just a #mygirly doodle... for morale... i'm already unsatisfied with her current design, sadly... 😆 it just fails to convey her character in the way that i'd like, so i'm brainstorming again. i like the idea of a jersey for her. she might be a jersey girl... she's supposed to be a lil sporty!!

still learning a lot about being obsessed with your own characters. i always thought people saying it's good for your mental health was an exaggeration, but i was going down a bit of a depressive spiral earlier, then started thinking about satsuki, and snapped out of it almost instantly. dude 💀

i'm still being consumed by this song stupid style btw. like to the point that i want to try making a satsuki/evan animatic about it. it's just so so perfect... 😭🩷💛 (⬅️ last words spoken before a most terrible, gruesome demise)

second attack done yaaayyy... i wonder if i can get one more finished before i have to go do some stressful medical stuff in a few days 🥲 i'll try my best...!!

gotta make a decision at some point regarding further RR characters, on names... like... if satsuki and kai have japanese names, and evan is meant to be from "overseas," i guess... most other characters should also have japanese names...? 🤔 RR doesn't take place in real-world japan, for the--

silly RR thing i thought of last night that i wanna doodle... might have time if i just keep it super rough. after i finish this current attack 🙂‍↕️ gotta draw my guys being cute and silly... for morale.......

should be able to get this done tomorrow or the day after at the latest 🔥🔥🔥 i think i've found my groove... at least for now. 😤 gotta start considering who i want my third target to be, heheh... i have a couple in mind... 🫵

ok ok ok sketch for second attack done!!! 😤 i hope i can pick up the pace a little from here, haha. i'm going to try to keep things simpler, for sure. no more fullbodies, i don't think... 😆 unless i get an idea for one that *really* inspires me...

500th evan jumpscare cause of "see reference images" being directly above "flip canvas horizontally" in simple mode 💀 get this bitch OUTTA HERE!!!!!

kai song btw 🥹 i'm imagining it as satsuki towards kai... in the past i talked a bit about satsuki being depressed, but... no, the more i think about it, that's kai... 😅 they're both got their own issues, but kai is just... not doing well, more generally... 💦 www.youtube.com/watch?v=lno2...

haaah. i think my goal for this AF is 6 attacks done 🥲 if i can do more, great, but... at least that way, only newer art will show on my immediate profile until next year. this month is just too much so far and i don't anticipate it letting up. gotta be realistic...

we need to do something about kotaro uchikoshi

more late nite dialogue funsies ohhh yessss. the line "are you that blinded by your infatuation?" popped into my head and i wanted to write a scene around it, hehe.

took a bit but first attack DONE 😤 i think i know who my second target is going to be, too. i'll get started on that tomorrow, hehe... 😈

hmm, i think i got a little lost in the sauce writing this last night 😆 i don't think i want their relationship to be quite as insidious as all that. RR isn't meant to be a psychological thriller, yknow? i love me some edgy shit, but i think it's important to me that RR doesn't veer too hard--

pondering the satsuki/evan dynamic tonight. i really want to develop it further... i think they've got sort of a co-dependent thing going on. satsuki knows she's being manipulated, and evan knows that she knows... and yet things stay the same... i think during their school years they became--

started lining my first attack today and i'm really happy with it so far hehe... also my mom saw my WIP and said she really liked it. we're so back 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ just needed to crash out for a few days i guess, but i'm good now... 😆

managed to get some fresh air today and i'm feeling a bit better! 🥹 it's amazing how much just a little exercise and sunshine can help with a bad brain, haha. i even had an idea for an attack that i quite like. but i think i'll continue resting for now... maybe tomorrow i'll try drawing again! 🤞

i guess i'm just getting a late start on AF this year 🥹 i think my anxiety over it has gotten the better of me and i've found myself a bit art blocked... which is making me feel horrible... 💦 i hope it doesn't last any longer than the first week... guhhhh... 😭

yep, just could not draw today. sigh 🥲 anyway, here's this silly thing from last night. i think i've explained their dynamics pretty well by now, but i thought it'd also be nice to have an easy-to-understand little chart. i think the evan head looks excellent 😂 he seems to be my muse lately...

gehhh art juice is not flowing today 😩 can't get a good sketch going for my first attack... well, i probably wouldn't be able to upload it to the site today, anyway, lol. i'll try again tomorrow. not gonna stress, this year. not gonna stress!! 🙂‍↔️

people telling me my OCs are hot or otherwise appealing in some way is ambrosia, i've learned. thank you if you've done this, it puts me on cloud nine every time LOL

turned his glasses off... scary....... (just kidding he's still cuuuute... 🥺🩶)

satsuki: major RBF and she makes an active effort to come across as intimidating, but it's not a façade she's good at keeping up for very long, haha. she's a softieeee 🥺🩷 evan: he generally doesn't rely on intimidation tactics (he doesn't really have to, lol) but i suppose he could if he wanted--

hm poor meowmeow bedridden evan icon was more timely than i realized. i feel so dead gshgjfh. i think it'll be a day of doing a whole lot of nothing... 😵‍💫

ohhh yes i love drawing a character and the shorthand for them starts to come more easily. i had *so* much trouble figuring out evan's hair for his ref, but now it's nooooo problem 👌🙂‍↔️ fluffy fluffy... hehehe...

there was this thing going around a couple weeks ago that was like "if my characters were in a dating sim who would you choose to romance?" and well. it made me want to write up what their routes would be like hehe. the dating sim enjoyer has logged on‼️‼️

okay, probably the last thing i'm going to draw until july. 😆 wanted a more recent example of them to put on my sona's profile even if it's the quickest scribble in the world heheh #corpseflowershipping

oh gamers i don't know if i'll be able to finish this ref after all lol o|-< the sun has let up but now i'm getting my ass kicked by cramps. well, her full outfit is on AF, it's just spread out over two images. that might just have to be good enough... 🥹

the previous way i drew eyes looks so soulless to me now holy crap LMAO. adding sclera, the equivalent of a pupil, and indicating cheeks does a lot, i guess.

ehhhh i'm running out of steam on this sona drawing i think. 💦 i might just finish the top half... and i guess i might leave my sona hidden on AF this year. 😔 i'd feel bad if the whole design wasn't in one image. pbbbtt... we'll see... maybe i'll get hit with the inspiration to finish it...

behhh really in the mood to crochet the last few days but i can't risk getting fixated on that right before AF. 😔 but after july... there's this nice brown yarn i got that i wanna make a cute oversized sweater with, i think... i'll have to hunt in my bookmarks for a pattern that stands out hehe

well today has been very hard so far but i think the worst of it is over. 🥲 love public meltdowns... hahaha... i don't think anyone saw it, at least... OTL i'm gonna make some coffee and relax...

hmmm. it would seem that i need to draw evan shirtless. for lore reasons you see (genuinely lol there's a good reason for it). good morning 🙂‍↕️💯

bwah okay i think i've finally gotten past the most infuriating part of this thing 😵‍💫 got a tiny bit more done tonight... tomorrow's gonna be busy, but hopefully i'll be able to chip away at it a little more 🤞

i think i've more or less got the "inciting events" for RR figured out and oooooohhhhh they're so tasty. i'm really proud of what i've managed to come up with 😤 though it does kill me a bit being unable to talk about it LOL, but it's more important that things are revealed at the right time... 🙂‍↕️

anyway i need to get some avril on my phone 😆 i listened to MT on skytrain but it just wasn't scratching the itch. definitely having one of those music fixations where there's only one thing i want to listen to until i'm sick to bastard death of it, and nothing else will do in the meantime LOL

utena today yaaaayyyyy i'm excited. if i'm not wrong, this'll be my first time going to the movies alone... 🤔 i think it'll be nice! 🙂‍↕️

shhhh. he is speaking ☝️

managed to carve out a bit of time to work on this... i like it but again when i test it as an icon it just doesn't look good grrrrrr

spent the last few days going through avril's discography... god, i still love her music *so much* 😭 it means about as much to me as MT's music, really, but i somehow got it in my head for a while that liking her was cringe...? 😩 really don't know where that came from...

okay i lied, i drew. i think this is cute... i dunno about it making for a good icon, though, i've been testing with this sketch and it just isn't sitting right. 😔 i'll fiddle around with it some more tomorrow... (i think i've managed to draw my body type pretty accurately for once, at least 💪)

oof i'm a bit drained today 😭 the relief from having all the RR refs done is hitting, i think. buuuut i still need to get my sona's done, if i can... maybe i'll take the day off from drawing, but still do some brainstorming... i wanna be able to use it for a new icon, too...

i think i've decided that for AF this year i'm going to prioritize quantity over quality just a *little*. just in the sense of like, fewer full bodies, definitely no complicated backgrounds, probably no complicated props. maybe that way i can even that ratio out a bit... 😅

wanted to see them all together... hehehehehehe 🥺🩷💛🩶 (the heights are a little off... satsuki is taller than that in her heels 😆 she's at about her natural height, here. maybe she's just wearing different shoes from usual 🤭)

KAI'S SHEET DONE GRAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! super excited to share it tomorrow! 😤 still got half the month left to do other stuff, too, but if i only have these three ready for AF, i'll still be happy hahaha. having all of them finally, properly revived, is so... uuuuuu... 🥹💛

huh 😆 i've been having issues with the stylized way i draw shoelaces, so i tried drawing them realistically instead, and yeah, it looks way better, and was way easier. little sign of improvement that i can do that, now, cause they used to be really hard for me! 🙂‍↕️

managed to get started on colours tonight...! gonna aim to get him all finished up around the day after tomorrow!!! 😤

oh god i knew listening to avril would give me a few satsuki songs but this one is unreal. thinking of her while listening to this is making me tear up a little lol 🥲 ahhh... my girl... www.youtube.com/watch?v=Efcu...

ack i really don't know if i'll have time to make a new full ref for my sona. i might just have to do something scribbly. i wanted to draw a new icon, too... you know what, i might just redraw my current one so that it has my new eye rendering style 😆 i still like everything else about it, so!