WIP!!!! Trying to paint my gosh it’s hard.. #oc #ocart #traditionalart

Rook (long hair) and Darius (short hair) are twins who swap bodies (without Rook’s consent). However, their Uncle Lalla is worse than Darius’ selfish behavior. #ocs #ocarr

Begging my brain to allow horniness in but it’s been hard to draw nasties with all the fucking news and irl horror. Still, I can daydream about what he’d do to those nephews (Darius and Rook) of his.

Lalla and his twin nephews. Characters of @bluealaris.bsky.social #ocs #ocart

I’m so bogged down by fanart. Feels like it’s a constant struggle between me and Sephikura. I LOVE them don’t get me wrong, but I feel totally pigeonholed by fanart. I’ll try to draw more oc stuff.. just always feels like there’s no point.

Aside from any and all grieves about race and culture, I found the movie beautiful and bleak. Haven’t had watched it for over twenty years, and only on TV, Lawrence’s torture/implied rape was much more graphic than I imagined for this day and age. A downer, but well cast.

Before the end of the year post your favorite art pieces of 2025 and tag 3 mutuals to do the same Thanks for the tag! *NSFW warning @gunmetalrose.bsky.social @verasaur.bsky.social @altidae.bsky.social

Some soothing entertainment and light reading. ( sarcasm )

Went to the Nutcracker with @bluealaris.bsky.social and it was magical. Used to go as a kid in Pennsylvania but this was my first show at the SF Opera House. On a sidenote I’m grateful I have greasy skin because I’m a year away from 40 now and don’t feel I look it.

🐈 “I’m TRYING to mate my wife.” 🦅“I’m trying to mate mine.” #nebudalan #ocs #wip

🐈 “I’m TRYING to mate my wife.” 🦅“I’m trying to mate mine.” #nebudalan #ocs #wip

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Well I’ve reached a new depressing low in my reading of Kadare’s novels. Could not enjoy this book, and am now walking away in pain. Totalitarianism and hypocriitical regimes that destroy humans wantonly. Not a holiday read!

Buying a dozen old library books for thirty bucks feels pretty productive and sound in this modern hellscape. Now to read through them like popcorn.

Hands down best Christmas purchase. 🎄

Woe be to me a mono-singular English speaker, for the world of literature is vast and I have so little ability to grasp it. Woe!!!

Amazing how Kadare fleshes out the Ottomons. How they eat, they dream, how they plan and rage war. The Albanian’s are written with no characters, only chronicling their diligence. For anyone curious as to how Ottoman siege war functioned and the perils of a huge army vs a formidable Albanian castle.

Reading a bunch of Albanian fiction (specifically trilogies about Ottoman rule) and all the bad guys look like this in my canon because of his incredible art. Thank you for the food.

Something that compels me through every Kadare book is that he ALWAYS has at least one beautiful man whose attractiveness is commented upon. Whether he lives or is a good person is not the point. #booksky

Taking a break because I am shaking with fear but this is the correct order to read terrifying, horror driven historical fiction. This is hard mode terror, long drawn out existential historical pain. Nothing gratuitous, only dread of the inevitable events that unfold. #ismailkadare #booksky

‘Guess life is long And filled with sadness On borrowed time From Mr. Madness’ One week sober as I struggle with mental illness. It’s good, it’s just empty without the ritual of smoking. Filling my day with books and dogs and wife time.

Kudos to me who slogged through the most depressing book I’ve ever read. Doesn’t help I read the last in the trilogy first, made this one ever more bleak. Chronicles the trickle in of Turkish invasion into Albania in the 1300s. Great author, horrifying book.

Some food for thought.

Spotify thinks I’m 80. Must be all the Soul, Gospel, Opera and Secular music. 😩

Taking two vaccines in one day completely wiped my Saturday off the planet. I feel absolutely FINE today but yesterday was like a pain curse. 😖 I’m happy it’s over and I can have my body back.

I have given away more than a dozen props of this guy and he just keeps making babies PLEASE DUDE😩

If you see this, post your favorite Pokemon! PSWSH is the only Pokemon game I’ve ever played and this guy haunts my dreams in a good way.

This was the funniest thing. The squirrel ate more than half of that huge apple! Goma did not approve. Sound on!

After 14 years of daily smoking I finally quit. I don’t even have the desire anymore, I just want to move forward being healthy. It’s a huge mountain I’ve been climbing and finally I’m over the peak and on my way home to recovery.❤️‍🩹

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 3/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 3/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Hoya griffithii Splash finally flowered after a year of rapid growth. Scents around Midnight to 2 AM so the house smells like tropical flowers in the dark.

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 2/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 2/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Super grateful to wife and friends who included vegan dishes into Thanksgiving. We have a toddler in our midst and it’s kind of a relief to be around found family. Missed the holiday vibe.

Reflins Modern AU idea from my partner. Genius. #reflins #flins #rerir #genshin 💥🪦

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 1/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Reflins Modern AU idea from my partner. Genius. #reflins #flins #rerir #genshin 💥🪦

Yousef is an Omega 4/?? 🌙✨ Uh oh, he’s hot(ter). #ocs #ocart #indiecomic #yousefcomic

Anemoia Pale Flame 🪦💥 1/?? #flins #rerir #reflins #genshin

Yousef is an Omega3/?? 🌙✨ Family gatherings. #ocs #ocart #indiecomic #yousefcomic

My therapist suggested distracting myself and I might just try to learn Arabic to get my brain away from horrors. Just a whole language to zone out.

Yousef is an Omega3/?? 🌙✨ Family gatherings. #ocs #ocart #indiecomic #yousefcomic

Fuck it, Christmas tree is up. ⬆️

With respect I realize I’m am most socially comfortable with 50-70 year olds than anyone younger than me… how did I become so old. (almost 40) I think it’s the enticement of a life well lived as opposed to the lack of experience many young people have in general.

When I see grown ass people with thousands of followers get upset because people comment ‘this reminds me of’ I can’t help but think what a petty bitch they are. Scroll past and appreciate the intent. I’m sorry your oc is not that fucking unique..

Wow scrubbing carpets for four hours because I’ve raised two puppies with these rugs gosh damn it. At least the house is immaculate. I have a grown up house. 🏠

Not even all the pages… #reflins #rerir #flins #genshin #wip

Not even all the pages… #reflins #rerir #flins #genshin #wip

I’m sitting on 36 pages of weird abortion RerirxFlins doujin and wondering what the fuck I’m doing here and why… How did we get here?