Haven't slept at all.. every time I hear Bootsie struggling I have to check on her.. She can't walk at all now, I wonder what I should do for her at this point..

Stayed up taking care of Bootsie instead of going to bed.. when I got home she was limping, and when getting ready for bed I noticed she can't walk or move one of her hind legs at all.. I think it's almost her time

Tonight I took a two hour nap (still feel super sleepy), worked on Live2D... those clipping outlines are still evil and I hate how 5.3 allegedly fixes it but VTS doesn't support 5.3 for the foreseeable future, every fix I thought would work did not work..

I am home after a long day and I am so sleepy I can't keep my eyes open... but I want to finish Live2D so I can then work on birthday plans and also October art challenge ideas.... maybe a little nap won't hurt....

I am very sleepy and today was a busy day but I got everything out of the way, and I've finally got off my butt and started inviting people to birthday stream- I have about two groups worth of cool party gamers lined up (and of course any friends/mutuals/etc are free to hop in if they want as well~)

Skater nyan... GPool is so powerful...

Lilyhoptober is tempting to draw things for, too... at the very least, I really need to draw Lily fanart someday..

i hope you'll join me for this year's lilyhoptober!

Gomen for weird mental state during stream tonight.. I think Fusion was a mixture of frustrating plus just not vibing with things tonight.. feels like I should put my foot down in chat more, but it's not like chat can magically know my vibes, either.. how do people curate a space for themselves..

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"Have you ever drank a coffee?" — I kept meaning to doodle an answer to this but then never did so in short the answer is "a couple times but it wasn't good"~ … alterspring.org/@Nyrator/a/1...

I'm still in bed.... Stream eventually...

I had a very interesting and elaborate dream, which included being in some parade or protest, peeing myself and wearing a plastic bag skirt to hide it, going to a convention, meeting two of my oshis (Picky and Margo), going to a goth clothes booth with a chill owner from my area, and snake venom

In other news Vroid updated and now it has hats and this is very good because the hat sliders are really good I still want to move away from it and make original stuff in 3d.. but it's still really neat... Newsboy caps possible now.. GameCube hat potentially possible...

Headache mostly went away, wasn't able to finish Live2D, but I fixed the gradients I think without needing 5.3~ The only thing left is a cat ear in one angle.. that's it... the other 8 angles are fine, but the 9th is just evil... (plus some body cleanup but that stuff is very easy)

I'm out of bed and my head hurts but today I will try to finish the Live2D maybe... .. but I also need to clean before an inspection on Friday.. Headache don't get worse so I can be productive today..

Despite work, going to the gym, and streaming until 5:30am yesterday, I've still only managed to get three hours of sleep again... Nyehhh... I have had a lot of quality petting time with Bootsie on my chest at least, but I would like to just stay asleep or even fall back asleep..

Bluesky acting scary for some reason...

I stayed up until 5:30am but I beat THPS2 on stream... Curse you, fountain draining... Next stream Thursday, think we'll start Metroid Fusion~

October work schedule- Every Thurs/Fri/Sat (except my birthday week, which is Tues/Wed/Fri instead) So now what's a good stream schedule for October... Any combination of Sun-Wed essentially (except for birthday week), not sure if I should set it in stone or just wing it, will think about it

A sleepy nyan who doesn't want to do laundry and go to work.. Been laying in bed thinking about kindness and stuff today and I don't know how else to say it but I'll continue to dream of a kinder world (and hopefully be kind enough myself)

Oh right stream schedule uhhh Working tomorrow.. but maybe after dark THPS2 stream..? And Thursday will either finish it or maybe start Metroid Fusion~ I also should get my October work schedule this week so I can finally start making proper plans for birthday and stuff

The Live2D is looking really nice and so close to done.. Everything is rigged (I just need to mirror one side to the other once I'm fully confident), there's just a few clipping issues and draw orders to fix still.. I might be able to have it done before October.. Ears and arm ordering, mainly..

Lots of cool people out there.. I always feel like I don't do enough to connect with others (because I'm shy and bad at social stuffs/social media/etc), but there do be a lot of cool people out there even if I don't often show my admiration for them enough..

Today's been a good day for gaming and socializing with peoples and not-so-good a day for Bootsie.. she's starting to decline fast, I think, but she's still just as affectionate at the very least Tomorrow, I need to lock in.. I need to make substantial Live2D progress tomorrow...

Third place in a GPool tournament... I never thought I'd get this far... Had some really fun matches too... Arka bombarded people who played with me with desync messages.. Bob died... I went through the map once.. two last second victories earned me third place in the loser's bracket... good times

A new swellt2 is coming to your air waves. Look forward to 9/29/25

THE TONY HAWK'S PRO SKATER 2 VTUBER INVITATIONAL!!!! www.twitch.tv/swelltimegpool

Computers are scary... I was practicing for the tournament tomorrow, but then all of a sudden my game kept crashing, then every time I launched it it crashed... I restarted my PC, and my main (+ newest) SSD wasn't connected..? But a couple restarts later to look at the BIOS, it's back...? Scary...

Today I tried making cat ears in Live2D and it is still a cruel and evil endeavor I can at least get the general shapes laid out.. but the draw order of all the pieces scares me...

Still feeling off this morning.. (tummy hurt and sleep issues also don't help) Starting to feel overwhelmed again.. Maybe I'll stick to two stream days a week instead of pushing for three until I feel more stable again, maybe I'll stream THPS2 next week after the tournament~

Low feeling night tonight.. struggled with focusing again after work, and I feel like all my efforts to learn how to mod stuff are in vain because my head isn't big enough and too many resources are gatekept and Discord-ed nowadays.. plus Bootsie has me feeling guilty in general

The JSRF modding tools stuff I've followed in the past haven't updated in a while, and so I went and looked stuff up, and apparently it was recently discovered the creator passed away a few years ago.. rip..

Being reminded of a game again I'm probably irrationally a hater for.. being a hater is silly and petty but even I fall victim to it...

I want to sleep longer than three hours.....

THPS still holds up really well.. I'm glad I got to revisit it on stream~ Soon I'll play a bunch of skating games inbetween GC games... the rest of the series, the JSR series, a few GC skating games like Aggressive Inline or Go Go Hyperground or the Disney games..

Haaa... I will stream Tony Hawk today.. but it might be a little late, I'm still completely exhausted and can't leave bed yet, gomen..

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Thinking about Ren and Niki again... They're essentially a prototype of that one comic idea I've talked about in the past.. but they don't feel like they themselves would be fitting to tell it (their vibe is more cutesy and exaggerated, the idea I had was more like.. early Asano Inio-esque)

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No rest for the nyans... I got three hours of sleep and five hours of laying in bed trying to fall back asleep, how do I fix this..

Okay I managed to be productive tonight even if I stayed up later than intended (though I took like two or three naps today so my sleep's already a mess), may have finished a commission I was dragging my feet onn

Feels like a did-nothing kind of day, even though the car stuff is finally done.. I did put together a new shelf and made a nice display for a certain Mono Monet's merch at least So much I want to do, so little time and energy..

I know I keep saying I'm the world's sleepiest nyan lately But boy am I the world's sleepiest nyan... I feel like I haven't slept in two days.. but car is finally taken care of so maybe I'll take a nap...

Awake too early with weird thoughts.. those silly kinds of "people are complicated and I hope I don't push people away" kind of thoughts (I know they're silly but brains are weird when half awake and sleep deprived)

I pulled Ernesto/Fellow within 30 pulls.. thank you Fellow...

I saved the animals and 100%ed the game... I am extremely sleepy and did not eat anything besides yogurt and some peanut butter cups today... I have a busy day tomorrow... but Super Metroid is defeated...