Maisie Peters dropping the most perfect love song while i was in Cyprus was both entirely predictable (she announced it last week) and still managed to hit me like a train. i wanted to be immortal now i’m fine with growing old 🥰

if anyone was wondering what drinking with me is like, Mx has just threatened to go on a sex strike if i don’t stop calling cum “laundry sauce”

This week’s episode is here - ‘Controlled Violations: Consensual Non-Consent and Modifying Consent for Kink’ - all about CNC play and dynamics #kink #podcast kirizal.com/dontscarethe...

“Something I’ve been ignoring starts to creep up on me in the Cyprus sunsets, and I start to look for a certain name in my notifications, and pretend I wasn’t waiting for it when I see it. They’re keen, nothing to do with me. Right?” From my kink journal Nov 2023 kirizal.com/2025/10/07/f...

Seen some people complaining TLOAS isn’t relatable - i recommend listening to it in a securely attached relationship with a person who looks at you like you’re Their whole world. Helps if They’re 6’5 with a massive cock. Just saying 👀

Loving my analytics revealing today that a LOT of O/our podcast listeners are Swifties 😂 absolutely dead day and i’m happy to see it, i also have been putting absolutely nothing in my ears other than TLOAS

New episode out now - 31 Days of #kink: Beating a Olay Slump. W/we talk about making time for intimacy in all kinds of relationships, and O/our 31 day challenge to play more #bdsm #podcast kirizal.com/dontscarethe...

Podcast recordings are done up until early December, and editing up to early November 🥳 Very proud of how on top of things W/we’ve managed to stay! The problem is now i’m so impatient to share ALL the episodes

If anyone is interested, here's a petition asking the government to not introduce digital ID petition.parliament.uk/petitions/73...

as a fan of noncon, dubcon and under/non-negotiated cnc this is honestly one of the most straightforward explanations of this i've ever read?

me: *explaining to Mx what kind of things i wanna cover in a podcast episode about anal* Mx: oh god, you’re going to make Me talk about having a big penis aren’t you? me: oh yes. Yes i am.

i need someone to explain to me why spending one day in the office yesterday has tired me out more than getting actually literally tortured for three hours on Saturday did. it’s not even the job, i love my job and working from home it’s very chill, but something about the office kills me

Episode 5 is out now - ‘i Can Do This All Day: O/our First Interrogation’ all about the process of planning and doing an interrogation scene, from ambitious concepts, technical setup, emotional impact, strategy, through to aftercare. #kink #bdsm #podcast

“Not this second. Not the next. Everyone breaks, given enough time, but i lost track of time a long time ago and it’s not fucking real anymore.” Another post for the morning crowd - my first experience of interrogation play #kink #bdsm #blog kirizal.com/2025/09/22/n...

“They set down a watering can on the side. They set down a bowl, and i catch a glimpse of soaked cheesecloth. i want to look away. i physically recoil. But i force myself to look. “Do you want to know how long you’ve been in here?”” kirizal.com/2025/09/22/n...

Post interrogation. i won! 3 hours done, didn’t give up the info & the only full sentence i said was “i can do this all day”, though admittedly there were a good few “oh god, no, please” moments after that (it is not wise to wind up a Sadist). Blog post coming soon, i’m still collecting my thoughts

setup done for the interrogation scene later - three projectors (with built in speakers), an extra speaker, cctv camera with built in mic and siren, plastic sheeting. And that’s before Mx brings in any of the ✨implements✨ They’ll be using. So many possibilities 👀

i think the interrogation scene W/we’re doing tomorrow must be the most W/we’ve ever spent on kink kit for a specific scene. W/we have more expensive stuff, but three mini projectors for (so far) one evening’s play feels the most excessive 😅

Can confirm it wasn’t nice at all, but briefly hilarious when literally as Mx was blindfolding me to get started They were like “hang on… i need to look up some information” and it turned out They had forgotten my birth name which was a key part of the (awful) scene

New episode day! Longest and spiciest episode yet - and also my personal favourite of the ones W/we’ve recorded so far. Chatting about kink and sex and how they intersect for U/us, shame, sexual function, and lots more. Available in all the places, enjoy 🥳 #kink #bdsm #podcast

me: what are W/we doing tonight Mx? Mx: you don’t need to know that me: will it be something nice Mx? Mx: No. so that’s terrifying 😂

Trying to find a clip of the next Don’t Scare the Newbies! episode to promote it with on tiktok but it’s about sex and it is just too spicy 😂 not a single minute of it that isn’t full of algorithm-killing words. Really making me realise how often W/we say penis 😂

i’m into some painful stuff including actual real torture but i still think the most agonizing thing i suffer is making pulled pork in the slow cooker for 10 hours right next to my work desk. i can smell it ALL DAY but not eat it yet 😭

kirizal.com/2025/09/10/t... “When dominance is deeply inherent it does not need to be displayed in every moment, to every person. When it is performed, it is targeted, precise, and carries the weight of all that quiet confidence behind it. It is undeniable.” FINALLY a new blog post! #kink #bdsm

It’s new podcast episode day 🥳 this one is all about communication in D/s relationships- consent, negotiation, and how W/we structure O/our monthly check ins (with some clips from one of O/our actual check ins included) #kink #bdsm kirizal.com/dontscarethe...

So many Swifties are buying the orange lipstick Taylor wore on New Heights and i support you guys but i am self aware enough to know that i smoke too much and drink too much coffee to wear a warm toned lipstick 😂

i try not to value my content by the analytics because social media is fickle and a handful of people who get something from my posts are more valuable than lots of casual impressions… but fuck me. the podcast numbers. i might actually cry. you lot have made my day 🖤

Episodes 1&2 of Don’t Scare the Newbies! are now available everywhere! i set it for 5am release so it’d be ready for people when they woke up i wasn’t expecting to see the streams going up this early - some of you were really keen!!!

Into the final week before the podcast starts - 11 episodes recorded, 4 fully edited, pages live and ready to follow on all platforms, Mx losing Their mind because They’ve just been hit by the reality that people are actually going to listen to this, all go go go 😂 AND already planning season 2

it’s coming! Finally ready to share that O/our podcast has a name and a release date - Don’t Scare the Newbies! will be available everywhere 3rd September, with my partner joining me as co-host!

kirizal.com/2025/07/27/s... “The me who’s here now can’t say yes to this. Past and future me have that covered. For this little piece of disconnected time, cut cleanly and brutally from the whole, They entrust that yes to Mx. To hold, to take, to desecrate. In this moment i will know only no.”

Using my tiktoks to try to work out when i last washed this bra (it’s not good news…)

just listened to the first two episodes of O/our podcast 👀 yes, O/our, i have somehow managed to convince Mx to be my cohost 🥳🥳🥳

this morning i cried because i have gained (a tiny amount) of weight and this evening i suggested W/we order the “family feast” deal from a local dessert takeaway (3 cakes each) and if that doesn’t sum up the luteal phase nothing does

my slow cooker is one of the best things for me as a busy sub but it is also absolute torture working from home 5ft away from it. Been able to smell Spanish chicken & chorizo all day and can’t eat it yet 😭

“business meetings” between two self employed people are chaotic as shit because why did i just drink a bottle of wine with a stranger on a monday evenings? the vibes? yeah and it was great no regrets

the only dance moves i know i learned from pole dancing so that ends with me absentmindedly aggressively bouncing my ass to entirely inappropriate songs. currently Survive by Lewis Capaldi

If you serve a Dom, communication isn’t optional. It’s essential. You both need to be fulfilled, aligned, and understood. Zack and I talk often. I know his limits, his desires, his triggers and he knows mine. Communication is what keeps the dynamic strong & honest. Remember this!

Something i forgot in my blog is that my heart rate went *down* during waterboarding, i was so scared before that my resting heart rate was 101 and it got as low as 74😅 doing it again later & i’ve got the proper fear, so maybe the real fear play for me is scheduling waterboarding more than doing it😂

kirizal.com/2025/06/26/g... “The pours come – longer, closer together, and i learn to trust the thread of my own breath as it runs through them. i taste water but i taste air too and i remember who i am. i am someone who survives.” Got waterboarded, processed some trauma, wrote about it

me: mentions in passing in a tiktok video that i write more explicitly about sex on my blog my blog: gets the most views it’s ever had in a day you’re all PERVERTS (and i love and respect it, because same)

Realizing waaay too late i should probably batch film some stuff for tiktok before i get my lips done tomorrow because last time i was so bruised i couldn’t film for days 😂

Mx is reading this right now and just loudly snorted at the “this is not just a ‘Mx is great at eating pussy’ brag post” bit

Podcast recording starts tomorrow 🥳 gonna be mostly writing outlines tonight - busy busy!

kirizal.com/2025/06/10/a... “Most of the time there was no issue with my partners’ skills – the issue was my headspace. i had – without being consciously aware of it – put giving oral squarely in the “submissive act” box.” On what counts as a “submissive act”, and overcoming my barrier around oral

Something is coming…

kirizal.com/2025/05/07/t... “Good girls say no, and i grew up into a sinful enby but i sure as fuck love to say no. i can scream it if you like. Cry a little too. i don’t need to know why my own enthusiastic yes makes me drier than the Sahara to know that it does.” CNC, safewords, & love as madness

kirizal.com/2025/05/06/t... “The rule is simple – i can’t use any word longer than two… can’t say that one. Two word-bits. You know, those sounds that add up to make a word.” On speech restriction play and bimbofication - though i can’t use those words in the post. Too many *word-bits* #kink

vm.tiktok.com/ZNd2PCeFa/ My series on O/our D/s rules on Tiktok is finished! Contemplating doing one on the contract next but O/our contract is veeeerrry heavy TPE and might not land well with that audience 😅

Watching porn does not “rewire your brain” or any of the other similar stupid claims anti-porn activists have been making for years