she puts into her body is a little clearer now. Again, thanks to @lowontrash.bsky.social for the shader foundation.

Gave her legs a mighty pump today, so Judy’s going to reward herself with a nice warm shower. Huge thanks to @lowontrash.bsky.social for showing me a good foundation for a sweat shader for her! I'm definitely going to work on it more!

It's strange, back when I was only writing, I never got jealous of other writers. But now that I mostly draw...

maybe one day I'll finally be able to make something people give a shit about

I have a bazillion bsky tabs open that I'm too emotionally compromised to click on

I remain unsuccessful at finding anyone willing to help me learn to draw better tits and ass and thighs

wish I could go to sleep and wake up when things are better

imo fanart is one of the highest indicators of creative achievement, because your work has inspired someone enough that they actually put in the work to concretely MAKE something because of it

it'd be nice if soulmates were real

chatting with people is nice