My Facebook is full of Alysa Liu and I apologize for nothing.

Drank my coffee too fast. Now I have super anxiety and hyper awareness.

Everyone who told me it's nice outside actually is a liar.

Every four years I have a bout of insanity and try to find my friend from childhood, and every four years I feel like she doesn't want to be found.

I feel like my brain isn't wired for learning a bew language. Every time I try, the words just slide off my brain.

Need to get my ears pierced again. Like, with an actual piercing needle this time.

Whenever all my friends are asleep and I'm having a slow day I'm reminded of the fact that I need attention at all hours of the day or I might die.

Beating the Cogwork Dancers made me really sad. :(

Can't help but feel a certain kind of way when I come home early and everyone disperses.

Silksong is such a beautiful game. I have almost thirty hours on my file and most of it has been me exploring around and finding new areas and things to do. I'm having so much fun. It might be my Game of the Year, despite Blue Prince and Clair Obsure both laying claim to that mantle.

Realizing that I am heavily motivated by praise.

The last two days have been disastrous to my mental health, but thankfully, work has been really smooth.

Seeing Ghost live cured my soul. Seriously, I'm fucking back, baybee!

This is the most chaotic bus ride I've ever been on and I'm totally here for it.

Actually making pretty good time today.

Frozen Zebra season. :3

If suffer creates good art, then baby, I'm making a masterpiece.

Demon Slayer is the one anime that I prefer the anime over the manga. It's just so pretty.

Im not going to go full sicko mode on Balatro, but i would like to have 100% collection unlocked. Completionist++ is just too much for me to consider.

THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE RUN.

I got a bad case of Balatro on the brain. I can't wait to get home and play more of it.

Living my best life, I say, making the best of what I have in this cursed timeline.

I don't think my friends that left me at the beginning of 2023 were transphobic, I just find it strange that they suddenly had a lot of problems with me after I started transitioning in late 2022.

Done! And with no gold spent. :3

He wasn't thinking straight, he was dead!

I'm trying to be a good girl and not complain.

I keep having dreams about this old card game shop in Anaheim that doesn't exist in real life. The dreams are extremely normal, but life in general is different.

Giving myself bangs at 2am two days before my first psychiatry appointment probably isn't a good thing

Dude I would be so pissed if I was Kaido.

This year feels kind of empty to me already. There's so many things I used to do that I don't find any value or enjoyment out of now. I feel I had more momentum going into 2024 than I do going into 2025. /:

I did get to Chaptee 900 of One Piece before the end of the year. Now I just gotta finish ~300 chapters to catch up before if ends. Ezpz.

Without downloading any new pics, what's your energy going into 2025?

Highlight of my year was that I got to room Chappell Roan's grandma. She was very sweet.

I've lost enough people in my life to know that begging them to stay doesn't help.

I always feel like I Shpuld go back and actually finish Death Note, and then I remember the absolute death grip that Misa had on me when I was 16.

After I get caught up on One Piece (only 400 chapters to go!), I'm going to finally tackle Naruto and finish it this time.

It's always super hard to determine if my depression meds are working because I haven't had a sense of stability in my life since I was 14.

My doctor moved my spiro dose down from 100mg/day to 50mg/day back in June, and part of me is wondering if my winter depression is partially due to my T levels raising.

I feel like I get clocked as Trans a lot more since I started working in the medical field, but people are also a lot more normal about it.

Seasonal affective disorder is kicking my ass. This is awful.

I think about this page constantly and try to remember that I still have a reason to live, even if it's painful sometimes.

One of my biggest fears is finding out that time travel exists, but that it isn't able to take me back far enough to change anything.

without downloading any pictures, where are you mentally

Me coming back to One Piece and being as into it as I am kinda cinches the theory I had that everything that made my life in 2003 will always be part of my life.

Keep getting hit with a wave of "suddenly, everything has changed." Whenever I think too hard about where my life is now.

Need more One Piece merchandise in the form of models and figures. I'm severely lacking in my newest oldest hyperfixation.

Here's a fun bit of Effie lore; neither me nor Rory know where the name "Fox Thots" came from. We woke up once day with it as our Twitter name and went "Yeah, sure, we can keep it."

Oh it's been a minute since I've been here. Gotta update some stuff.

I feel like I woke up and immediately fell down the stairs. I don't wanna mess things up too badly.

Oh, I actually did that.