i don’t know how to say this, but i think it’s best that nobody hears from me ever again. for a long time i’ve been a burden on others and no matter how hard i’ve tried to get better, i just can’t pull myself out of this spiral. it’s gotten worse for years and i see no light anymore. i’m sorry.

i wish my life had amounted to anything meaningful

genuinely what am i supposed to do anymore. shit just keeps getting worse and im inevitably just going to start doing this shit over and over again where i vent publicly and make an ass of myself because i feel like i have nobody. i'm so tired of all the things that keep happening

nothing is working

i’m sorry

im sorry to anyone ive concerned regarding my mental health and well being. im still receiving help but barely holding on. i really want things to get better and im sorry for being like this

quick depression break for deltarune chapter 5 crackpot theories

makes me wonder if what got me banned was posting spritesheets with grid patterns, plus the mass reports from bigots. they really don’t want to admit that anything is their fault here because that would completely undermine their moderation and highlight the problem with their reliance on ai

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory with zero basis or reasoning: what if the name easter eggs are characters that are important to the prophecy, and the Knight is kidnapping them to stop the prophecy from being fulfilled? effectively: it's a hit list.

Well, it looks like my time has come... My mom's lost her job last month, and we've been having difficulties finding a new one. We've got 1 week left to find one so we can make it in time to pay July's bills. To that end, I'm opening up a Ko-fi to buy us some more time. ko-fi.com/beholdmaxine

okay done posting about deltarune for now back to feeling horribly depressed ✌️

hyperfixations are a hell of a thing to help with extreme depression but my god is it absolute hell to combine that with being a deltarune fan and its release dates

help me, a disabled transmasc, escape abuse from my step-father tl;dr: stepfather has increased the intensity of abuse from verbal to include physical, and not only do i need out, so do my grandfather and mother, both physically disabled and my mother immunocompromised. ko-fi.com/superkirbylo...

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers maybe like this? for "game worlds," I didn't visualize it properly -- think of them more like parallels, each with their own layers underneath, rather than existing as one layer. idk

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers so gaster has different people working undercover in the simulation to make sure things go smoothly. “normal npc” did something to onionsan to keep them from discovering something. sans is supposed to observe but got too attached and involved with toriel.

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory diagram

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers Maybe Ralsei's a tree with roots spanning all of Hometown: - hat form and door resemble tree - distinction of plants as separate from lightners and darkners, ralsei's jealousy of flowery, identity crisis - can appear in any dark world - "darkness brewing under the town"

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers i'm now more confident in my crack theory that deltarune's world is fake -- it's a simulation housed within the broken machine in sans's lab. sans didn't come from deltarune, he's controlling a character in it, like the chapter 3 boards.

i wish i would have been in a good enough place to have streamed my playthrough of chapter 5 because i would have absolutely done the deku voice for you know who the entire playthrough

i’m not exactly doing great nor ready to talk to people again yet but genuinely what was that entire chapter

Hi, been a good bit. Currently receiving day therapy and trying to get myself together. I know I’ve made concerning posts here and there and I apologize for that. Haven’t been in a great nor stable state of mind for months now, and while I’m still struggling a lot, I’m trying my best.

It’s with a heavy heart that I’m leaving everything and abandoning my dreams. Thank you for the memories.

at least for the foreseeable future, I'm not going to be streaming anymore. similarly I'm considering either taking a long break from, or leaving, all projects I work on. I just feel like I've lost hope and my drive to do anything, all of my aspirations. I don't look forward to anything anymore.

can more people i know please move to Fluxer and start using it. really need to talk to people

The past month or so of not having access to Discord, and by extension contact with all of my friend groups, has honestly been devastating to me mentally. Trying to pull through, but feeling crushing loneliness and being unable to enjoy anything for long enough to distract my thoughts isn't helping.

found a whole operation of unmanned youtube channels making completely unchecked long form slop videos where the ai voice simulacra regularly trips up & does this for a full ten minutes every time. all the very legit comments are like "NO! THATS NOT TRUE! YOU LIE HE DID NOT" & never acknowledge it.

It's been a hot minute. Let's talk about recent stuff! www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDoc...

crack theory but what if deltarune’s entire world is just a simulation or artificial world within that broken machine in sans’s lab, and all the characters have to grapple with the fact they aren’t real. how do sans, papyrus, and gaster play into this? hell if i know lol

Have you been unfairly banned from Discord or had negative experiences with their support? Feel free to reply below and describe your situations in detail.

Using Fluxer instead of Discord for now, if anyone I'm closer with wants to friend me, shoot me a DM here or try asking mutual friends if they already have me added.

I'm sorry but genuinely isn't this such a shitty thing to do?? We had dozens of people making posts directed at him for literal weeks, begging for a response, showing evidence of bad actors... only for him to FINALLY respond, and this was it? What in the absolute fuck? Who does this?

If anyone had any doubts regarding Discord's lack of professionalism this response should be enough to quell most of them. What do you mean you had the time to analyze the case the moment you heard of it, but not to respond once you were done?

it's really something how somebody could just admit that they mass flagged another person intentionally and out of malice and somebody who works for the company they got banned from will just sit on their hands the entire time and just go "i 'unno, we think its real so we're upholding this..."

Realized I've been using Twitter (yuck) for a lot of this... latest update is that apparently Discord's CTO had the team look into everything a whopping 3 weeks ago... and just now finally decided to respond, after dozens of people begging him to say something. It's... pretty crushing!

Yeah so at this point, both Discord support and their CTO are repeatedly ignoring my attempts at contact and inquiry as to what's going on here. Unbelievably frustrated with this entire situation, and what feels like a complete and utter lack of regard for their dedicated users.

dude why the FUCK is discord standing so hard with their false bans? they're going to get sued if they keep randomly marking people as "child safety violators" with no valid proof.

Waiting for this Discord Feedback post to be approved. support.discord.com/hc/en-us/com...

man all of this just sucks. i wish i could somehow pressure discord into actually helping me. not knowing if they're even doing anything is torture. just want to talk to my friends instead of being alone all the time

getting an automated response after directly, POLITELY asking that an actual human being attend your plea is genuinely pathetic for a company like discord. if this isn't upsetting anyone i dread what would.

Was able to get in contact with a video game reporter, Rebs Gaming -- please go ahead and share this post wherever possible, thank you! x.com/Mr_Rebs_/sta...

lmao it was an automated reply

Let's see if Discord ignores this, too!

KEEP SPREADING THE WORD FOLKS It's clear enough this is an active harassment campaign against not just Beeth and the TS!Underswap team, but potentially plenty of other UT/DT fan projects Scream it from the god damn cliffsides, send it to friends, keep the word going and get Discord OFF THEIR ASSES!

TW SLURS WE NOW HAVE MORE VERIFICATION THAT BEETHOVENUS WAS HIT BY A FALSE TARGETED BAN. Please continue to spread this, as well as pinging Discord support and their CTO to bring attention to this! x.com/Beethovenus/...

Holy shit. I now have explicit confirmation that my suspension was due to wrongful mass reporting. With any luck, this will actually do something. Thanks!

At this point, I'm just asking that the fandom cause an uproar. Videos, mentioning accounts, going to gaming press, whatever. Been nearly a month of this and I'm not about to let a company seemingly run by AI at this point stifle the progress of our fangame.

It's been nearly 3 weeks with no support from Discord. I am pleading that someone assist me. I've tried everything. (Please mind the throat clearing.) www.youtube.com/watch?v=72GL...

Trying to beat the Knight with joycon drift is agonizing. Maybe I’ll just replay everything on PC…?

Hey again. After nearly 3 weeks, our project manager's Discord is still permanently suspended -- and we're still awaiting communication and resolution from the platform. This continues to interfere with development on TS!UNDERSWAP. Thank you for your support. Please share this.