yesterday i got rick-rolled in the wild an older middle aged dude was playing 80s music on his phone and happened to be on "never gonna give you up" as he approached the mountaintop vista where i was getting pictures honestly the highlight of my year so far

WHO THE FUCK WEARS PERFUME TO CLIMB A GODDAMN MOUNTAIN

san diego is by definition a desert and you can't convince me otherwise it just happens to be a desert with some drought resistant vegetation & somehow mosquitoes. which isn't fair.

I AM HALFWAY UP A FUCKING MOUNTAIN AND I CAN HEAR A MOTHERFUCKING LEAF BLOWER

holy fuck, one of my childhood fears was the boulder in the Disneyland Indiana Jones ride somehow actually running us over and THEN THIS FUCKING HAPPENS??? deadline.com/2025/12/walt...

who the fuck wears perfume to the beach

today we've borne witness to the most fucking egregious violations of basic tidepool etiquette parents encouraging their kids to pick up and examine random sealife grown adults dipping their feet in tidepools to rinse off sand DOGS. at least half a dozen FUCKING. DOGS. frolicking in the pools.

i can't even process what just happened in this women's restroom line at Love's near the NM/AZ border my gender presentation today is mixed & i'm due for a shave. so a middle aged woman referred to me as a man, then CORRECTED HERSELF to "person" i was prepared to be hate crimed & I'm so confused

hit shuffle on my "fuck you" playlist bc I'm feeling a certain way abt a certain ex & it gave me cee-lo green's "fuck you" followed directly by gayle's "abcdefu" just. straight to the point.

✌️ on one hand: we fucking love the staging of this production of RENT. very immersive and fun on the other: it is deeply ironic that, aside from our mom, we're the only audience member wearing a mask

🌹genuinely shaking bc it took me FOUR YEARS to muster the courage to check old messages to corroborate my memory of a pivotal event in my last serious relationship i checked. i was right. they were wrong. i already knew this. but now i have it in their words. this is more than i hoped to find

p!nk's "blow me (one last kiss)" has started showing up on my tidal playlists as just "blow me" which is 1000% the vibe she was going for but was not the title of a single she could drop in ~2012 this brings me an unexpected amount of joy

doesn't hoarding mean collecting and holding onto things in a dysfunctional way how the fuck is using the same functional phone for 3+ years "hoarding" if anything, replacing tech constantly without trading in, recycling, or reselling the older models is hoarding

i'm looking at diagnoses from one of my healthcare systems & they read like trivia questions like "Behavior disorder characterized by the inability to focus attention for a normal period of time found in childhood without hyperactivity"

idk why the hell redistricting INDIANA has become a national focal point this state is already gerrymandered. out of 9 districts, we have 2 (22%) blue and 7 (78%) red (in 2024, Trump got 58.6% of the vote and Harris got 38.6%) at MOST, they'd be able to pack & crack Indianapolis to get 1 seat

made the mistake of rereading messages we exchanged w mom during one of the worst weeks of our life messages included screenshots from an abusive ex who was in heavy DARVO mode (we inadvertently kicked them out via their boyfriend; it's a long story) kinda feel like we're in hell

i really do prefer supporting small businesses but I'm not even fully convinced that there's anyone in this motel registration office, even though the door is open and the lights are on

✌️ohmyfuckinggod why can't neurotypicals behave in ways that make sense wtf does "employee sitting behind bathroom door cleaning the floor with a 'wet floor' sign preventing it from fully opening but no indication that the bathroom is closed" mean

✌️this is the most chaotic medical office I've seen in a long time it's wound care & the sleep lab. in one office we got back to return our home sleep study equipment 5min before 11 (return window was 8 to 11) & they were at lunch. at ten fifty five in the fucking morning. 1/

🧪If I would've known that this Office Depot's POS system was literally a POS, I would've just skipped this errand....

💊 Our asthma was diagnosed almost 10 years ago. We've had the same triggers since elementary school (exertion, cold/dry air). But bc of our late diagnosis, we're still learning to recognize the signs that we need to use our rescue inhaler. Our symptoms feel "normal" up until the coughing fits start.

it's pretty messed up that it took a pandemic for me to get my oral hygiene in order still absolutely not willing to go to the dentist unless it's an emergency. it's been 6+ years since my last routine cleaning but now i floss daily (thread & water), & brush + use hydroxyapatite mouthwash 2x/day

i'm gonna fucking scream if she genuinely thinks it's a fucking good idea to fucking run for president again

been trying to figure out why it's gotten so difficult to fall asleep if I'm at all hungry, & i'm still not ruling out the possibility of chronic illness contributing but i just connected it to trauma zeph endured in not getting enough food at our dad's house (neglect, not financial instability)

🌹had to literally just sit down on the floor in my bedroom bc the phrase "the beatings will continue until morale improves" came up in a podcast and it felt way too fucking familiar

i left the West Coast 18 months ago & southern California specifically 6 years ago i did not sign up for summer weather extending into fucking October after moving to the Midwest

oh no we accidentally unlocked a memory it's not trauma, it's... HEAD ON. APPLY DIRECTLY TO YOUR FOREHEAD. i'm laugh-crying jfc this is what i get for exploring the recesses of our memory vault

🧪I think a lot about how Tetris can be lower the risk of PTSD if played soon after a traumatic event & how I absolutely loved to play Tetris at Dad's house (which is where I mostly existed, as my role was initially protecting Rose). I feel like there's a braided essay in there somewhere.

i'm tired of having shoulder blades i swear they're responsible for 90% of our chronic pain

got our COVID (Novavax) and flu shots yesterday! 30 hours later, only side effect was mild arm soreness fyi, if you're in a state served by Publix, you can probably get Novavax there. we're in Indiana but 25min from a Publix in Kentucky, i went after therapy (since our therapist is in KY)

reminder that acetaminophen is basically the only pain med not contraindicated in pregnancy NSAIDs aren't recommended as they can increase the risk of complications, esp after 20 weeks opioids aren't recommended for obvious reasons (1/3)

lmao, I'm getting an ultrasound & they have free water bottles by the entrance & a restroom right by the door to the clinic ik why but also they're inadvertently taunting both the ppl who aren't supposed to eat/drink before their procedure & the ppl who aren't supposed to pee before their procedure

just remembered the time my ex basically told me i had no idea what i was talking about when I said marionberries were just "pretentious blackberries" not bc of any specific opinion they held abt the berries. but bc they refused to believe marionberries were a blackberry cultivar

our society is fucking broken if it's reasonable for law enforcement to describe a 22-year-old as living w his parents "for a long time" as though 1) this experience is extraordinarily uncommon, esp among gen z, & 2) it has anything to do w criminal/violent behavior

i actually want to scream when cis ppl believe transphobia only got really bad in like, 2022 or 2023 we were invisible until the supreme court ruled on same sex marriage & we became the next civil rights frontier, which also made us the next target (see: NC bathroom bill, 2016) 1/

Google's generative AI: "adhesions after a hysterectomy can cause infertility" i-- pretty sure the hysterectomy will do that on its own?

i cannot wait for the virality/popularity of the word "rot" and variations thereof to wane as someone who has a soft spot for mushrooms & is keenly aware of the cyclical nature of life/death/decomposition, the cultural fixation on "rot" as unilaterally bad is very unsettling

i feel like, if more 24/7 nurse lines had a text-based option, fewer ppl would default to generative AI w questions about specific symptoms they're experiencing young ppl (under ~35) rly hate phone calls. the audio quality is garbage & we tend to live w roommates in cheap housing w thin walls

was thinking abt a fucked up incident from 4 years ago & realized we got so triggered we cycled from freeze to flight to fight in a matter of probably three minutes and only the shift from freeze to flight was bc of a dissociative switch

we've gotten more rain in the last 5 hours than we got in the entire month of august

the sheer fucking number of writing residencies that do not, on any page of their website, specify whether they're fee-based or fully funded is ABSURD

today's shower thought: if you're someone's rock, you have a pretty good relationship. if you're their bottom, it's probably also a good relationship in a totally different way but if you're their rock bottom, something has gone horribly wrong

apparently i can swallow 20 standard size 0 capsules at once context: CVS was out of lithium & i had a supplemental form leftover from before my bipolar dx according to my research, ~24 caps equals 1 dose of the prescription strength i take i had 64 caps left, just under what I'd need for a day

i'm pretty fucking sure there were elections in 1812 and 1864 and 1944 but sure, being in a declared war automatically means elections don't happen

how the fuck did anyone ever believe the industry of *building new data centers* would be a sustainable source of jobs it's literally construction. maintenance, both of the physical building & the internal infrastructure, won't need as many workers, & you can't build an infinite number of anything

i'm listening to Seattle's Friday news & like. they're closing 2 light rail stops and portions of 4 major freeways at the same time, on one of the hottest weekends of the summer who the fuck thought this was a good idea

what world do politicians live in istg local san diego independent news podcast did an interview w a rep who claimed leftists were the ones who wanted Biden to run for re-election & stay in the race, & moderates/centrists wanted him to step down i just. no? what the fuck?

i'm so fucking tired of ppl rehashing how the pandemic lockdown affected kids without ever saying a word about how getting COVID can absolutely destroy lives even when it isn't deadly

for clarity: schedule 2-5 drugs are prescription only. buying them w/o a prescription is a crime schedule 3 drugs include testosterone, other anabolic steroids, and ketamine. existing state-level legal frameworks for recreational cannabis may or may not survive if cannabis is moved to schedule 3

has anyone realized that rescheduling cannabis would make it a prescription drug & just how fucking disruptive that would be to existing cannabis industries