I've encountered like two very distinct breeds of protogen fursona users that seem to be majority stakeholders in the genre. Underage furries, and college-degree techies. I'm neither, so as I've mentioned in the past, feel very... unusual.

Anyone listening? Anyone here? Anyone care? Anyone at all?

Alright.

V, Se7en's sibling's reference thing. I don't entirely know why I never uploaded it here. Perhaps because it's really old art. I've gotten better at art in a lot of ways, but not enough, and certainly not quickly enough, either.

I don't think I ever posted Arti on here. This is a one-off low-effort vent art piece. One of his rules (which often gets broken by me) is that hr always smiles and is happy, no matter what. He was meant to portray who I want to be. Outgoing, friendly, happy, and can smile easily. Here he isn't.

I'm seeing a lot of stuff about the rapture today and yesterday Now I'm not saying this is a sign for myself and my own tethers to this mortal coil, far from it, but it at least has me puzzled enough to weigh in on my usual SI, making the whole thing feel more appealing 'Everyone else is doin' it'

Honestly, I'm not sure what the point to being on this platform is. I bitch and moan about how depressed I am to an audience of nobody, and eventually it gets to the point where I make the couple of people actually here concerned enough that it bites me in the ass. And I post art nobody likes.

Scrolling through my past posts to see that, well, I never did. Makes sense as I don't often take much time to complete things for my own sake.

Hm.

I could have not said anything, that is entirely true. Nothing was truly gained by me having shared what I have, that's a fact. But what I spoke of is my inner thoughts at the time that I posted. I understand the fear of the negative, it's not unfound and I won't say you're wrong for disliking-

"So how do you keep yourself tethered to the living world?" "I make promises in the form of art projects that I don't want to go unfinished." "And how are you, at pursuing them?" "Poor, inconsistent and slow." "Well I suppose that keeps you here longer, hm?" "You're correct."

ONE OF THESE DAYS ARTIANS BANG ZOOM STRAIGHT TO THE MOON

I'm definitely never going to *actually* get support for offing myself, no matter how much I'm capable of bitching and moaning. It's morally evil to wish someone's death. However, I would very much advocate for anyone who *doesn't* have a stake in my life to just ignore my SI. I'm not worth it.

Feeling like maybe I should just give up on this site altogether. I met like, one person here and it was purely for business reasons. Eh. Easy come, easy go. A 29 foot fall onto concrete will probably still be deadly, even though I sort of wished it could've been a higher number.

I've seen a few examples of artists who suffer from mental struggles such as SI who will have severe bouts of immenese existenctialism and whatnot, only to be posting their silly fat ass fox girl/boy/they art in a couple days. I don't... do that. I'm just... like this.

One of my recurring fantasies is to have Wolverine's (the superhero) claws. That way I can put both fists up to my head and activate them.

It really is getting harder every day to see a point in continuing on. The powers that be are closing in on making human suffering the standard for those not bowing down to their position of power, or those unfortunate enough to be born a certain shade. Next I fear they'll go after ancestry.

Ardent Senior Technician Liliya Fahr. She develops software for Ardent Security Concern. She has an encounter with Se7en and C-Dog, which changes the course of the two's lives. She sees protogens as tools, but doesn't work directly under the protogen wing of Ardent. #OC

I don't know anything.

Green-eyed blue one, if you still stalk this profile, I have no idea why. It's one of my outlets. You dislike seeing such things, and have a choice to not view this page. So, I better not hear anything about what I say on here. It's different than a one-on-one discussion. These go out to the ether.

I should get my funeral planned

Mr Wolf plush I got at the theater I love him~

I have cried a lot this morning Like twice. But that's more than my usual zero

Se7en, please sing for me a song of life Se7en, take me into your light There's no place here for me to hide my cries Night and day, I'm missing you, ooh

Art hiatus. Unknown how long. I'm unable to work on art without severe mental issues stemming from how poor it is. Not that anyone cared to begin with.

I'll stop crying for help, noone's answering. I'll post again when I have something to actually post. Which will be a while.

340 posts on here and not a single of one them truly mattered.

I honestly just feel awful.

Oh yeah forgot to mention on here. My mom's in the hospital - has been for nearly 2 weeks, if not over 2 weeks, unsure. So yeah, I'm a bit stressed out and also further depressed due to it. Not finding enjoyment out of things I used to, low energy and motivation, feeling incredibly tired, etc.

Se7en performing the Akira motorcycle slide, but on a weird, nondescript hoverbike thing. I felt weirdly inspired to make this, and did so in around an hour, hence the low-effort linework.

Usually, the less people know of me, the better image they have of me. I'm sorry for evoking you in the universe, but I had a friend a long time ago who said I was the 'nicest person they'd ever met online', but as time went on, due to my own issues largely, it degraded. I don't consider them an -

I always wonder what would happen if I ever did open commissions. There's the side of me that's horrified of the possibility that I'd never be able to work on anything I personally want to again, but also the reasonably horrified side that knows I'd get no commissions and would tank my emotions.

I probably shouldn't have hashtagged it with voreday. I'm 3 damn days late. Plus I get too caught up in the fact I'm just sort of a background element. Oh, depressable me.

CW; Vore, Belly A few days late, but here's the piece I did for Vore Day, 8/8, for @sirpembertonsc.bsky.social of his ever-hungry Swampert, Pem. I tried a new shading technique and it paid off! We both agree it looks really nice. A transparent version is on my FA. #vore #voreday #swampert #belly

At the very least I can lie and then not speak with the person who asked if I am asked if I'm doing okay. I can just say I'm fine and then not elaborate. Not speak further. They won't be hurt. My objective is to not hurt people. That's all I need to do. That's primary objective number 1. Success.

If anyone who follows me or happens to come across my posts regardless is ever wondering "id this person okay?" The answer is no. I don't think I am able to be "okay" in any sense, just controllably inoffensive. I'm the kind of person to be so violently upset at a given moment to punch fridges.

If I ever properly disappear, it's because I was forcefully taken from my home to a mental facility without due process as that's legal now, or I've forcefully taken myself off of the leaderboard. To the two people who'll see this, hi, I guess.

sleep was meant yo be my escape from the reality of my depression, and now it is a cause of it I wake up feeling sore, tired, and weak, both physically and mentally

it keeps happening, three times now total. i'm scared

vivid lucid nightmares

Hiatus on all artworks and posting. Interpersonal issues. Severe. Avoid contact. Return uncertain.

This is going to take a while to come to fruition. Sorry for the delay on it.

~Tasque Manager Hips Animation~ That Tasque Manager itch came back so gotta try something with her. Try to do this animation in a day, only 4 frames but it looks nice :D Enjoy them hips >w>)b

April's anim! Ran late on releasing this, but check out May's anim down below!

I've decided that I'm aromantic. There's one person I would be in a relationship with, but we'll never be together. I want to list myself as aro, however, so that people don't attempt with me. I am not worth being in a relationship with. Period.

Big Big Wolf

[Vore,Digestion] Fwench Fwy musings, i'm definitely gonna draw them again soon god they're so fun

🎉Happy Pride Month!🏳️‍⚧️ So is the perfect chance for an HRT Growth Drive~ This money will cover 6 months of it. Allowing me to continue smoothly and without risk even if I'm having a rough time with money. RT's super appreciated!~<3 Donations: https://ko-fi.com/arizone #NSFW #Furry #Yiff #Expansion

Happy Pride Month! Gonna whip up something for myself at some point inbetween things. Be yourself, unless yourself is hateful and vindictive, then rightly gtfo of here and don't return until you can know how to behave like a semblance of a human being