i keep reporting an ad on tumblr because when i scroll past it it flashes and while it doesn't hurt me, it's very noticeable and unpleasant, but that could do some damage and no matter how many times i report it it still shows up. functional app

idk who needs to hear this but you should interact with that oomf you think is “too cool/funny/talented” for you. people like when you talk to them and more often than not they want to talk back, promise 🫶🏻

i did not think i would end up fixated on diabolik lovers in the year 2025 but here we are i fucking guess

played through his route in More Blood first and felt like this the whole time tbh

i am noooot drunk enough to be okay with being alive rn

god i wish i could take another trip to daiso right now i miss it

i WANT to SLEEP

struggling to sleep

ok sorry i'm gonna go on a little rant here but to summarize real quick: if you think AI art is real art, you can unfollow me right now

felt okay, remembered why i was upset, became upset again

really old account on twitter that i haven't logged into in years and literally forgot i had just got suspended for "inauthentic activity" like what

bsky app icon finally updated, is now a slightly different blue and looks strange to me placed beside pixiv

let me make actual polls on here you cowards

i'm losing my marbles a little lately

one single win this year and it is apparently getting to experience this myself 🙃

i love trying to explain my thing with numbers to people who do not experience it because how do you say "hey the volume on my television can't end in a 4 because that's bad" and sound normal

"there's nowhere to go from the bottom but up" brother if there is a crack in the ground you can bet your ass i am unlucky enough to be the one person that is able to both find and slip through it

being able to do something with drawing and writing would be nice, i'd like to learn more languages too, but not everybody drops a gem and i don't feel like i could be someone who did

i want to not be broke anymore because this is miserable, likewise i do not want to end up in another place that makes me so miserable i would rather have no income than remain, i feel like shit and everything is hopeless

angry

the whole year has been bad luck and bad news

IMPORTANT A new scam is going around where you'll be walking down the street and there will be a big red X painted on the sidewalk. DO NOT STAND ON THE X!!! If you do, a grand piano will fall on your head!!! This happened to a friend of mine and his teeth were piano keys for weeks! BE SAFE!!!

babygirl i can cycle through more emotions in five minutes than you could believe haha 😏

almost forgot to post this one poomang.com/en/t/magical...

if i had not grown up being treated like my needs and feelings are a burden, and if that treatment had not carried into adulthood, i likely wouldn't be so fucking angry, sensitive to exclusion, and scared to voice when i need something

another thing that is a very good shortcut to pissing me off is someone taking up more space than they need to, and when you pair that with encroaching on the small amount i take up? i see red

"i'm going to calm down and not be angry about not being able to eat" (<- a lie every time, apparently)

oooohhhhghgghhh poomang.com/en/t/keyword...

mobile games save me

talents include saying "this doesn't bother me anymore" and then being bothered by it moments later

feel hateful and angry right now

drawing has been the only thing keeping me from crying today and right now i am so frustrated by it that i want to cry bro i'm gonna fucking eat glass

everything registers as pain and everyone looks like an enemy

what is this fucking mental state i am constantly agitated and confused and i don't know how to fucking fix it

hungry, but all i currently have is various types of ramen, i both do not want ramen and do not want to make it, and don't know if i could bring myself to eat it if i did make it anyway

me beating back my emotions with a stick knowing full well they'll just explode if i remain unwilling to face them:

is this seasonal or is something really wrong here

this makes sense because i cannot for the life of me do math www.idrlabs.com/intelligence...

my back hurts from carrying the team 😤💪💪🔥🔥💯💯 (<- depression and anxiety)

i've finally become someone who can do it (<- finish drawings i started months ago)

it would be so cool if clip studio didn't want to fight me so damn hard when it came to uploading work to the cloud bro

oogh job interview today

started drawing again today in an attempt to not be anxious about my interview tomorrow and my tooth stuff and i actually had a really good time

extreme tooth pain is getting progressively worse every day and if it's infected i cannot afford to take care of it so i guess i'm probably gonna die from tooth infection 👍

wow bro i am so tired of having my card info stolen

honestly don't crucify me but the more i read the more i think it is a very real possibility i could have bpd

"kids today probably wouldn't know how to operate a vcr haha" i can assure you that a vcr is likely not the most complicated piece of tech today's youth are handling

frequently remember that time my dad told me in an argument that i was "lucky he and my mom didn't believe in abortion when she was carrying me" lmao

i retyped this so many times trying to think of something to say that would be worth something, but all i can really say is that i wish there were more things keeping me alive than just my cat right now