My friend stole my idea and made me an insane advent calendar this year wtf 😂🙈 4 of the days have 2 packs! This is an insanely wonderful Christmas present which builds up. A gift a day when the cold, dark and short days are draining of dopamine 💜

🔴LIVE Hello, is this thing on? We're celebrating reaching Partner on Youtube by doing our first multi stream and playing Chained Together with friends! There's goals and stuff www.youtube.com/watch?v=2KwZ... twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

I want to be in so many streams to say hi but I always feel bad that it means I can't spend much time in each stream, I'll lurk until the end or I need to do out/sleep etc Funny how I then don't go in many streams because I'm worried just saying hi and chatting a bit is worse

I'm beyond exhausted as I go to sleep for comic con tomorrow I can't afford to meet Brandon Rogers & Alex Brightman from HH/HB and barely any spending money My legs are in agony and my head bump has me a little disorientated Friends had to pull out But I'm going to enjoy it!

So many awesome people on today's stream. Thank you so much for the raids and love! I was so tired all day but despite that, we had lots of laughs and great moments 💜🫂

🔴LIVE We're pushing for Partner stronger than ever before! I want to learn what this 'Where Winds Meet' game is all about! While subs are 35% off and I squat for each sub! I'm already regretting this Next stream is Sunday as we celebrate Youtube Partner! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

I keep looking at myself and thinking there's so much of me left, I need to lose twice the amount I've lost this year still, but I can't imagine being smaller?! I guess that's what comes with being obese since you were a kid

Y Yup We're going for Twitch Partner One last push 💪🏻 We've got this!

🔴LIVE 35% off subs! Every gifted sub = 1 squat Phasmophobia time, weee!! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

Doesn't feel great to admit I feel I'm disappointing all my friends I support because I let my emotions get the better of me over the last few months Let's get back on top of this now before it gets worse now I'm in less pain and the pupper is getting older

😂😂 what

Wow! Our first-week ticket sales BLEW MY HAIR RIGHT OFF!! Hope it grows back in time for the tour!

We're 3 out of 6 streams towards Twitch Partner I need so much help from raids to lurks and that extra effort from people to help us get that 75+ average and apply I've done this 8 years next year full time but keep self sabotaging It's made even easier now, can we do it? 🙈

🔴LIVE It's been a day and I bumped my head I'm taking over stream and chilling with Icarus, maybe Phasmo later? Pokémon Crystal Nuz Control rules are out in our Discord! Youtube Partner Celebration Info is also in our Discord! Check Announcements! twitch.tv/rainbow.tv

I do have a schedule, it just lives in Discord usually So have this weeks one!

There are worse situations to work in Especially when it's tedious work that requires me selecting clips to edit Baby 💜

🔴LIVE Cheeky drinky and ghosty hunties in Phasmophobia tonight! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

Last night we had so many lovely raids 💜 I forgot I can still feel shy embarrassed and fan girl over people I look up too. It's not something I think about happening That in itself feels like a gift when I've been feeling very low lately 💜 I want to be better!

🔴LIVE I owe my chat a Uma Musume stream and in 'cosplay' Unicorn onesie is this magical horse school girl stuff, right? Let's see what people are going crazy for twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

I need more Hazbin Hotel already omg

🔴LIVE We'll actually play Dispatch from episdoe 6 onwards today xD twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

🔴LIVE We back!!! Weeee!! Missed you guys! Episode 6 onwards of Dispatch! Then we'll see if we have time for Phasmo?! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

Dipper appreciation post 💜

It gets worse and worse.

Anxiety has been running a bit wild again recently But when you've got this precious girl in your life You're reminded of all the good things to fight for 💜

Home

Travel back home later today It's been a better trip than last year with visiting family and friends, actually enjoyable and felt mostly heard by my family this time Head is just everywhere with worries and anxieties, fun fun 😂

Can't wait for the new season! Was awesome to see Jujutsu Kaisen: Execution in the cinema

Back in the home town

Our first vod since becoming YouTube Partner! Some of the best highlights I feel we've had! Comment, like & subscribe 💜 youtu.be/ud5a6oKOlyc

🔴LIVE We're playing last weeks episodes of Dispatch and the last 2 released later today!! I'm excited!! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

One more new top weight loss reward 💜 I especially love this one as I hear it 😂 "You're all fools!"

🔴LIVE Bustin' some ghosts again! I'm really into Phasmophobia again, not sorry 😂 New Diner map?! twitch.tv/rainbow+zilla

It's my dads 84th birthday today 💜 He taught me clay pigeon shooting since I was 4 years old and ran his own club 💜 I found this video from June 2019 he'd always help me out 😊 We never shot anything other than clays but I haven't been in years

🔴LIVE We don't often do a monday evening stream, but we are today! Phasmophobia and celebrating Youtube Partnership today, woo! And we have a new wheelspin tracker! twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

I have a Youtube channel I've been neglecting due to prioritising my health lately But this happened? www.youtube.com/@Rainbowzilla Confused noises

07:02 in the morning and I've been up for 90 minutes. Fed the pets, emptied bins and had my breakfast as well as feeding the neighbours cats while they're away I could go back to sleep for a bit, but my brain is trying to tell me to continue being productive 🥲

Mabel the menace

Loooove this new Ice Nine Kills top so much 💜 Weight loss reward 😊 Been struggling with losing lately and falling into some bad self care habits. Need to get this all sorted again. Discipline!

We have a Golden Kappa Train! Started by one person! What the heck?! www.twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

🔴LIVE We're playing some Phasmophobia! Whenever the revenue goal is met from now on, we do a Beat Saber stream as well! 😆 twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

Love these guys! Such a great song and a good fuck you to generative AI Be human 💜

I love my @dontrachquit.bsky.social stickers! Finally put the last ones (sadly) in my sticker book, along with the rest 💜

My new stickers from @cheziberry.bsky.social arrived and in their new home! ko-fi.com/cheziberry52...

New ink from my new tattooist who I adore! It was going to be Hades from Disney's Hercules but medical bills came first Changed to my late cat Robin's paw print 💜 Feeling cute today! 🙈 The dopamine from new ink always feels good

🔴LIVE Owe my community a Beat Saber stream, so we beat with sabers. Been a while too twitch.tv/.rainbow_zilla

🔴LIVE A bit of Valheim today as I have a vets appointment later and sort of overwhelmed myself already today :D twitch.tv/rainbow_zilla

Scary words I've been thinking about expressing for a while But good for the soul?