i am once again thinking about i can do it with a broken heart and how insane it was for her to not only release it but make it a single too, she was screaming and no one was listening

i love that the side effects of the meds i take for my chronic dizziness include dizziness

my ex situationship said she should get a key to my apartment atp because she’s here all the time so anyway i’m gonna have another key made before anyone can tell me it’s a bad idea

just saw wicked for good 🥹🥹🥹

baked a cake and brought some to my therapy appointment and my therapist gave me a discount lmao

my friends were right and this was a terrible idea

i had €950 in my account on october 30th and i currently have €61 left :))))))

the fact that my ex situationship is coming over today and i don’t wanna tell any of my friends about it because they’ll tell me it’s a bad idea should honestly tell me enough but i can’t stop imagining she’ll walk in and kiss me and everything will magically be okay again (it won’t happen)

OSCAR PIASTRI MY BOY WHAT HAPPENED

update: at the hospital

i’m having Symptoms and i can’t tell if i should call an ambulance or if i’m fine

thought i seemed fine enough to the outside world but then one friend asked if i was still taking sleeping pills because she didn’t think it was smart for me to have access to them rn and another called me a bit panicked because i hadn’t replied to her in 16 hours and she thought i did something

seeing she was listening to her taylor playlist but then the last song she listened to before bed was i miss you, i’m sorry (a song she never even listened to before knowing me and getting it suggested in our blend) is about to tip me over the edge

i cried so much in therapy today my therapist lost her train of thought and asked if she could hug me instead

OooooOOOHHHHHHH BE MY NY WHEN HOLLYWOOD HATES ME, you're only as hot as your last hit baybee

i have to take some tests for a job application and one of the first questions is your gender "so we can address you correctly in the reports" so i tick other and a new question pops up asking if i prefer he/him or she/her 🥲

me and three of my friends all see different therapists but it just so happens that all four of them are named charlotte so whenever we talk about therapy we say “my charlotte said xyz” in the same way people talk about siri or alexa and i just think that’s funny

i was sending my friend a voice note when she texted me and this about sums up how i’ve been moving through life the past week

i was never supposed to relate to this one man open.spotify.com/track/4ROYC4...

i can't keep bothering my friends with this stupid heartbreak over and over again because i keep repeating the same shit but here's my problem though. it makes no sense for her to have zero feelings. like not at all

i might’ve showed up to the pool braless, in pajamas and on the verge of tears but at least i showed up AND had my best training so far!!

i would NOT recommend seeing tloas in theatres and listening to ruin the friendship with your situationship right after she told you she has no feelings for you but she loves you and cuddling and kissing you, that shit will make you cry like never before

currently avoiding life of a showgirl (i’m going sunday), K3 originals (i’m going tomorrow) and critical role C4 spoilers, i should really just do a 24h social media cleanse or something but unfortunately i love scrolling

also i realised how much i don’t care about celebrity drama because i had no idea about the ch*rli drama lol 😭😭

chat gpt is actually ruining my life because i am fighting every em dash semicolon loving bone in my body while writing this paper for a job application out of fear they'll think i used ai

GIRL HELP WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS ACTUALLY MAKING ME WET

finally took the step and applied for disability aid 🫡 they’ll get back to me in 4-6 months

idk how to ask the girl i’ve been kissing for the past month if we’re like. a couple and/or if she wants to be my girlfriend and it’s so!!!! i’m too afraid it’ll scare her off or something

i got tickets for the life of a showgirl release party and it’s simultaneously my first double date w my best friend, this is gonna be interesting

i’m sorry no i’m pissed all over again because what do you mean my boss gave ”i think there are other jobs you’ll like more” as a reason to not offer me a permanent contract?? i just checked my excel and i’m on my 22nd cry about losing this job out of 81 cries total this year?? i loved it so much :(

i woke up to a cop at my door, how are y’alls mornings going?

i should really stop eating foods i'm allergic to because it never ends well

the rep music in the background of all these promo clips is really getting me

HANDSSSSSSS

i was telling my friend about my situationship building my lego (dw she asked first) and she looked at me like i was crazy and said “since when do you let anyone touch your lego??”

actually self care is sitting on my balcony during a thunderstorm

didn’t make it to the final 3 :(

interview is tomorrow!!! there were 32 candidates and i’ve already made it to the last 6!!

currently associating this song with my job (it’s my last week and i loved it so much and i don’t want to leave, didn’t think i’d have to and it’s killing me)

i hate hospitals what do you mean the earliest appointment you have is nov 18th

my #1 most useless skill is probably being able to macrame without taping it down or even looking at it, i’ll just be walking around with it and do it while i gather all my campers or something lmao

i’m seeing florence + the machine with the girl who’ll hopefully be my girlfriend by then, can’t wait 🙂‍↕️

WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED

i got an old dvd player for free and i’m trying to get it to work but the i’m currently using a chain of three different adapters to connect it to my tv and i don’t think that’s ideal lmao

confessed to my crush and i’m now in lesbian limbo because she said she wants this too but she’s not ready yet she’s out here holding me for hours on end and kissing my neck and my cheek and the top of my head and i just. want this so bad

i’ve tried calling so many people about this and NONE OF THEM ARE PICKING UP I NEED TO SCREAM

tarot cards AND costar are punching me in the face for not making a move yesterday (all three of these cards fell out on the first fucking shuffle)

we held hands practically the entire day and i told her i would want to live with her and we cuddled the whole time and she cooked for me and i STILL DIDNT FUCKING MOVE IN CASE SHE DOESNT FEEL THE SAME I HATE MYSELF

HOLY SHIT 🥵🥵