I try not to be, but I am still I watch you for a long time every time the way you move is my favorite song and when you talk, when you laugh I dine on the ambrosial moments still, starved. wasting away was I ever more? never enough you make me want the pain of being real #vss365 #phantom

the way you look at me for me to believe you it takes more than that the way you touch affectionately just isn't enough isn't it funny that it's never full body caress, attractionately I want to feel the way you look at me in your body, with my body more #affection #vss365

fury, us, ours, what's mine is yours mine becomes yours I know we were beautiful, but I was lying the whole time mad that I had to be more just to get your attention to keep it and even then I felt it straying I'll betray you in the worst way maybe then you'll really feel something #fury #vss365

I give to thee and to mee names to control, and define, expectations, power and parameters, to contract and to expand as needed, and as wished. no lamps or stars - the words are ours; the giving mine. but I'll cede that power anytime. just ask. I love to hear you #name #vss365

a shockingly beautiful experience grown dull over a million million mornings, twice the lightening sky; sunrise #lightning #vss365 #pun

I'm really good at putting stuff up on walls they call me tack-tician #tactician #vss365 #pun

I beg them to tear me to pieces, I know I can protect what little is good; the blood, the suffering, nothing compared to being unburdened; they can take the little jealous pieces of my heart, the cursed hands I've thrown at the undeserving; the #wolves can feed and I can be free at last #vss365

jade like a teardrop jewel crying out forever echoing pain stolen from her isn't that art; pain perverted from other persons to purpose persons real or imagined or made real to make their pain more real jade too beautiful to be drawn from a well of suffering but drawn anyway #jade #vss365

they cursed us for generations and all we felt was the gentle lapping of waves undersea, they bided time and prayed to their rocks and concentrated their poison till it was enough to kill our dreams a world inverted where they be kings and we imprisoned turning on ourselves #undersea #vss365

the investiture of a lover through sensual soft touch and consent, honey-whispered words directly down the ear canal, carnal ceremony heightened by our intellect into an artform; but yeah I guess some of y'all just fuck #investiture #vss365

I prefer my seafoam caffeinated at the top of a smooth pour; existing only ephemerally and making a second's delicious sip the beginning of a soda is the best #seafoam #vss365

I hammered down her nails and knuckles that she might not work against me; the tools of my undoing no longer safe in her hands. some mistakes can't be undone but a crippling can prevent further harm. all the blood and bone still wrap warmly around me, even behind these bars #hammer #vss365

the #word is a permissive lover that caresses gently even when pushed past the brink. the word bleeds beautifully the more we beat and never makes us apologize. the word forgives but never forgets and eventually airs our dirty laundry at our expense. the word proves we were #vss365

cold #loop around my wrists and up my arms and down around the whole of me looping looping clasping gripping choking back around the circle of my neck consumed by the cycle imprisoned by the bands I'm just trying to live man but everything everything always closing in I can't I can't I can't #vss365

I wrote something the other day, and I kept it to myself. I used different letters; ones that felt right at the time. Now I just see lines. It was profound; I can tell you it was but I can't tell you why, or how. I'm still glad I wrote it, even if it only meant something that moment #letters #vss365

#water all these posts doin here oh is that how hashtags work always clickin on the dang lil blue words least now I know #vss365

we have to walk the plank and offer ourselves to the deep. if we ever wish to rise we must risk sinking. somehow the currents know when we play it safe and take us only to the same shores, never new heights. join me in this dance, let's twirl, and see how far we go; depths, or skies? #sink #vss365

bird song a sign of better times even now; times happening all around us, without us, still; and perhaps fairly wishing for those times after us, long after; times to #sing freer and louder though it may be a long way off, I hear the song #vss365

justice is #blind because she sees with deeper sense, with more sensibility; the facts are just the barest mortal snippet and we so easily forget the picture, the context, the living painting we're all part of; she doesn't; she knows and weighs it all her touch is lighter, for all she bears #vss365

we built it to hold the most precious things at first it was a grand palace of memories open in its design and flowing invigoration itself to behold it was great and it was beautiful and it let us share our best and carry our worst together now it's locked down and filled with paper #bank #vss365

drag it deep across my faces, that others may read between my lines and at last perceive me. invisible once but now undeniable, I exist in contrast to the pictures put on me. society's bars I glare out from; I can smell your simple fears. you've marked me but the letter's just begun #ink #vss365

he came to this disarmed and though many tried to love him wrapped themselves around him tight he never had anything to wrap back never fettered by connection, he never tried to hold a thing he strode ahead alone and on, and on, got so far but he'll carry nothing with him when he goes #arm #vss365

touch my lines and let mine touch yours and we'll dance the dance of GPS gone wrong, of overlaid worlds colliding in crumpled graph paper bliss; love like destinies lined up and shifting and warm and intertwined; this is only the earliest level, before the bases, shaking hands #hand #vss365

I can feel the grains in the wind and it reminds me of life; all around me floating and tiny cuts; so impossible to find just a piece, and more impossible to find again; I try to hope, to be graced by every encounter; I fail, I lack gratefulness, I blow away; another grain #sand #vss365 #human #❤️

I pen stories pictures paintings worlds brought forth; I pen against the tide and wills and crushing everything; I pen so magic happens in a world that thought it all dead and gone; I - with colossally misshapen and warped fingers bent by intent and purpose - pen, again and again #pen #vss365

our job is to stand between a world that can never be ours and a mind that can never be theirs and #mediate how can we give the best to and get the best from while needing to war constantly with ennui and void just to exist our fragile bridge a body bound inevitably toward death try anyway #vss365

bent at the knees and crumpled hand outstretched entreating is it for loss, for the lost, or for fear of losing and any way it's abject you look upon it and feel disheartened knowing sometimes what's bad has come and what's good is gone #entreat #vss365

the people lived a thousand years for one purpose building their tower to the heavens and readying a single spear God knew it would get the job done centuries passed without a single asked Why? or maybe their echoes were lost in the fall we could all aspire to their state; surpass certainty #vss365

I don't always know what's true or right and I suspect the brush of both is broad and the world painted in many colors and shades, of them but I can always recognize what's wrong at least that something -is- wrong it's in the feelings and effects you'll know it too the world assures #assure #vss365

ay, she's bonny she's funny perfect as can be she's pretty she's witty gentle as the sea [the one I'd sail, at least] she's silly likes my wet willies [if you know what I mean] ain't a blemish 'pon her, not face nor character, cept of course how close she keeps me #bonny #vss365

HARMONY!? ha, they thought; one side to bow before another; NO; the process is folding, folding, both sides bending, then binding, and folding together; they thought they wouldn't have to change; everything changes; PROGRESS is harmony is hard-fought #harmony #vss365

I just touched a stream of hot water and got a static shock. that's it; that's my day so far. didn't know that was possible. sometimes surprise is truly shocking; #lightning to always revitalize my life lest it get stale #vss365

we compare them to jewels because we want to mine and take and own, their beauty ours, it must be, its an inevitability, that's what they're for! it's in my blood, royal lineage of man, to bleed for, make me bleed; I will, I need, she, hers, MINE I get lost in her eyes, every time #jewelry #vss365

administration allow them their sins, forgive their souls, and afford them every last consequence they deserve; magnanimous is welcoming them through the fire, not denying them the flames justice is blind but she must smell them burning #magnanimous #vss365

I mine my soul's scattered scabs; a bountiful harvest; memories of misery contracting my self into fetal claw; growth inhibited; future full of pain; words the only world in which I'm free #bountiful #vss365

the drink abscessed my scattered thoughts and I pushed and drank till burst pus showered down around me; I've made worse mess before but this time I can taste it; acid hurt, she hurt me, again, burns, and I don't even think she meant it; my mind's a mess; drink; and stupor tomorrow #lethargy #vss365

cataracts form where you let them; eyes, mind, soul daily maintenance, mindfulness, gratefulness; good practice; lest you go through the world blind and deaf and numb I fight against the forces blinding every day; I clear myself to see more clearly still the world is clouded #vss365 #cataract

I would wage a greater war than any ever had before if that is what it took to partake in her splendor; but fortunately for the world she's a much gentler soul, and kinder, than the lost beauties who wanted love on the world's pyre; she likes my roguish ways and I'll steal her away #splendor #vss365

there's a certain strength to timidity; a mindfulness, to be aware of all the ways it could go wrong; as courage and confidence have been replaced by thoughtlessness and bluster, let's bring it back; let's be afraid, and hesitate; let's miss a chance now, for something beautiful later #timid #vss365

obsess; we can't even pretend to live in the same world; counting pennies, and spending billions just to shitpost; a fractured world of fractured sanities; I'm full of pity for the pained mind striving just to survive; nothing for the small men lost in their vision; hardly living #obsessed #vss365

the orbital definitions of our lives are mostly fixed; early onset conditions we have little power to redefine yet love carelessly to define others by; oh striving for escape velocity, for the fortune and materiel; oh how many lives lost, how many judged lost; oh how many unbegun #velocity #vss365

the orbital definitions of our lives are mostly fixed; early onset conditions we have little power to redefine yet love carelessly to define others by; oh striving for escape velocity, for the fortune and materiel; oh how many lives lost, how many judged lost; oh how many unbegun #orbital #vss365

the sky is empty no matter how much we pretend; how our hopeful eyes go blind to the night, delusion twinkling like a distant galaxy; it's vast and lonely and no wish can ever fill it, not even a world full of wanting; let ourselves go. and drift. and die. in the dark #stellar #vss365

enchanted? deluded? eyes wide, wired, locked on shiny things made by machines for that precise purpose. I just shake my head and look away; I've got better things. for now, I've got better things #enchanted #vss365

if we zoom out, if we keep zooming everything is miniscule, everything is like nothing if we zoom in, if we come back choose what to focus on, choose let us make what matters matter and let us let the rest be #miniscule #vss365

even in my dreams I don't dare; I have her there, and that's enough. close to me, sharing her warmth with me, giving time to me, and care. it's enough it never will be, but for me, it's enough #kiss #vss365 #poem #poetry #Valentine's #yearning

a trick of biblical proportions; left lacuna in all the holy books; gap spread to other common moral texts; to schools; throughout the peoples I found the section reflected in lived reality; whole, but tough to parse, and tougher to put to practice; how to have Hard Conversations #lacuna #vss365

the scariest thing isn't the dark it's forgetting the part of the dark that's ours forgetting that before us, it all just was till we wrapped our minds around it, shined light and defined it, projected ourselves; now it's just fine to condemn it? I disagree. I know part of it is me #dark #vss365

we touch the world against its will, for many even against our own; hurt compounding hurt; a grave violation. what of those without the words to ask? we could at least listen, to the universe's murmur; pull back from pain, right the wrong; and embrace when there's warmth and pleasure #touch #vss365

A reference to a video posted on MinnMax in congress… weird stuff.