Job interview tomorrow (for the job I’m already doing) Anxious yet confident. I know I’m good at what I do…you just never know who you are up against though (especially at the level I’m interviewing for)

If you see this, quote with a title screen that’s iconic to I could leave this on for hours and just vibe to this intro music This game was also the reason I chose buying a GameCube over all the other consoles at the time and I have zero regrets!

Just sitting here playing a computer game where I control a character playing a computer game 🤪

When your real life feels like it’s falling apart, time to play someone else’s life instead.

I made a thing ahead of Trans Day of Remembrance!! Every year I find it more difficult to participate in a day that should be a celebration of living authentically. So this year I’ll start with a chocolate brownie and see how we go 🤪

A day of Babylon 5 and cross stitch is a day well spent

Started a new journey today with my first ever Lyra class!! After doing pole for about 18 months I’ve been getting a bit stuck with some of my progression, and lyra is a chance to cross train while having fun (and a sense of success). Still…extremely shocked I got this on my first go 😳

I started my 30’s miserably pretending to be a man. Now I’m 40 and having the best time of my life!

In my case it’s a cheesecake ☺️

The job I’m currently doing (in an acting capacity) is finally being advertised. Time to get my application together.

Slept 10 hours and thank goodness for a day off work. Still the stress is high, fatigue is off the charts, and my body is screaming at me because I haven’t been to my pole classes for two weeks 🤪

Today is International Women's Day. I want to urge everyone to celebrate and examine the impact that women have in society and our power to effect positive change. A shoutout from me to the great women fighting the good fight - Mexican president Claudia Sheinbaum, US Senators Elissa Slotkin...

Just typical…Alfred got us all prepared, spent days ‘edging’ us off the coast, and then just fizzled into nothing

Shit is getting real!!

Trust a male named Alfred to make himself the centre of attention on Imternational Women’s Day 🤪

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After travelling for work over the last two days, it’s now time to start preparing ahead of tropical cyclone Alfred that’s about to hit 😬

I think I'm going to start calling my anxiety/depression 'Donald' *It always lies *It will ultimately lose *It absolutely hates being referred to by its first name only *It has tiny hands

Literally have no words at this point

So apparently 12 hours sleep wasn’t enough last night and I needed to also have an additional nap, and basically do nothing all day on the only ‘weekend’ day I get this week 😕 Getting the duct tape and string to hold me together for the new week about to begin

I barely stepped foot in the office today and everyone comes rushing to me to complain about the all the problems other people are creating. I really feel like I just need to nope out of today as soon as possible…

Current rewatch of Babylon 5 keeps hitting harder and harder with every episode. Currently part way through season three and the earth alliance president just issued an executive order to dissolve the senate… 😕

Another Sunday lost where I’m travelling for work ahead of another workshop tomorrow 😢

My body is definitely letting me know about protest after learning a new pole move yesterday 🤪 So much pain, so many bruises…and I still am excited for more 😁

Another day presenting workshops to teachers…so of course I had to get coffee from a place called jhambar first 🤪

Start of the day vs not long after running a full day workshop with teachers and waiting for the flight home… And I’m doing it all again in a couple of days Looking forward to a good nights sleep 😴

First work trip for the year - will be at various places across Queensland over the next month So I figure it’s as good an opportunity to start a new photo series called ‘chairs of Queensland hotel rooms’ 😉

I’m honestly surprised it took this long 😢 CW: transphobia

I thought satire was meant to mock the reality of a situation, not necessarily be the actual truth!

Sigh*- missing another amazing pole dance class tonight that my brain desperately needs so I don’t make my current bodily injury worse than it already is 😢

Hmmm seems the physical manifestations of my anxieties is starting to kick in

After five years of me trying to get my my team of 8 ppl onto using the most basic of project management tools, today I got to launch access to one for my entire branch (50 plus people managing easily over 300 projects) And the best part - everyone was super eager to start using it!!

Ran a full-day workshop today for teachers - the first time I've done so in about a year. To think I used to do this sort of thing (perform in front of people) everyday for 8 years as a teacher I am seriously exhausted and clearly in need of rebuilding my stamina for these things 😜

Ugh - youngest sister just sent me a friend request on a zuck-site (I’m non-contact with my family). A quick look through her profile reminds me of how much they are not my family anymore (or rather they never felt like family in the first place) Thanks but no thanks…delete!

Another weekend gone and another job application sent off... Now to see if this 'needle in a haystack' gets noticed

I think I’ll try descriiiiiiibing graaaavityyyyyy

Good morning lovely people. Imposter syndrome may be kicking my arse right now but at last I can wfh today so that’s something I guess. Currently searching for a new job to escape a toxic work environment, however the leap is challenging when it feels like nothing you do is good enough 😢

Friend at work brought me in a belated b'day present this morning and folks I was almost in tears at the thoughtfulness behind it (and her accompanying thought process 😂) Little did she realise just how much this meant to me after weeks of feeling lost and adrift.

Totally forgot the fact that yesterday was my fourth vagiversary 🥳

Over the last 5 months I’ve been actively reducing my coffee intake from 6-7 cups down to 2-3. I feel healthier and have more vitality And today (only today) I’m saying fuck that and getting the biggest coffee I can to help deal with ‘the bullshit’

My ability to give a fuck about anything right now is at an all time low

Looks like I won't be able to go to US to meet all my amazing trans friends anytime soon

Me: so many projects I need to work on at the moment Also me: I’m going to reorganise my email folder structure 😁

Some good news for a change 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

Listening to someone today cis-mansplain to me how bad things are right now because in his online spaces people are calling his favourite video games woke Meanwhile me and my community are here fighting for our right to exist and be treated with dignity We are not the same

Sad cos I had to stop part way through contemporary pole class thanks to a rib injury flaring up 😢

Apparently I’m not allowed to work on my cross stitch 😸

Finally convinced wifey to watch Repo!

So this is what this side of 40 looks like 😀 Started the day with pole class, now more Babylon 5 and cross stitch and later dinner with wifey and CAKE!!!

Last day of my 30s!