malevolent is fun because i can heavily relate to the protagonist

crazy how i wanted to write a character about how debilitating mental illness, specifically ocd and cptsd is, and now its like "yeah. don't ask about the time travelling cowboy demon"

hry guys is it like. absuve to force your daughter to drink if you know she has a dissociative disorder or (im the daughter.)

when im not grappling with my delusions i draw atro btw

the objective funniest part of playing a warlock is that i have my dm's phone contact saved as "your patron"

had a bad break last night yay

so a thing happened (i have fucking remembered i was diagnosed with psychotic symptoms) and it has dawned on me through a friend and i talking that i am actually like. very delusional. like VERY delusional.

i really appreciate hearing im not alone in my trauma cuz everyone has something going on but like. not when im actively mourning who i could have been if i didn't get so traumatized i forgot 90% of my life for my own sake

really wish my ocd would stop not letting me process anything in favor of ten million insane thoughts about shit id never in my right mind do. girl we just got harassed can we focus on that pls

its so funny to have a trauma disorder when you live with the people who gave it to you lmao "respect us we are ill" says people who famously gave me brain damage

worst shit about being autistic and having intimacy trauma is that i want to hug my friends but it feels like a practical love confession to do so. like it feels inappropriate

anyone turning left at the crossroads btw

if I don't make it I hope Tori does lmao. Get better girl. I love you

tmi but our dm keeps telling me to save my PC because they know i don't see myself worth it and thats sweet as fuck and keeps me going. I'm doing this for Tori thank you

i got the disorder that would've made people from ancient civilizations think i was a vessel for the divine but ~nooOOo~ in this era if i wanna finish a song I'M the one who has to beg every single god that may or may not exist that the novelty won't wear off and force my hand to start a new WIP

vodka yay

"What do you want to be when youre out of school" PROUD OWNER OF A BATTLE AXE

every once in a while i remember having abandonment trauma is sad to people until youre annoying them

hope someone finds this and thinks im funnyblogging im like livetweeting my fucking trauma rn

whatever *pours one derealization's worth of vodka into my wine*

speaking of which i drew the demon horrors #myart

can i project this onto one of my ocs or should i stop ruining their goddamn lives already

hey guys i just fucking had a repressed trauma come back hash tag mytrauma!!!

thinking of how most of my friendships ended because im too goddamn invested in everything i should probably explode about it

i really hope theyre not hoping about the stress induced heart failure

Not a normal person btw but I think I will be okay :)

saw Ghost in fact reposted this (thank you!!) and i lowkey want to gush a little because their music is one of the things that makes me feel. Not seen, because I appreciate it very heavilly that their music is THEIRS, but way less alone. This song specifically gave me words for something I could-

new pfp "afterparty"

talking to me is apparently very fun because i say socially acceptable things like "yeah i was on fire literally all day. kinda miss it"

love reading this account like "who the fuck wrote that"

anyone else feel like they were born with a hole in their heart or is it just me and the crane wives in here

bwuh. IHTDTS fanart while i wait for minecraft to download #palsart

the world is a piece of shit what do you mean i have to like. live with this crap and i can't just go ask an eldritch god to end my life

my own mind is abusing me to the point i have panic attacks.

okay listen when i would rather be locked in a ward reading books for the rest of my life than actually out living i think thats a bit of a problem

i do not think any amount of therapy is going to fix the fact that i genuinely feel like i do not belong in this world

im just experiencinf canon events okay (finding out i do, in fact, have a debilitating disorder that changes my entire life's course)

Tori and her patron as TRUST FALL! Ehehe it was a bit difficult to fit Atropos into the frame it's tall #palsart (does this even count? Sorry if not kdfjghkdgh)

i am so completely disconnected from reality right now

Orpheus.

"mental health acceptance" isn't fucking real IMO "mental health sanitization" feels a Lot more accurate to what I see. source: person with several Scary Disorders

crimes i would not commit if the purge was real: -murder -robbery -any of the big ones really crimes i would commit if the purge was real: -sail under the flag of Liecthenstein

im like if one person was nine people pretending to be one person

there is a problem with me its a disorder called I don't know it is a serious mental disorder where I don't fucking Know.

the fun thing about dissociation is that you want to die. but Flavored

OCD flare over but at what cost (possible dissociative disorder cost)

at least i have you gherle shirato

sometimes however i really wish i could stop living in this fucking society like im sorry. this shit just sucks

a lot of my experience growing up has been being told No One Actually Gives A Shit about the things I thought were important world issues