I think I nearly killed myself with Day and Night nurse yesterday so I’ve gone cold turkey today and I’m at the stage where Dignitas is top of my search history.

I’m ill with a chest infection for the first time in an age and its genesis coincides with the first group gathering I’ve had in about nine months. It’s not encouraging me to exit my hermitage.

Tonight is the Cold Moon… the last full moon before the solstice. A time for going inward to celebrate the dark. Tonight we make a warm drink and pour some outside the door as an offering to affirm we honour endings as a doorway to what’s beyond. Or don’t. Up to you.

I might ask my neighbour to cut their brambles before I need a pure hearted prince to rescue me!

DIY manual: Always ensure you’re wearing protective clothing when embarking on DIY. Me:

Filling a hole or new alien life form….?

GN

It would have been mum’s 72nd birthday today, and in celebration of her life and her talent I had one of her poems drawn up by a calligrapher. She would have loved it…

I’ve continued my taste trial of veggie alternatives. Tonight I had palak koftas in masala sauce with steamed rice. It wasn’t AWFUL but I just got so bored after one dumpling I gave up eating. The good news… I bought an onion bhaji for a poached egg brunch bap tomoz.

Made a gluten free pizza and I neither photographed nor finished it…

GN

Being on the list is no proof of guilt of course. But it is curious how few women are on it, if t’wer completely innocuous…

My veggie cottage pie before the potato thatch goes on!

Meet Kevin… the new yard puppy. He wiggles around at hypersonic speeds so he’s impossible to photograph!

Fucking FIREWORKS! At 2.30am!!! I’m going to need another 6ft hole.

I’m not a vegetarian but 80% of my food is (or vegan). Having said that I just ordered a slow reared, woodland turkey for Christmas and the £120 isn’t paying enough silver to assuage my guilt.

The future has its eyes on us. GN.

Hump day telly with my old girl.

Old men shouldn’t be allowed to stay in power. As their testosterone dwindles it makes them dangerous. Trumpton & Poutine should have their keys snatched by a matronly woman who sits them firmly in a wingback with a sherry to shout at the telly. www.bbc.co.uk/news/article...

‘Dracula’ narrated in Transylvanian. You’re welcome. GN.

At the end of this month it’s mum’s birthday. The first since we lost her. Followed by the first Christmas without her. I can feel my grief jar filling up again… I’ve have some lovely things planned to help mark these milestones. But the sad is powerful.

GN

After a long cold ride on an empty stomach, I deserved my poached egg and onion bhaji bap for lunch.

We went on an adventure today through uncharted (by us) marsh lands. We saw birds of prey, two deer herds, pheasants, heron… and a stallion called Pink Nose who Lewis was keen to show off in front of.

Up the wooden hill to Bedfordshire… GN

I wasn’t sweaty! I was DEWY! And you can’t see the earrings I was trying to show… golden chickens. This also shows my stacked #bumboo toilet rolls. Which I always see as a sign of love and care in one’s home. Anyone using the bog is reassured they won’t be left bereft!

I’ve been listening to Virginia Giuffre’s book. I generally manage two chapters before it’s too much and I need a break. I want these fucking men to have to face themselves in the mirror…preferably in a tiny cell surrounded by inmates with daughters they love.

Not one of you so-called friends gave me the 24hr post beetroot reminder. Not one!

I bought myself a macerating juicer to make the most of the allotment veg. This is beetroot, carrot, apple and ginger juice (with a squidge of lemon juice). Great for your blood and immunity, and it tastes SO good. Don’t ask me for quantities… I just shoved them in.

Today’s adventure involved me making a fool out of a c*nt in a black BMW. I was driving to the yard when he pulled right up my arse driving through a 20mph zone… he accelerated aggressively past me and the car in front of me. I slammed my horn as he laughed driving past…

Brownie with crunchy daim bar shards… these best one yet. #wizardofthesquarepan

GN

Luna 🌙

I made a batch of beef and puy lentil chilli last night, so you know what that means…beef and puy lentil chilli on various other things for the next three years.

I could cry she looks so comfy on her new heated cushion.

Lewis had a check over by the back lady today and he was (as always) the sweetest goodest boy. We now have a pony-Pilates plan to keep him in shape.

For a thing,what’s your favourite soup of all time? Mine is smoked haddock and sweetcorn chowder. It’s a bit stinky to make though.

People who put tomatoes in the fridge are the real criminals.

I love people in London. But I just don’t think I love the city to work in, even after time apart.

Swamp nails.

GN

My sweet old lady decided the hot water bottle I had for my cramps was a comfy pillow… so now it’s hers forever. I’m happy if she’s warm and comfortable.

I’ve just realised the similarities between a box of tampons and a box of ammo…one makes me more lethal than the other, and it isn’t the full metal jackets!

To those who came before. To our mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers, I call to you. Our beloved ones, may your path be lit by love and ancient fire. GN.

Hey Donald…THIS is ANTIFA. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phyllis...

Absolutely stunning evening of haunting and spooky themes from the Fleur quartet and #candlelightconcertsbyfever

Happy Halloween 🎃 from my familiar.

What’s really scary is how gentle the dust down on this needs to be to make it even scarier after nine years… #halloween

GN

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