a friend had drinks at a little courtyard bar literally down the street last night, so i braved taking baby in the carrier. possibly slightly insane of me but it was nice to get out and she just slept the whole time.

it’s nice i’m getting some reliable sleep stretches as it lets me spend some time with mabel and reset everything or start getting dinner ready. last night i went to bed at 8.30 as i know Tilly has been sleeping solidly 8-midnight and it made a big difference to my exhaustion levels

mabel went on a pooping spree and TWICE people walked by with stank face as i tried to manoeuvre the pram, handle Mabel and scoop the poop. they were totally unencumbered, could have easily stepped around us and i’d pushed the pram as far aside as i could but how dare anyone exist i guess. 🙄

slowly finding some sort of rhythm to our days. mornings are a disaster but we got out for a long walk this morning (Mabel getting more comfortable walking with the pram). Matilda has been asleep for an hour & i’ve managed to reset the house a bit and scrub out the tea i spilled on my sofa 🤦‍♀️

i’ve taken to singing random songs off spotify to Tilly at night. i quite enjoy it as i love singing along and she is too young to complain. we’re doing Andrew Bird tonight.

was desperate for some more sleep at 7am and it just did not happen, yet somehow i have also not found the time to get dressed.

today is not a good day

mabel looked at me as though offering her some time on the beach was akin to running through hot coals so i’ve given up trying to make either of them happy and gone home.

was losing my ever loving mind between tilly crying and mabel barking. have driven to sandringham beach and am getting myself a iced chocolate with tilly in the carrier and then mabel can have a run

everyone else’s freaking dogs love to go for a walk.

matilda is awake all night till 4am. finally get my shit together to leave the house for a much needed coffee and mabel refuses to move, to go forward or backward. so i’m stuck in the laneway instead of getting five minutes down the street for coffee

the schedule is my new best friend

anyway now with our lovely schedule baby is in bed and i can have some time to actually pay attention to mabel and eat haighs

love when i have not eaten yet at 7.45 but both the dog and the baby are protesting the meals that were made for them. i know neither knows any better but maaaan

talking to Centrelink recorded voice. “tell me your customer reference number” “i don’t have one you fucking idiots” “i think you said ‘I want to talk to an operator’. is that right?” close enough

the doula was here this morning. she walked with mabel & I, got me coffee, set me up with a foot spa, got Tilly to sleep 2 hrs, made me lasagne for dinner & an egg & bacon roll for breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, picked up my chemist order, fitted my carrier & wrote me up a workable schedule. gold

i really hope she isn’t going to be one of those babies who just screams alllll the time

i thought pup had been looking so sad so i managed to find 30 minutes to play fetch and search games games with her. she was so happy. need to do that more often but it’s freaking impossible.

baby will not stop screaming. it’s doing my head in. pondering giving her back. she keeps wanting food then falls asleep after drinking 20ml so i’m continually making fresh bottles. 😱

both my direct reports who got made redundant have found good roles before finishing up. i’m relieved, i felt so terrible about it all

we got an hour walk in. matilda was screaming and i’d tried everything so thought ok we are leaving the house and she fell asleep immediately in the peak whoo! mabel is happy and i met my step goal! have an hour and half now to tidy the house and then a friend coming over.

Damian Hardwick is sitting next to me at the coffee shop discussing Saints’ trade moves LOL

my mum has gone home so flying solo for the first time. feeling mildly anxious in my house but so far we went for a long walk with tilly in the carrier, mabel and tilly are both fed, baby has a clean nappy and while i haven’t had dinner i’ve had cheese and crackers at least. i think we’re managing.

Matilda likes When the Saints Go Marching In as a lullaby 😝

floor hangs

tried to walk mabel. hail. 😭

holy shit this weather. i would not often say this but i’m not leaving the house. i have mabel snuggling on my lap and matilda snuggling against my chest

oh gosh Tilly slept until 3.40. five hours straight. what is this madness

pretty sure i fell asleep with the baby lying on me which is so bad. she slept peacefully for two hours straight like that, of course, but not ideal

have been watching that Sarah Snooks mystery All Her Fault. quite enjoying it, but it was filmed in my neighbourhood and it’s hilarious to see the cafe at the elwood dog beach pretending to be in Chicago somewhere

post partum hormones be bursting into tears because someone online said their elderly dog had outlived all his friends. 💔

i hated being pregnant but i also feel kind of sad that experience is over in a weird way? just cos i doubt it will ever happen again. but as i said, i hated almost every moment. make it make sense 😝

just realised today was Matilda’s due date. crazy. can’t imagine still being pregnant which i probably would be as she wasn’t budging

milk drunk lil 🌈 baby

my neighbour left a smoothie and a muffin with a card on my doorstep. how nice is that!

i’ve lost about 5kg in the past two days - can only assume it’s all fluid as my ankles were like sausages. insanity. i actually weigh less now than immediately before pregnancy.

had the most awful migraine yesterday. had to take sumatriptan at 2am and 4am. very fun. also my feet were so swollen i couldn’t stand on them. spent the whole night peeing and they look slightly better now

I solo travelled a lot in my 20s and early 30s and always found it very stressful. Don’t think I’d do it again. www.theage.com.au/traveller/re...

I need things to do. I’m so bored. People told me this was going to be chaos. I’m climbing the walls. I made a complicated dinner tonight for something to do. Maybe I can do a short course online?

Matilda just received her first bill from the paediatrician 😝 we really do get institutionalised fast as now she needs a Medicare card so I can claim it

I think Mabel is adjusting to baby life. Tilly cried at 4am and Mabel pawed at me then went to the bedroom door. Like come on, our baby is hungry! lol. What a ⭐️

I hate doing nothing all day.

Gave Matilda a bath, went for a walk with one of my doggy friends with Matilda in the pram, got a coffee and the dogs played. Matilda content, Mabel content, I’ve had a shower and a coffee ✅ ✅ ✅

Baths all round. Mabel glad someone else was the victim

Feeling quietly devastated as Mabel is choosing to sleep on the sofa away from me for the first time ever 😢 She just wants to sleep without being woken but I always loved that she snuggled at night.

I remember when I was a kid I used to hope Fergus would become Queen so there would be Queen Sarah 😝 Safe to say that didn’t pan out www.theage.com.au/world/europe...

I watched my Oxford Year and it was so bad it cheered me up

I’m using this app to track baby stuff and the way it summarises makes me laugh. It goes “Matilda Grace had a big pee” and my head goes for something rhyming. “Matilda Grace climbed up a tree”

I’m determined to go get a coffee tomorrow and pick up the script my OB sent through cos the hospital forgot sigh

I can see why people feel Isolated. My mum is here so I’m not alone but I’m feeling left out of my normal life. I just want to take Mabel to the park or have coffee with a friend and it feels like they’re all doing normal things and I’m stuck in the house.