i hope that during the christmas holidays when it snows and we’re all stuck in, me @dolphindan.bsky.social, @abstractdoubt.bsky.social and my other friends can watch ghost stories/dumb animes and stupid ytps again like last year :3 (i hope this happens, so bad)

idk i just wanna make it known that i relapsed

every few months i search #beastars and just block every weird nsfw/borderline acc there like what the fuck is the crossover between the fat, inflation/gas and beastars communities like for fucks sake i dont wanna have to do this theyre kinda my comfort characters

so i have like no storage left on my iphone due to screenshotting an unhealthy amount and it means that every few days i have to delete some more shit or it begins to not work properly and there’s a sheer feeling of terror going to try text someone or vent or open an app and it just saying “no”

i have dysphoria but it’s spelled dizforia like it’s some shitty 90’s hiphop album

Paru Itagaki is the scariest woman in the industry good lord

i am

colon three

i like being on my own physically but it’s majorly daunting to feel mentally alone, i often find myself pracically begging my very few friends to text at the most inconvenient times because of my stupid ass existentuality (if any of you lot are reading im so sorry)

i love/hate writing songs because when i try do it seriously i end up overthinking lyrics and throwing away decent ideas with potential and when i do it less seriously then it always comes out more cohesive but harder for me to take seriously and like a shitty beck hansen wannabe lol

context for this rant: i have just over two months (out of the YEAR im suppoed to have) before i have to turn in my final photography project and i had already restarted once and due to a huge pile of unfortunate unforseeable events it all just failed and (part 1, context)

the other day i got so fucking paranoid that my photography was so unfathomably shit and that i was irredeemable that i was physically sick and shaking and in a cold sweat and refusing to go into school because of how overtly anxietic i was and the day after that happened i told my dad (part 1)

so, @kyuu158.bsky.social is kinda becoming a vent alt because i dont wanna be giga negative on my main and i’m too critical/judgemental to post my own shitty “fanart” to post it there so yeah

jack from beastars reminds me of my friend

so i love beastars (bet you couldnt tell, hm?) but i hate that i love it, i only ever knew one person who liked it also and i sadly dont realy talk to her anymore and she doesnt care for it or me anymore and despite it having a comfort character or two and it being something i deeply enjoy, (part 1)

a teeny kyuu and a (slightly wonky) kyuu face i drew in english class today #kyuu #beastars

a kyuu i drew in history class today #kyuu #beastars