it would be so much simpler if someone could tell me "here is the name of dr x. they were lovely with me and listened carefully and understood my struggles &decided on treatment fast and everything has been going good since then. here's their email; if they don't answer fast, i'll call them for u."

for a second there this evening i stumbled back into jonelias and then Dan and Phil were like. Hi. and now i can't go to bed because they put their arms around each other. what the fucking fuck

Today I was discussing Executive Dysfunction with some folks, and how in our household we call it "The Sits" I decided to make an info poster. It's based on my personal experience with it. Yes, the person is me 😆 #neurodivergent #memes #executivedysfunction

Staring at the last half ritalin pill like i know i need to use you but then you're gone for good and who will i be

I know I say it every week, but i fear i need to become rich

Is everybody on the internet some shade of ace or aro

how am i supposed to go back to work now. i wanna plan outfits instead.

Things ive learnt today: i am not made to try and buy tickets for stuff where they sell in less than ten minutes coz What the Fuck

How is it only thursday. Why is this week so long. Whats happening.

hit in the face abruptly with the memory that the first rpf stories i read were actually tokyo hotel fics on fanfiction.net when i was fourteen years old

what if i went to sleep at 9 again (- girl who should enjoy her long days and always weeps in winter)

Lady on her website: I do first exchanges in writing, here is a place you can write ur message Me: ideal love writing not calling there, msg with reason im writing and disponibilities Lady: answer 2 days later a generic msg with infos already on her website going 'write ur reasons&disponibilities!'

incredibly embarassing to be waiting to buy tickets for a show where so many /kids/ are going "how do i go i don't think my parents will let me :(" . Like god. who have i become. (then again i never looked up who was going to tma's things, maybe there were endless teens too as well)

What does the tower coupled with the magician mean

god has given me no energy nor will nor coordination and grace because if he had, i'd have learnt how to make all sort of props so long ago any room i spent more than ten minutes in would start to look like a theme park attraction or a movie set (or both.)

tarot will be like. You do daily readings for a week that hardly match and so you go "tarot i think ur starting to lie to me" and then the tarot goes "three of swords bitch" and it's like. okAY neverMind

if life was a romcom maybe id give money to my friend in my will but only on the condition that she changes her life for a year and forget about finding romance just go and find friendship and adventure and intimacy and babies or whatever all around the world and then she'll find love in a train

i wonder if the constant thoughts would disappear if i had an actual human in my home i could touch whenever i wanted

Funny how much u realize just out of focus you can be once you've tasted being able to work with relative ease

i know you guys won't believe me because i treat the internet like my diary, but if there's something i can do it truly is lying,, which really means that if the world was just it would have also granted me no morals and no guilt and i could just be a villain

going stirr crazy not just because i'm sick but because my brain is coming up with billions of fic ideas every hour or so and none of them are landing enough to start making me /write/ and meanwhile some people just casually write so many words so damn fast and aaaaaaaaah -etc.

stuck in "i don't want to write i want my stories to be already written so i can read them" mode :(

Im being dramatic over a cold but also im dying and hot and my mouth and throat are made of sandpaper why do you do when youre so thirsty but you cant drink because your throat hurts and youre a baby about pain

Not remembering my passwords freaks me out so bad. I want to access ao3 in any location, cmon brain

Hi hello I've opened a Ko-fi shop with a bunch of merch I have in stock on it! I'm going to have to finance roof repairs soon and that's - as you might expect - expensive as hell. So come take a look! Share with your friends and your family and your cat 🐱 ty ko-fi.com/kalgalen/shop

The thing is i do secretly love very early mornings I feel the energy is so different especially if you don't have to rush for anything

I did it. I finally wrote a message to my friends to tell them i cannot do a single task lately for the company, especially the book. And youll never guess but my friends....... are being my friends about it, so. Kind. Who would have thought.

I brought my computer specifically to work and. My computer. Doesnt turn on. I just. I almost want to laugh except i bought this computer in november so its really not funny and i was going to use all my time to force myself on the task and just. Why, universe. Like. Why.

I actively do not hyperfocus on TMA anymore (as obvious by the lack of JME posts in the past like, year, minus october 'course) BUT someone will say the name "jon sims" on tumblr and i'll be SCREAMING internally coz he deserved EVERYTHING. /Perfect/ character despite even his author not liking him.

Why is travelling day always the worst day

I know im getting the need to write because im anxious about the trip and also The Task i said would be done before i leave for the trip but God I want to write but i also dont have any particular craving i just want the feeling of writing in the zone ,,,,,,

okay, i'm still avoiding The Task. it couldn't be a completely full miracle, i suppose

Update i slept two hours im not human anymore

If this is how normal people are supposed to be all the time im going to cry where has this been all my life its not even been an hour and i feel so EFFICIENT. I mean all over the place. And speaking too much. Sorry about that. But fuck. And i only have two pills. So i have to make the most of it.

Guys im serious is it supposed to make you horny asking for a friend

People who eat ritalin what are the possible side effects

girl who wrote just yesterday: remember when i use to write :(

when you lie to your friends about getting headaches you just end up getting headaches as retribution from the universe and thats just how it goes

Maybe I do actually like best friends getting together as a ship. Maybe i was a wholesome person all along.

dunno what it says about me that i read about cis men having sex with each other and i'm like "this is fun" and they come OnceTM and it's over and i'm like "lil bit tragic tho isnt it"

DnP fandom loooves their "younger self meet older self" AUs, pretty sure half of it because dan dealt with lots of issues, the rest of it because he said he'd both want to fuck and kill his clone if he had the chance, and i used to be "eh" about it but of course reading a good fic will make u think

Last time I reread Eat Pray Love I realized that I'd outgrown the book - no matter how much i'm still attached to it for what it did to 18 year old me - but like, what's a book that kind of hits the same as Eat Pray Love but,, isn't,, Eat Pray Love

it's just so frustrating to want to write but all you've got are /vibes/. because then you put words on paper and you're like "no, no! those are WORDS i want VIBES"

maybe my therapist tells me so much i shouldn't feel guilty about all the responsabilities i'm ignoring, the deadlines i'm missing, and the promises i break because she. also does that. on the regular. at the very least the "ill totally do this" (does not do this)

Instagram keeps showing me reels of a group of ladies doing yoga with swords and like, obviously this is an American thing only and all, but that's stuff like that that reminds me i'm really not above being influenced :')

feeling the alloace tonight for sure

You know things are serious when the therapist starts calling you by your first name

I hope one day if im remembered itll be as the girl who knew JME was canon and was proven right by the play

all in all i don't think there's anywhere else on the internet that feels more me than tumblr; and even as i might want to bemoan lack of engagement at least it's so rich and full of Things and you can just yap and yap and yap which fits me. i don't think anywhere else is quite worth time or energy.

More women kissing: www.tumblr.com/somuchbetter...