For the last week, I was dealing with what I thought was my allergies... Found out last night, after my mom coming home from the hospital, that I gave her the flu...

Honestly, cannot wait till tomorrow morning. I am looking forward to getting back to having a job again.

I got a call and potentially might have a job now!

Really need to get a job just so I can get a new pc. This laptop is beginning to kill me.

Honestly, Wednesday can't come soon enough.

I give up on everything. Either no one wants to hire me or all the jobs I find requires certifications, degrees, or is something I can't do because of my asthma... I'm think I'm just going to just stay in bed and never leave again...

What's the point in me even saying anything when no one even listens.

Why do I need to be addicted to so many games at once lmao

Well, I'm not tired anymore...

Depression freaking sucks. It's making me to just take a long break from everything and just disappear again.

I'm about to just give up on this job search again. The only places that's hiring is fast food and I swore to myself I would never go back to that. Too many panic attacks happened there.

Got an email this morning that it was already filled...

Applied for a job. Let's hope I get this one!

I think I'm going to try to get back into Genshin now.

Saving up in Honkai so I can get Phainon is getting so hard. I want all the new characters...

I swear, I hate how my brain works sometimes. I'm playing GW2 right now and I keep switching my characters up because I have no idea what I want to "main". Right now, between Ranger, Necromancer, or staying with my Deadeye...

What if I just don't sleep tonight and just keep playing Guild Wars.

I keep going back and forth from my Deadeye Thief to my Necromancer on Guild Wars... I am now understanding so much as to why my sister keeps changing her class in WoW...

I think once I hit level 80 and finish map completion on my necro, I'm going to fight this anxiety and start asking people for help with things like fractals, raids, strikes, etc. Guild Wars 2 has always been my favorite game since discovering it back in 2018/2019. Only thing I managed to do is get

Kinda want to get a job just so I can buy all the games that I've been wanting, especially CIV 7

I'm just going to get a job so I can get out of this house.

I am on the floor DYING @serincepa.bsky.social

I give up on summoner now. I'm just going to grind levels for either bard or black mage. I res people and still get yelled at for not resing people.

Maybe I should have stayed as a Lalafell... I felt like I had less anxiety while queuing into dungeons...

Waiting over an hour to fight a boss with everyone dying and me forgetting I have a resurrection spell AND forgetting Limit Break was a thing... To who ever was in The Navel (Hard) with me, this SUM wants to apologize.

Once I get myself a job and my house/bedroom all cleaned up, I'm buying a ton of FFXIV and GW2 merch...

If I'm in a VC with anyone and anyone talks about going out to a fast food restaurant to get something to eat, I'm leaving the vc.

I give up. No one is hiring and if they are, I won't get hired.. Fuck this country.

So, I made the decision to just throw the rest of my cigarettes away. And to make sure I don't go digging through the trash, I actually destroyed them before I threw them out. I feel like that if I keep getting them, trying to slow down, I will never quit.

Just did the RIBA farm for the first time on GW2s. I kinda had fun with it.

Love making myself depressed for not having/failing to look for a job...

Seriously missing having a headset right now. I think the next time I get one, I'm going to get a wired one instead of wireless one.

Was going to start using my Desktop computer again once I get an ethernet cable, but turns out, my monitor doesn't want to connect to it...

I think I need to get a new Switch ;.; Mine is no longer charging and I just want to play Legends Arceus...

Sold a lot of my materials in my material storage, and my sister giving me 102 gold, but I finally got my plushie skyscale skin and I am so freaking happy.

I just realized the Skyscale skin I want is in the Gem Store right now and I am crying

Done so much cleaning the last couple days. Gotta say, it's helping with the quit smoking thing.

Not the dogs knocking their water bowl over... If they wanted me to clean more, they should've just said lol

Just realized that I haven't even tried to smoke at all today. I ran out last night and just kind of been cleaning around the house.