You know, For most my 20s, Ive inadvertently put others up on pedestals mentally. I will find a thing in a person that I admire and by extension put myself down for thinking I dont have that thing. If they have that thing, then surely they have everything figured out, right?

I am so proud of myself! Im about 7IBS away from my year weight goal Ive set for myself. Ive lost a total of 23IBS from June to now October. From a mix of gallbladder issues and making the decision to move and eat better for my health.

They finally got back to me for my dermoid cyst surgery, FINALLY!! Nov. 10th Im getting these suckers evicted from my body. Phew. Im so relieved, its not even funny. 😭😭 Im still switching to a new OBGYN after this procedure and follw up because my current one's office absolutely stinks.

I called another OBGYN to set up a first-time patient appointment on Halloween. 🙃 Both my sisters go to her. Tired of getting the run around with this dermoid cystbsurgery and my current OBGYN. Im just so upset, frustrated, and want to be listened to and taken seriously.

I am so frustrated.... I talked to my OBGYN on yhe 25th. Gave the ok for this cyst removal surgery. Said to contact the nurse to schedule. Its been almost 2 weeks. Called at least 5 times last week, left a message Monday. Left a message Friday. Went physically to the office yesterday. Nothing.

I found snails during my morning walk! Look at them go ~ 🐌

Ive started like....going "Hey gorgeous/ sweet cheeks, looking GOOOOOOD today" and making kissy faces and eyebrow waggles at myself in the mirror in the morning And it is so stupid, makes me laugh. xD Its also giving me more confidence in myself too though.

Im both incredibly surprised and happy with how better Ive felt and the weight Ive slowly lost simply eating smaller portions and going on 1 to 2 10 to 12 minute walks a day. Really eye-opening just how bad my eating habits were and how sedentary I was. I wish I learned this sooner....

I went yard-saling yesterday. Kicking myself for not getting the almost complete set of the Anne of Green Gables series for 50 cents a pop. C': It just didn't have the first book so I left it. Sigh.... I did get a classic horror movie collection from the 20s to the 60s, so there is that!

Im going to a hair appointment today go get my hair lopped off into a bixke cut. Im super excited since this is my first time going for a super short haircut ever! C: I may or may not hate it after the first day, but thats fiiiiiiiine!!!

Im slowly learning that being active does not mean I have to push myself every single time. Nor should I. Its just simply moving my body and I should take it at my own pace. Change is gradual.

Mercy, Im just remembering the French musical Notre Dame de Paris that I was introduced to taking French aeons ago in high school. I freaking think is musical is absolute art. Have "Belle" from it:

Im over here twiddling my thumbs waiting for a call back from my OBGYN's scheduler to discuss a surgery date. Which may not happen for another day or two. I wish this stuff didnt take forever just to schedule something.....

heyo here's my ref sheet for reference, since some folks on stream wanted it today <3

⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨ ᰔ 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 ᰔ ୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹ How-dee-doo, dearest! It's your local Figment here fluttering by to say hello! Ancient sentient fae-rytale decidedly turned #vtuber, albeit a lazy one. Maker of things, godmother to many. Overall, a giant silly. Charmed! 💗 *:･ﾟ✧ 🎨: @velyhua.bsky.social

Just to clarify, I was recording this Lion King one-take cover in OBS and hit the live button by accident. 🥲 There is like a minute VOD of me singing Can You Feel The Love Tonight.

If you saw me go live, no you didnt!!

I had a dream last night that had the cutest frog plushie in it It round bright green with yellow button eyes, a big :3 mouth, and a royal blue circle tummy, with yellow ⭐️ stars all over it! As well as a cute little teeny weeny purple wizard hat. Im sad it was just a dream and not real. 😭

Ive been playing the heck outta Story of Seasons: Grand Bazaar and OMG-- IT IS SO HARD TO CHOOSE A MARRIAGE CANDIDATE? THERE ARE ALL CUTE?? HOW DO I CHOOSE?? Can I just marry them all?? Just need a really big bed!

I got a call from my OBGYN and got the ok to schedule the bilateral cystectomy with his secretary after explaining the procedure to me. .....Sadly shes out till Monday but they put a note in to call me. I also got a little emotional as there is a potentialof me losing an ovary....

They canceled my appointment with my OBGYN Ive been waiting 2 weeks for like 10 minutes ago due to an emergency. Yay. :') FML.

Oh my sugar honey iced tea-- I am so nervous about this appointment with my OBGYN for this dermoid cyst removal. Im so hoping they can get me in soon soon so I can get started with recovery. Like end of October / early November. Crossing my fingers. l 🤞

‼️ Health Update Vid ‼️ Just to say what all has been going on with me. 🥲

@multivyrz.bsky.social did an AMAZING job with this art of me and my boyfriend @kerasitheos.bsky.social !! C: 💗 We look AMAZING together As we alwaysdo. 😌👌

Her face literally lights up now!! GAWSH SHES SO CUTE AUGH!!

I've just realized in just a few short years I shall become what the children call a hag. I shall begin my training to become a bog witch. And raise man-eating horses that can turn into birds. Good good!

I'm talking with my OBGYN Tuesday about scheduling my next surgery to remove my dermoid cysts and I am so nervous. 💧 I will be relieved to have this big ol grapfruit and lemon out of my body. But I am chewing my nails on the recovery time. Bleh.

Since a litte before my gallbladder surgery, my change in diet, and active walking Ive lost a decent amount of weight. At least a total of 20-25 pounds from June to now the end of September. I keep getting worried Im losing too much in such a short amount of time. 🥲 Hopefully not...

Felt well enough today to do crack open my laptop and do some tweaking of my model. C: I think she looks super cute!

Trying an extremely watered down half cup of black coffee for my Saturday morning escapades 5 weeks post op gallbladder removal surgery. A half cup unwatered down shredded my insides 2 weeks post-op so Im testing the waters. Keep me in ya thoughts. 🥲

I feel like such a whiner but man I am so tired of being sore and having random pains in both my sides and abdomen. Yesterday was tough with it feeling like someone was using my left side as a stress ball, squeezing it for 4 hours. Gallbladder surgery recovery has been slow. 😟

Omgggg jfnfcktmg I got myself tearing up over a double whammy of some elderly fellah sharing his grief over a bunny he had lost and appreciating the fragility of life and love. Then an hour later Im hit with Mako as Uncle Iroh singing Leaves From the Vine. Bust my heart up into sand, SURE!!

Ive seen a new special edition of one of my fave books: Howls Moving Castle by Dianna Wynne Jones and it is BEAUTIFUL. Royal blue with a gorgeous book jacket and shooting stars painted on the pages. I cant afford to get it right now but I want it. AUGH!!

Im bringing my sidewalk coca cola lafufu to work to forever grace my office desk. Right next to my gnome frog and Golden Girl tarot cards. My desk is a veritable feast off funky things for the eyes. 👀

Ive said it a few times now, but-- I'm so looking forward to doing streams and making dumb short videos again. When Im not constantly tired and sore from surgery recovery and simple exercise. Been very slow, Omg. Both really are a great love and hobby of mine.

Fate has dropped a labubu in my lap today. Or well, in the grass more accurately. Found one on the sidewalk while on my morning walk some kid must have dropped. So Im a labubu father now, I suppose.

Every once in a while Im reminded of a song I wanted to work on. It was a forlorn / wistful thing about wishing to know family members I never got the chance to due to them passing away when I was very young. Being only able to know them through memories of my family and pictures.

I just did a head count of all the fricking vtuber kids I have. Give or take, I have at least 33 vtuber kids. From silly models to serious models (Not including me being my own child and the butt ton of models Ive made for myself. AHEM.)

I like how Im (not so) slowly becoming a tea addict thanks to my body's current intolerance to caffeine. 🥲 3 cups a day and counting for a week. F in the chat for my prior sugary coffee drinks obsession.

Gosh, I will never forget my one time I did a Pokémon DnD campaign. Where I played a 12 year old daughter of a Nurse Joy turned goth troubled child that got entangled in the Pokémon mafia. Those were the days....

I really want to find some more herbal teas that don't contain caffeine or are acidic for my recovering digestive system.... Been enjoying peppermint and chamomile but Id like to broaden my horizons.

Mannnn, Im so sad I slept on the OG Story of Seasons / Harvest Moon: Grand Bazaar. Kid me would have ate it up tbh. Or well, at least the remake right now is consuming my life.

I noticed I get a lot more reactive (IE happy crying.) with getting gifts and art now. Which surprises me. Im usually one who doesnt cry unless Im in extreme emotional distress or pain. 🤔 Health issues must be causing me to open up more. I dont think its a bad change tbh.

🌟 ✦ #vocaloid ✦ #初音ミク ✦

howl eating a star

🌌Reflection 🌌 As always, I love painting my dear #PrincessTutú 🦢

I just got Story of Seasons: Grand Bazaar. I just realized my character "Sweetpea" looks a lot like Maomao, oop.

Every once in the while I remember and mourn the fact that a Disney movie deeply inspired by Appalachian culture never made it into full production. 😭 It also would have had Dolly Parton in it as a desired voice acyor, from what I remember. I would have LOVED that movie.

Vtuber Q&A Selfintroduction [ #vsky #vtuber #vtuberuprising ]

Sooooo I only got 1 hour of sleep last night. By back and sides were enflamed all night and it didn't let up till I had a bowel movement in the morning. Im very sore and I want to cry...