Maybe ill make a png persona for my rambling channel lmao. Kinda thinking of making a different png character depending on the games i play on my channel 😂

Even though i say that, im sure the jabbernut that i am just needs to start a rambling pod/channel 🤣🤣🤣

I might just sound like a schizo and tell everyone my whole story as if it has any relevance, and constantly take everyone so seriously. I make every present experience as a lesson since i didnt learn shit back in school and with family xD

Whatever it is, it doesnt mean everything requires quick solutions, and generally everyone expects the quick fix up. But im a slowpoke 😂

Theres like a new set of triggers that come up after overcoming old ones. Is it because of new life scenarios? Maybe overthinking or over preparation?

Im only realizing that (not diagnosed) its become easier to get manic episodes after what happened at the Y, i dunno if its cuz my ppl pleasing mask doesnt stick anymore or i need to be reassessed...

I used to be chronically online during my college days and then barely had time for it after i graduated. Then life became focused on the jobs i had, before i lost my mind and got multiple diagnoses for mental health

Whether you do go out for walks, you meet people irl, and you go to therapy or councelling, friendships and other relationships are difficult to navigate..

Knitting 🧶

Oh no... i forgot today had a scheduled post on youtube.. hahahaha

Holy shit its been a difficult month ;^; I hope yall have your comfy spaces to relax and unwind 🥰

IM HOME FINALLY 😭

Omg and then they react like this 100%! www.instagram.com/reel/DS9ina6...

I also got told having emotions is toxic. Meanwhile they all freak out when im calm and get mad that im not paying attention to their emotions and how im not fixing their emotions. Fuck off man im just a damned brat. Im only responsible for myself and my mistakes etc.

The sleep clinic said it was fine, my family doc said it was fine too. And im managing my mental health by myself. Everyone has a problem with this and im hurting everyones feelings.

Just because i use coping mechanisms that i learned in councelling, everyone says they have the right to judge me and stop me from doing it. And then somehow it becomes about their feelings? Is this why people like me have no friends? XD

Ugh im still too sensitive to be around people i just want to go home...

Also today im travelling to a friends place for xmas and new years, so still not alotta updates (And hence a result of the morning rant today, im sorry...🥲)

Omg.. small world! I met a fellow beginner voice actor at the bus stop today! 😲 not often i find fun ppl around that little town

We should all be more like this. Choose peace, damn losers.. (Credit to iuliastration for the artwork)

Life is already scary dealing with our own dramas and issues. I hate religious wars

Why cant people be grateful that they are not living in a 3rd world country, ridden with war and death?

A muslim man shot his muslim dad at a mosque, infront of the YWCA. I used to live there and ran away when i was being threatened to be thrown on the streets. (And i still ended up on the streets cuz i couldnt take it anymore..)

Mind you, im a proud canadian citizen. With all the deets confirmed that i get to live in canada. How the hell are jihadists and these mafias allowed to threaten xmas celebrations? Why is this considered racist? Muslims literally come to a local church for their food banks right now. Wtf??

I used to live in a hive that was 5 minutes away from shooters and human traffickers, we used to call them them mafia members (yes some of then were arrested but theres STILL more) and that was enough to traumatize me from the public.

Its scary man. I generally hate religious people of all religions. "Hostile vehicles" is the stupidest coverup i ever heard! Let people celebrate the holidays damnit and confine all the monsters. How do any of you go to work knowing the danger?? I cant man.. im too mentally ill to understand...

Uh.. yknow.. yesterday i went to a christmas celebration. As someone who is formerly muslim, i enjoyed it alot. Now im hearing my city is planning a jihad for christmas break? Why are people so stupid? Wheres your respect for Eid-milat-ul-nabvi???? Can you choose no violence for once??

I met this absolutely loving old woman at an afterparty from and we chatted about streaming. She told me her niece called herself a larper... Guys, can you properly inform your grandparents?? Like isnt a larper or larping.. something humiliating???

I hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable xmas holidays, and if your country doesnt have xmas, i hope you are keeping strong and healthy! 🩷🩵🩷🩵🩷🩵

i had too much fun making lynn on a stalk of flowers, that now i want to make one for Mari too ;v;

Yknow i tend to avoid conspiracy theories.. but that is one way for the govt to force people to get the flu shots

So theres recalls for cold medicine right now when flu season is in full blast, not to mention my neighbourhood got really sick AFTER recieving the flu shot...

Omg i was so preoccupied with the mwrch thing that i forgot my toast in the toaster for a couple of hours...

Sooooooo.... just as a heads up, i might do a promo onslaught around february 2026 for a kickstarter or smth.. Hopefullyyyy!! Unless i chicken out again 😅 finances and promos scare me ;;;;

;v; Im nervous... but im making my second purchase for products for my local artist booth. Here's the drawing of it! 🩷

I cant believe it, i might actually start my cosplayer phase 😲 MIGHT .....

Candied fennel seeds are so delicious 😋

Ignore the shadow.... but bag update! One side of the inside is stitched in ovo

I feel dumb sometimes xD

I hungout with a friend for the weekend :3 and i talked to them about how weird my sentimentalness can go. giving them an example, i talked about the first home gifts i recieved. And i couldnt stop crying about my toaster...

NoooooooOoOoOOO black beacon is being terminated 😭 Its prolly one of the few games i enjoyed so much this year and ive grown attached the game.. 💔

I need halp, which one would look better?? Left or right???

Working on a fun ita bag project ovo

I dunno if it counts... but to whoever goes out for walking, and you want to support charities, there are lotsa walking apps where you can convert your steps into donations o3o/

Also these tight ol jackets are making me insecure 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Ive gotten FAT! my winter coats dont fit me 🤣🤣🤣🤣

It amazes me everyday that there is so much for me to learn about. It does make me feel excited to be alive 🥲

But really, i do appreciate my viewers kindness. Maybe ive become very disconnect with the internet or smth. I was flipping rude in that video.

Viewers are oddly really nice on youtube? Idk if its cuz im not consistent as much.. I recently posted a recording that i thought i would get ridiculed for, laughed at or even be labelled a schizo

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