Recently Berry was on an podcast and talked about doing idol in the u.s. vs japan and what she said was very true. She mentioned that at conventions, staff often doesn't take idol performances so seriously or their job the entire weekend as staff isn't so serious compared to in japan,

This is something that I'm afraid to say on twitter because it might get picked up and people will attack me LOL. I feel like since it's pretty empty here and people might read these much later after I post them, it's less likely there will be an inflammatory reaction but hmm we'll see lol

I don't really know what to do. I want to make myself more understandable to people but at the same time, I have the hardest time ever trying to neatly fold myself into a concise sentence of some sort. I feel like I was always too ahead of things. Like, before,

I did not go all in and felt myself holding back still damn it. I mean, I had moments of feeling free, but many moments of thinking too much about the environment and my appearance (in a bad way lol)

I started using twitter again a little bit but it doesn't really feel right to post there a lot and let my thoughts run wild and free there LOL. I think a couple posts a day is fine, but beyond that I feel like I'm doing too much.

It sounds really funny, but with my two upcoming performances in february during my florida trip, I think I'm really ready to like, go all in omg lol aghhhhh. but what does that mean? well, for me, it's when I fully commit to just, owning the fact that I might look like I'm doing too much.

I gave my vlog channel a makeover and organized every video into various playlists based upon the year I made them. Now, you can conveniently choose to watch certain videos from every single year ranging from 2011 to 2023 omg lol wtf is my life www.youtube.com/@CherryWallf...

I got a call to the english classroom this morning and I couldn't understand a darn thing </3 if it was important, I guess someone would show up at the classroom or I would get a message, but... nothing. I wish I knew what they called for omg this is gonna take me hours to get over u.u !!!

random life update: I still haven't given up on getting through my backlog of vlogs in... chronological order. I'm finally at the last vlog of 2023: my princess themed 30th birthday that got crashed by a twitch streamer and his pals. I knew him, I guess we're friends? maybe.... associates? lol but

These days, like before the new year up until now, I've been diving back in to Green Day's discography and omg people... this band was my life in middle school and have been my favorite band ever since but I always feel so embarrassed to say it LOL

*insert "hey.... hey... how y'all doing" video clip from reality tv show that is often used by stan twitter accounts*

in general, I am always seeing people succeed online doing the bare minimum and people gaining a huge following with less than stellar skills and, well, I guess they're a good person, idk them, so I'll give them that I guess. it just makes me think that if THAT is what people want, then why should I

I wanna post karaoke videos for people who have followed me for quite some time to see if I've improved my singing skills, but I also think no one is gonna be interested in that because it's not like a proper cover and it's gonna have mistakes and so if I can't imagine people enjoying it why post it

my mom is FINALY ANTi-TRUMP

one of my next original song music videos is gonna feel like this lol www.youtube.com/watch?v=lStP...

people have got to stop using the words "authentic japanese" when like no japanese people were involved in organizing or producing that thing omg

I'm finally really understanding the difference between community driven events and artistically driven events. I really see many positives for the kaigai idol community, but I'm not sure if I can really call any of my events really all that community driven because I've always had

I really can't stand fake friendliness. Like, I'm seeing someone being friendly with someone obviously because the person has a huge following and that person being friendly back I just know does not care to actually meet up with that peson because, why would they? lol

There is so much to do omg I wanna be secretive, but I really can't. I have a blog/podcast idea, and a brand idea, documentary ideas, and well, that's enough for now lol. I wanna share ALL the ideas but I sound crazy cuz no way all of that can happen this year unless...

New vlog!! 💖✈️ youtu.be/FiKzQpKik4E

it's very comforting to know that the cosplayers and idols who look so incredibly perfect and almost non-human like... absolutely don't look like that irl. like, they're still pretty but... I'll never understand why ppl edit their faces and don't get embarrassed meeting people irl

"journal prompts for existential dread while chasing your dreams" so this where I am now at life LOL

She is a great example of what it means to have absolutely zero charisma

I probably mentioned this before, but the reason why I want to push for the usage of "indie idol" more is because I really can't handle being compared to Japanese idols by calling myself a j-pop idol. Kaigai idol does work but it still gives to comparison towards what the girlies are doing in Japan

welp I've come to accept that the real reason why I have a complicated relationship with my confidence is basically because of my mom never saying she was proud of me as a kid and making straight A's be the norm, not celebrated who would have thought?! hahahaha

I'm so excited to live in the u.s. again, believe it or not lol. Of course there will be many challenges and thinks I'll miss sooo much about being in korea/asia, but I didn't think I would end up being happy to return home so thats good lol

I'm starting to practice dancing again. Man, I say this ALL the time how I'm starting and stopping. and by this I mean like trying to learn some more complicated choreography, not just choreography for like a short idol performance. I was looking at old videos of myself,

DEBUT RELEASE // DO-KI ♥ DO-KI BURNIN' PANIC // Delighted to announce my first EP, a heartfelt tribute to some of my fave idols of the '80s. Featuring the original vocal performances with all-new synth-heavy instrumentals. Was a lot of fun putting this together, i hope you enjoy it ♥

ok yeah it's gonna be an album ehehehee an intro track (dunno if that really counts as a song) 6 brand new songs and a remix of my first original song so that makes 8 tracks total... that's an album right? lol

the ep might be turning into a full album if I can grab these two extra tracks omg yeah, it DEFINITELY won't be finished until around my bday in december lol It is giving me so much pain to like, have this take so long but I just hope it's worth it

this sounds so ridiculously cheesy but it would be so amazing if at some point people saw me more as like having a rockstar personality rather than being an idol it is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cheesy but like, maybe I'll get to the point where that will be fitting lmfao

if you really like to challenge yourself, and continuously grow and evolve as a person, don't waste your time hanging around or becoming closer to losers. people who love to be a victim, refuse to change their circumstances, and would rather complain and complain without hearing solutions

if people were to criticize my lack of language skills beyond English, I'm just going to tell them that I'm just a stupid idiot. Yknow, that whole tactic of putting myself down so hard that they end up having to say sorry to me and try to make me feel better lmao

the sheer number of idols in tokyo, and japan itself as a whole is just wild like any idols who can rise above the endless sea to mainstream success and maintain that are really something

it has taken me 5 years living here to finally understand the appeal of nurungji aka korean rice water... soup? stew? I guess soup? or as one of my students said "water rice" lol

I'm not sure if I'm really a part of the u.s. idol community anymore. I mean, I am lol, but I'm a weird ghost situation. The generation of kaigai idols in florida active pre-2020 have mostly quit. There are only a few people who know of the old stories of yesteryore (I just made that up lolz)

it might be weird to say but the accent of the female singer in that tokyo drift song is what makes it sound so catchy and iconic lol

never do stuff for the sake of popularity. you'll just lose yourself. if you do things and wish it could get more popularity/recognition, that's different. people say you shouldn't care about numbers but obviously if you work hard on something and want to gain some monetary success, it's important

people joke that bsky is like being stuck in 2017 or whatever and like, yeah, isn't that what you all wish you could go back to lol

I’m turning off comments on this, but I have to get this out. My heart breaks and I get more with shooting The owners of guns used in mass shootings HAVE to face prosecution. As the owner, it’s your job to keep it safe. If it’s stolen by a family member or a stranger, you didnt have it secure (1/x)

it would probably help to post this on The Other Place but like, ehhh nah lol

it's wild how matcha has become this trend taking over america and whatnot. Like, omg lol

I feel like part of my lack of appeal is the fact that I'm not really a secret keeper about myself like I voluntarily share information about myself that NO ONE ASKED ABOUT and therefore doesn't make me seem mysterious or stimulates people to want to know more about me

I'm starting a new blog I want to take "seriously" and the first entry is like 5 pages on google docs........... I KNOW people are gonna be annoyed it's SOOO LONG but like, I CAN'T make this short and also splitting it up into multiple post will mess up the flow :V

Help spread the word! It's ok if we never met/talked to each other! Let's connect through our love of BIG ANGEL!!

working on something cool but what's new I'm always working on something and have yet to finish/catch up with everything LOL

just so you know, korean elementary schoolers know and enjoy the love live NANI GA SUKI meme lol

working on music is seriously so magical. like I may not get anywhere far with it, but they're still my creations that feel like invisible treasures

planning some really colorful outfits for my tokyo trip in three weeks... I hate how I feel like I can't dress colorfully in korea lol

accepting criticism as not a personal attack is a really important skill to have. it allows you to grow and improve. if you are unable to have the discernment between criticism that can help you vs harassment, then you'll keep going about life doing things that-