Oughhh at work on 1 hour of sleep i can feel my brain in my head

one of the goofier results of all this came the other night while i was listening to the DTRH furry video again, and got to hear snippets from squee rats furry manifesto + modest proposal again.

all the stuff i dealt with as a teenager obviously left me with a giant, tangled sex repulsion web that ive had to slowly work my way thru over the years, and it was actually only recently tht i realized id gone from 'fetish stuff is no prob, im just not gonna be here for it' to 'idc whats good'

dude i literally had no idea utah had an NHL team until just now what the fuck i thought the clip i just saw was like the rangers playing against a jobber AHL team lmfao

i really feel like i sound mean when i say it but i swear im onto something with it whenever i drop it any time im facing down what i would call 'odd online behavior', i almost always end up chalking it up to me being too realworld-brained - my very public-facing 9-5 dictating my perception of shit

the more time goes on the more i believe im just not cut out for social media shit, even if i repeatedly clear the bar for being an extrovert whenever i take the big 5 or whatever. im like getting less and less tolerant of weird social behavior. like either you fuck with me or you dont

breaking mutual with me on every account and reposting my work anyways feels pretty weird ngl lol glad you like it i guess

also finally scanned this 1 #tombetching

XS_01 #tombetching

These finally came in today lol i was getting worried they got lost in the mail

normally when i run low on funds, its a mix of me paying bills, getting a couple doodads for myself here and there, and buying groceries True sign of the times moment — this time it was almost ENTIRELY due to groceries. Its unreal

i cant bump my kofi on main again man i cant keep fucking doing that to ppl

holy shit i just saw my balance and my fucking heart almost dropped out of my ass its REALLY bad lmfao kms

Ough uh oh i fucked up and ate something gnarly im battling a demon now

its fucked up we met quite a while back on twitter, but after re-establishing a mutual follow after i made my bsky, mio very quickly became one of my absolute favorite artists like everything it does is so much fun

I always get a teeny tiny bit nervous when i do an obvious style study of someone else's work, especially if im doing bits with it, but like i always hope its ok bc im super flattered whenever im on the receiving end Only bits ppl do with my style are Looking Scary or having Whore Eyes though lmfao

got a new-account pornbot follower that had 4 followers and 4600 following, and watched them vanish in real time. nukes top 5 voice did you see it ass moment

Wonder where i got the zinemaking bug from

making a zine

digging thru folders and oh yeah i forgot about this guy waow

Realizing im a furry artist with a newfound interest in old furry shit Why am i not drawing old furry shit fanart. Why am i not doing that already

dude they were fucking cooking with the merch at the first furry convention jesus christ

Dude i gotta fucking comb thru my hundreds of transactions and filter out all the business purchases for my accountant this weekend ouughgfggg my head already hurts

I swear over time this account turns more and more into like... my real-ones-only clubhouse lmfao. Like only the people who truly fw me follow here

The fear that possesses me when i see this in passing again

dude i got off work and came home and im INSTANTLY feeling Ten Thousand times better i want to kiss everyone on the headskull two million measly times

Im just tired man this whole 2mo artblock thing has been like a social nightmare for me alongside the obvious headache. So many fucking mutuals split because im too annoying or whatever and its just so demoralizing lmfao Like dont post anything unless its hole art

Im so sick of people putting on this huge act of pretending to fuck with me, but the second im a normal guy who isnt drawing furry shit, they bail. Only making me want to isolate more.

Relapsed.

I really like these mobile game ads that inexplicably use a png hand with soldering iron its such a funny detail alongside the obvious

Dude the keyword-searching ppl on this site are so pervasive lmfao you cant say 'a rt' or 'd rawing' or 'a pp' or 'd ev' without them showing up. Like this isnt an effective way of networking man u just look like a damn robot

Oh my god just let me pull the fucking absol already

every once in a while im reminded i had like a whole instagram arc where i became mutuals with a bunch of random artists who have, to this day, randomly appeared doing album art for musicians i like wtf

Just for tonal whiplash's sake, the person immediately before him was an old lady with a greeting card-sized watercolor painting she did of a flower

Dude hooolyyy if i wasnt awake before i certainly am now. Its been a minute since ive had to pull out the "sir im not framing this" thing on a client but i think a fucking photo from abu ghraib with a red and blue double mat is fair enough grounds for it

Im surprised furries didn't lose their fucking minds over the koki renamon card honestly

Also very very fun fact but gossan also does a LOT of card art for the digimon tcg

Oh yeah i forgot i caught this freak outside meijer

The council

Walked past two brothers looking at diamond art kits and one asked "they got some gangster ones or is it all just for females" holy shit lmfao

Also very odd but sorta unsurprising for me, its become immediately obvious that i work better at my wagecage job OFF concerta than on it, that im more focused on my work unmedicated, and i think the sole difference here between that and drawing is that im up and moving around

Finally figured out a good, super spaced-out schedule for taking the remainder of my concerta but god damn the day after feels like i took too much dph before i went to bed lol

a weird observation i had about older furry artists - like the ones i was posting about being insanely mean the other week lol - is that they seem to have a sort of resentment for current day nsfw artists just under the surface, presumably because they think what we're drawing is too explicit

im not sure if its just a me thing, like me being too socialbrained or whatever? but any time i see someone following 0 people on a profile that isnt an alt / following 0 people on ALL their accounts, i instantly see it as a weird ego move and instinctively want to avoid them lol

Like Ok twitter link evil i know but theyre old posts its ok x.com/whaddit?s=21...

I love following people back on my art account just because theyre funny as fuck. the nick lajoie funguspotion followback

we've been doing some redecorating in the house and i was tasked with moving/replacing the framed art in the hallway Bro theres a painting in my hallway signed with trits full legal how the fuck did i miss that. its scared both of us its not a common name either what

This has been one of my fav things about flipping thru these old ass comics for sure

Slept for like two fucking hours and now i have to stop the dogs from screaming at an AT&T tech for like 4 hours while he sets up a new box ouhhggff fuck my brain