i lay restlessly beside life oh to sway in the breeze free to be heart full of joy yet hurts overflows i don't even know how to be me, or who i am nonperson living for others built in long term guilt shame from before i even was grown i disappeared a vanishing from the start

morning rituals feline reverberations tuning in the day #haiku

i stumble through this life i've lost my light &perhaps the fight life becomes darker hills not worth climbing in this dingy realm of disappointment where this reign of hate & lies prevail my heart fails #vss365 #realm

my susurrus soft, tender reassuring across your ear a gentle breeze soothing your fears but who soothes the wind that always bends caressing others yet always seems left loose ended #vss365 #susurrus

even as i close eyes, heart so heavy a wish of goodbye of letting go of melting into snow not this continuous icing crusted into peaks crushing me, endangering my tiny spark of life i feel the burn primordial drive to survive #vss365 #primordial

still searching for life's sparkle #7syllablesentence

shedding sorrows tears fall warm as summer rain wash me clean empty my cup fill me back up #vss365 #shed

my decomposing cosmos shedding digressions leaving a mess closing mindless shutters locking ludicrous doors base my landing on true success cause spells cast at midnight never last #vss365 #shed #23july2024

and there you are true colors always flare scraping my soul with every word my lesson of inadequacy not yet complete a continuous shaping of me #vss365 #scrape #shape

nature, the brocade of life #7syllablesentence

ur words sutures to my gaping wounds loving applied w/o exception or expectations i still bleed but ur administrations kept me alive as i bled out myself new growth begins under soft #skin new ways to live to love to give i still keep u within my ribs now a part of this caged heart #vss365

it started slowly small divisions creating crevices becoming caverns now I look across the abyss & wonder how we arrived here a precipice the brink of destruction #vss365 #small #mvjan2023

we become overfit with societal norms engraining us with single mindedness always trying to fit in a box that doesn't exist #vss365 #single #mvdec2024

no longer a speaker of my truths i live through days quiet still someone but not who i once knew #vss365 #someone #speaker

i sit outside myself, as if someone else unsure of who i've become without hope to thrive what's the point of being alive to fight to just survive i just wanna give way, to something else #vss365 #someone

my heart shreds cracking foundations death peering around the window sash where i stand, alone fear licks tenderly at my toes my heart shreds this pain, the shame i'm tired but it's not yet time to let go still, i stop holding my breath my heart shreds #vss365 #stop

we say the words and mean them yet this distance remains summer comes again heat flares yet we remain cool a brokenness that never leaves pain inflicted that doesn't forget i cover my tender parts and say the words again

unfolding with mat cool breeze scented in spring rain solace of senses #vss365 #spring #haiku

solid indigo river a rising flood the twist of if flowering my realistic heart would your touch meld this strait of runaway stars an elicit spring of hope lost so long yet never gone #vss365 #spring #strait

when will the final foot fall forgotten fears smoothed subdued sunbeamed surfaces, subsiding into veiled vision vibrance lost there always was a cost #vss365 #final #vision #sunbeam

this, crushing weight of something maybe nothing so heavy, on my heart the gray plays cold around my edges even as summers heat browns my skin beading hot on my lip but how to brighten this world, within without #poetry

brine over flows a leak down my cheek i felt the glitch a hitch in my heart sometimes the skin i'm in becomes thin my insides show on the outside no cover for holes within until i fill them in to begin again #vss365 #glitch #brine

bathing in cherry blossoms soaking in each scented syllable spring cleaning of the soul #poetry

trying to escape your delusions the damage is done some things can never be erased from the pages of us quick, quick best to close the book the story of our toxic love so rare and scintillating that it has burnt us both beyond recognition #vss365 #toxic #mvjan2023

emotion without toxicity confidence without arrogance strength without torment mindfulness in thought and action compassion without bounds aspirations without limits #vss365 #toxic #mvjuly2024

gray matter becomes stagnant neurotransmitters slowing sinking marrow deep into the big sleep the big lie the hole in your eye #vss365 #marrow

my heart seizes the terror & confusion trapped in that child's eyes, not a whimper as the crowds crush him they just want food trying to live, in a world that seems to want them dead my heart seizes #vss365 #whimper #GazaGenocide

no longer #wraith based my #defenses back in place i line up for the human race (this time i fueled with grace) don't need to win just need a space #vss365

a simple matrix from which love grows matter of the heart #vss365 #matrix

yearn for small things, they matter #7syllablesentence #yearn

yearn for small things, they matter #7syllableswntence #yearn

verity gives clarity breaking bright across the sky these lies we repeat doesn't make reality, muddling muddying what is right #vss365 #clarity

i thicken building immunity protection of self hate has no season nor reason perhaps a cure, might be more effective a thinning, an opening greeting it with love #vss365 #immunity

lilac slips silently in cool windows caressing heat dampened skin the curtains gentle sway to notes, soft &low #hiraeth for a place i don't even know under this flower moon #vss365

the clouds all lined in gray today fleshy promises in sweet scents of spring breeze turns earthy the rain rolling in flushing senses running me through much like thoughts of you #poetry

spring awakens from winters soporific lull new blooms on old wood #vss365 #soporific #haiku

moon bright heavy at my window full, you eclipse my heart for a dark minute i saw the light dissolving all doubts #vss365 #eclipse #dissolve

no longer in free fall trying to slip back to a place that no longer exists i trace the visible scars tears streaming forming a small white cloud crowning the redbud #vss365 #scar

my true #pallor exposed bloodless beneath the pink bones of stone hold the cold paleness sinks beneath hard surfaced follies & fancies sitting hard hearted in my breast and still a breath could put to rest this hush &create a color rush #vss365

ur words #sutures to my gaping wounds loving applied w/o exception or expectations ur administrations kept me alive as i bled out myself new growth begins under soft skin new ways to live to love to give i still keep u within my ribs now a part of this changed heart #vss365

i've traced my steps where did i go wrong is there really a wrong path isn't the path you're on where you belong taking the scenic route still heading home #vss365 #trace

what a long strange flight it's been #7syllablesentence #flight #gratefuldead 🎸🎶

the shades slip exposing the sorrow within, this elegy of love, for what once was, don't you know by now nothing ever lasts it's in the giving that love holds fast #vss365 #elegy

far the floor, today body prints heavy on mat depth in slowing breaths #haiku

breathless, a gasp let loose death rasp clenched teeth rattle &clap a loss of caring small in daring yet to big for the fall suck it in suck it up just another buttercup in this selcouth reality #vss365 #selcouth

warmth of sun never reaches inside this arctic cold this, a karmic winter of the soul #vss365 #Karma

for just a moment soft rain fills lulling my soul steps to #Nirvana #vss365

flowing, filling soaking floating away grounding again helplessly, i feel it absorbed you surround fiercely gentle pooled water ripples becoming waves, so loud some days i just wanna drown but i know it's never that easy #poetry

love never forgets water that quenches thirst of the heart drying up anxiety with a flood of acceptance, despite additional costs of imperfect unknowns selfless or selfish for this kind, of love aches a wanting #vss365 #additional

into the pale of spring the faintest of greens, purple hues start in lilac fresh, nubile delicate in white the smell, swells welling within this love starting again #poetry