i will be honest i relate to autistic people's experiences but im not autistic but at the same time i feel like i dont belong anywhere and im different in a way i dont know i hate this

im so anxious

im so scared it will comeback

...

i just kinda fucked up my hands again after almost 1 month im going to cry

i came back to learing korean and its so so so fun

my mom just laughed that back in her days children was beaten with a belt and they didnt have mental problems, that triggered me so bad i want to slash myself

it wasn't bad i think

i have an exam in like 10mins

i am so fucking tired cant keep my eyes open but only like 30min and ill bet at home in my bed

IT WAS THE BEST CONCERT OF MY LIFE it was so amazing to see them again. I slept 9hrs in two days, everything hurts but i was so happy, now gotta heal my pcd

i am literally breezing

D-DAY!!!!

im so excited i wont be able to fall asleep help...

its fucking tomorrow ahhh!!!!

i am really in the mood to just get tipsy and kiss a pretty girl ehhh......

new era

2 days i start packing my things!!!

3 DAYS!!!

the first thought about hurting myself was probably 8 years ago when i was 12 or even sooner and i never got any help no single psychologist appointment or anything like that and idk if i should be proud of myself i beat that myself or i should be ashamed it was never that bad

4 DAYS!!!!!!!

i just finished one of the most beautiful polish book I've read

i love gyarus so much!!!!!!

i forgot about yesterday BUT 5 DAYS!!!!! im so scared they will cancel my train ahhhhh i hate winter

o need to quit smoking fr

losing childhood best friend day by day naturally growing apart must be the most devastating feelings i ever felt

i need dom who can me so shy i cant speak and i will do whatever for her

7 DAYS today the tour starts and im so excited to know the setlist for europe!!!!!

i started watching Sherlock Holmes for the first time and i see why people ship him with John they have this wierd very strong tension between them

sometimes i should just shut the fuck up

8days im getting concert anxiety

i want more friends ehhh

so in need to have a wifey, god forbid a horny lesbian

i NEED i repeat i NEED to make art again but i cant idk why artblock hitting hard

fuxk overthinking

my friend more distant lately and i am freaking out she hates me

9 DAYS RAHHHHHHH

she made me feel not important to her and when i comforted her she turned everything against me. i still think about that i wonder if she thinks about me too

desperately need attention

i have enough

i hate tiktok and that every app is made for iphone users fuck you all

at this point i would let anyone play with my feelings just to feel loved a little bit

pizza with broccoli goes hard‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

10 DAYS TILL P1HARMONY CONCERT IM GONNA EXPLODE

fuck.

ladybugs freaks me out so bad idk why

gimme attention gimme attention gimme attention gimme attention gimme attention gimme attention

what a wierd day to be on bsky honestly

i want to more moots to interact with....:c