"I'm gonna make this account to do art stuff!" I lied with enthusiasm, knowing I would just use this account to ramble about nonsense instead.

Be 'normal,' or email the town I lived in 19 years ago to ask what the hell their siren was before they replaced with a Federal Signal 2001? FS2001 is boring btw. The old one was a dual tone something or other. Of course, when I move into my best friend's house, we have a FS2001 in the back yard.

Throwback to the time I got this Xerneas plush and his head was too heavy and broke the cardboard in his neck, so I gave him a ball stretcher collar and predicted "Pokemon s&m" before the next Gen was Sun and Moon

Back in a state of exhaustion and delirium. Sleeping would be good but I'm just going to wake up in 5.5 hours again and will be back in this position tomorrow. Just not sure about anything right now.

Here's something. In my younger days I was utterly obsessed with doing art The Right Way (this is foolish and poisonous) and one of the things was making sure anatomy is 100% correct. The frustration sort of built up enough that on anxious days I'd start imagining anatomy that was just, wrong,

Please stand in line and wait your turn to be judged by frog

what

Bought a couple weeks of groceries and I'm still getting criticized, and the really stable stuff is still hiding in my trunk. It's no wonder I feel a lot better when he's got a job that takes him outside of the house. Like grandma's been gone, stop being so fucking critical of everything.

go 12 hours without breaking out of the Oblivion map challenge: failed emptier 'n Starfield out here Gonna run back I guess...get my athletics up. Or jump all the way back. Could fast travel...

That space downstairs that I made up to do "Dear Anomaly" is going to get compacted so I can use it for something else. While the goods will still be accessible at a future date that what we're calling "Uberrime Midwest" is feasible, I think right now I need to turn it into prepper area.

FO76 Fisherman looks like boyfriend material, I hope he's a nice guy! (Also think my phone camera is broken again, I'm getting dark banding vertically. I'm over this damn thing)

Venting to a few people but I am honestly so utterly upset. Bday card from grandma wherein she digs at me because of my anti-m*ga posts on FB. She's offended. Maybe don't vote for that fucker and cause harm to everyone and ALSO YOURSELF? just... I'm very broken up about that side of the family.

My phone camera sucks for a lot of things but then Dad is like "I need a picture of the fret spread on this guitar" and is struggling to figure out how and I'm like. Hold this by the window, I gotchu.

MISSING: TABLET PEN! Maybe we could find it over in the shop, on a shirt? hivemill.com/products/mis...

Appts to get into DMV, trying to get one that wasn't 50+ miles away for two weeks. License expires tomorrow (🎂), finally get in today and... Systems go down statewide. 🙃

Some thoughts of bilateral salpingectomy as it is terribly fresh in my mind, and I am exhausted to some degree of delirium (woke up around 2pm yesterday, my only "sleep" since then at 8:20pm is from anesthesia-nap). A week ago I had a pre-op appointment, and Doctor asked how I was feeling first,

Some doodles from the last two weeks

Feeling a little bit like I'm still poison.

World is a bit nicer with the gex

Wondering if I've been overlooking my intense anxiety as just "a thing" when it may be hormonal. Just getting small pains that suggest it may be another early cycle. Which is very cool and not alarming at my age.

Genuinely perplexed about this, I've lost a 6x8" sketchbook (with my work sketches in it). I did a floor wash with some surfaces yesterday and no luck. Today I'm digging in a bit deeper and still no. No idea where it could have gone.

Do you know what helps writing with essential tremor? itty bitty letters. Tiny. Teeny tiny. Block writing, all caps. I'm not hypomanic btw, just anxious. My rapid posting here is a lil silly but it's fine. I'm fine. Just anxious.

Dad's bday tomorrow. I bought him some Iron Maiden LotB minifigs on ebay - surprised the guy shipped them at all and hope he's all right, didn't realize he was in CA. Definitely not arriving in time, if at all? it's not important, all things considered. Did a doodle instead. Mixed media.

Quick Inspo doodles, last time I did 'em. All Fallout 76 themed. Grafton Monster and Ghoul doing the Jive

Going to dig a bit through my photos to see if I can find the last time I did a round of "give me quick inspo and I'll doodle it." Don't have much an audience but I like these sorts of tasks and I'd like to set up something in the future.

There's a neat piece sitting somewhere in my folders.

The urge to draw everything looking to the left. Forever and ever.

Some nonsense, figuring out some limitations and behaviors of the Yupo paper (plastic). Great darkness achievable, pencil blends out like melted butter. Could do something nice with it!

FB says this was 8 years ago. Should touch on something like this again. Lil face textures n all

Briefly coming out of my hermit shell out of obligation more than anything else. Which is to say I had an appointment with my psychiatrist (who gave me a talkin' to about showing up in a hoodie and not a jacket). Went to Blick first though, because if there's someplace that can help me with paper...

Thinkin about Christmas rats

Been getting this one brand of sketchbook because the paper is obscenely smooth and I just started drawing in a new one and the paper is toothy... Genuinely upset.

Ultragenic mole miner from FO76 raid. Was paying closer attention to it after one knocked my block off and I was watching someone else play and realized the ultracite on his head uh... he's a dickhead

Any of my skills require fine motor control, and I have...worsening essential tremor (need to schedule brain scan but also like, money). My right wrist hurts when overactive (Linburg-Comstock variation w pain, and right-handed). What...use do I have for myself as things get worse?

Feeling utterly horrible, and it's coming on quickly. I definitely have a bacterial infection in my nostril (this is...self-inflicted and I suspect staph), but some of the other symptoms concern me. Gonna go stick my finger in that marmite we bought today and see if I can taste it.

Awesome venn diagram covering "who broke the washing machine" and "who gets to babysit their laundry all night"

Here's my profile pic. Couple years ago, probably Sai. Definitely Sai. I bought that license ages ago and I'm still using the software.

Have tried three different forms of "making things" today and have been very agitated with each! IDK what's wrong with me. Here's a fresno nightcrawler test. Either going to rework completely or just pick up the BeeZee pattern.

Opened a new sketchbook with some void-face thing because what do draw