I feel like the world being the way it is has made me so bitter and angry recently. I hate it. I don't want to be like that. I want to be a kind person who makes other people happy. But with the garbage I have to see daily on the news etc. it's been feeling harder and harder

Oh my anxiety is BAD bad today someone hinted to me about a good thing that might POSSIBLY happen (not even confirmed) and I got so anxious about all the ways I might possibly fuck it up if it did happen that I felt nauseous 😭😭

I think the caffeine from my coffee is also making my anxiety worse I will just try and post stuff that makes me happy rn 😭

I will Not be doing any of those fandom opinion charts people are doing sorry... Even tho I'm sure this place would be better than Twt about it, some of my opinions would probably at the very least make some people feel bad and I don't feel like dealing with it lmao

Having to read about the president of my country unilaterally and illegally declaring war while I work on my little commissions 🥴

Idk why I even bother still posting art on Twitter man everything that's not Trails just dies instantly upon posting because I'm so pigeonholed in the algorithm Something getting nearly 1k likes here and only 20 likes on Twitter is just such a comical disparity

Sorry deleting that post cuz people who don't follow me were RTing it and I know it's not PRIVATE over here but I still don't want that much outside attention here if I can help it lol 😭

Sometimes you have your credit card completely under control and then BOTH your cats need a vet visit for fleas + one is allergic so it costs extra and then your dryer breaks and you have to call a repairman both within like two months

Car insurance going up again... everything keeps going up while my pay barely moves...this is why I gotta open commissions again I guess...with what my day job pays me we are not getting by

One of the most frustrating things about existing as a woman is how many men just. Do not see you as a full person with your own internal thoughts It's why I get so frustrated when men act like enjoying things like JRPGs or VNs repels all women. You really don't think there are women into those?

To elaborate on this at 6AM, I of course greatly appreciate having more eyes on my art and interaction, but the more people follow me, the more different tastes, boundaries, etc. I have to worry about. I tag all my nsfw but should I be warning for more specific things? How granular do I need to be?

Gonna sound stupid but I don't think I was mentally in a good place to get a viral post today lmao

*posts new art* :) *panic attack*

At the end of the day, even if I have bad experiences with people and have trust issues because of it, nothing can keep down my stubbornly clingy little desire to make friends 😭 Even if I am bad at it sometimes lol

I wish I was mentally strong enough to lock in and do the work I need to do even when something has really upset me and put me in a bad mood

God in heaven. You are a very cruel god for giving me my period on Valentine's Day

It is kinda wild that 99% of the Tr4ils fans I found annoying stayed on Twitter. Like wow who knew this was the great filter this entire time. Every time they say they won't move to Bluesky because it's boring and cringe I cheer, I celebrate, I throw a party

They want to build an ICE detention center (concentration camp) 15 minutes from my house...

In a comically bad mood today lol. Work also sucking ass!! God!!

A while back on one of those "artists give some random advice" posts, I saw one that was like "you can always go back and edit art you're not happy with and post it again!" and I deeply wish I had never seen that lol I struggle immensely enough with my OCD letting me finish art already man

I'm trying to respect my oomfies who don't like NSFW content and I'll always tag my stuff of course but it's getting harder and harder for me to mentally square the circle of corporations and fascism trying to erase me from existence and then having to see friends complain about seeing it too lol

How am I still so shy with people sometimes 😖

My income from my art last year be looking so good until I take the expenses from my business credit card into account lmao

Maybe it's presumptuous of me cuz they could very well just not know who tf I am lol but when I see random cr/rn accounts that don't follow me I am kind of afraid to follow in case they do know who I am but just don't like me or my content and I don't want to bother them if so 😭😭

I keep seeing people with all these Ad0be alternatives or jumping through hoops to get AI-free subscriptions and I'm like. Why is no one just pirating it lmao thank god I just pirated it 😭

Sorry to be a hater again but T4les of 4rise is the most I've ever felt justified in hating a game on sight lmao I just hated it immediately because it looked painfully straight and also it removed a lot of classic standbys from the series. I thought I was just being petty and yet

I guess my hot take I don't feel like posting on main is that even if you make an offline gacha-free version of a gacha game, the fact that it was ever a gacha game in the first place is something it can't ever shed because the tendrils of that infect every single aspect of a game's design

[hater post warning] It's been a while since I've seen a new Tr4ils ship that makes me go "wow, completely sauceless straight people ship" but congrats Le0n/Cel1s you made the list

There's a user I see people RT a lot on main and I generally agree with the stuff they say but they are always saying it in the most annoying way possible, it feels like they have a thesaurus open so they can use the biggest word for every possible thing in order to sound smarter or something 😭

Well, my manager is starting to bug me whenever my Teams status is "Away" so I guess I'm getting a mouse jiggler It literally changes to Away after 5 minutes. So you're gonna micromanage me if I have to go to the bathroom. Or if my cat pukes and I have to clean it up or something. Fuck you lol

Bro I cannot be out here pathetically sobbing into my boiled eggs we're having a maintenance guy come over to fix our dryer

[looks at birth control pack] Ah it's PMS week that explains it

I wish I wasn't so comically awful at having confidence in myself lol

I feel like I'm being a total bitch at work this morning but it's also like. If you come at me freaking out about something that's normal because of your own lack of knowledge, I don't want to make you feel stupid but also I'm not sure how else to answer besides "uh yeah...that's normal" lol

I HATE HATE HATE how the colors of my art look on my phone screen ONLY AAAARGH THEY LOOK FINE EVERYWHERE ELSE BUT THIS FUCKING PHONE SCREEN 😭

And now he's apparently even at least partially to blame for microtransactions in video games. Idk it's just extra infuriating when I had to spend that whole GamerGate era hearing about how video games being ruined was women's fault somehow

I thought maybe this joke was a little harsh when I posted it last night but then I wake up and find out the further context and yeah maybe you do need to prove that you wouldn't be easily radicalized and groomed by GamerGate first considering it was basically set in motion by a pedophile cabal

Me this morning: I got stuff to do at work, but first I gotta pack these Etsy orders > sends myself shipping label over Discord > oh shit I gotta reply to my friends, starts replying > oh shit my friends got me to start using Finch again I gotta check that > let me check Bsky while I'm at it > uhh

Sorry but how are there people shocked and disappointed that Aronofsky is using AI. I don't think I could have been LESS shocked, least shocking celebrity AI usage reveal there ever was

These screenshots an oomfie sent me of ppl on their Discord praising me are doing so much heavy lifting for my mental health rn lol, my brain keeps trying to spiral down the "you're annoying everyone is just pretending to like you" hole but look, they said all this without me even being there!! 😭

This probably just goes to a bot but if it gets them to fuck off from ever texting me again then that's a win

I tend to blame a lot of my weird mental quirks on my OCD cuz that's the one diagnosis I've gotten but I can't lie man sometimes it feels like there's other shit going on there I haven't gotten diagnosed but I also feel like I can't actually say that for sure unless I DO get it diagnosed lol

In this fucking nightmare country, my brain as usual hyperfixates on anything I can possibly do to solve the problem, but unfortunately in this situation, it's not a lot. In order to fight off feeling completely powerless, I fixate on one of the things I can do, cheering people up with my art...

[ TMI / NSFW ] I love making fun of cis men for not being able to find the clitoris as much as the next girl but I do have to admit that when I first tried masturbating as a teenager I had to Google a diagram to find where it was

"If you're googling salaries for your position, none of that is real, it's basically the same as diagnosing yourself on WebMD :///" You must think we're actually morons. Fuck all of you.

This will perhaps sound a bit silly but I feel like I've only somewhat recently given myself permission to just. Not like someone

ONE OF THE HEAD LOCALIZERS ON DAYBREAK-HORIZON LIKING MY POST ABOUT DRAWING MPR3G HELPPP 😭😭

Me when I forgot cool respectable people follow me on main and they like one of my weirdo freak posts about kink or something

"Oh this was a mistake, we always honor our estimates, your balance has been adjusted to zero, this is a very rare occurrence and we're making sure it never happens again" GOOD. But also fuck you

I feel like if I’m not drawing and posting new stuff constantly then I’ll be old and busted and irrelevant and everyone will forget about me I’m already afraid that since I haven’t opened comms in a while no one is interested anymore Prob none of this is true but idk how to stop feeling that way