Sorry never cuts it.

I just want the pain to end. Is that so wrong for me to want? Is it wrong for someone hurting to want it to stop? Please, I just want to get better, but I haven't gotten better, it never seems to get better. I just seem to keep getting worse. I feel worth nothing.

I'm a loser. I'm like a lolcow who was unknown, but was ENTIRELY self-conscious. I know what I am. I NEED TO KILL MYSELF. I AM NOT A PROPER PERSON.

GET LOST

I did good things for some people, sure. I also did a lot of bad things to people. Made enemies. Made days worse. Made arguments, made conversations uncomfortable. I don't want to have never existed. I want people to relish in my death. To finally have an excuse to say good riddance.

Could you please unfollow me, I have nothing of worth to add to your timeline (should I not already be muted.)

The only reason I'm still alive is because my parents can't afford my funeral

I'm sick of distracting myself with pointless games and videos, I'm sick of existing in the putrid mental state I am. My brain won't explode if I think too hard, so I have to eventually take matters into my own hands. Those who know me will suffer for my death, but I suffer from my life.

Seriously, I don't want to be alive anymore.

Soon

Why am I still alive

I just want the pain to end. Unfollow me unfollow me unfollow me

I'll never be this, never be that, so what's the point in trying.

I'm one of the most disappointing follows here. I barely make art, and mostly just mope about k1ll1ng mys3lf.

I just feel like I shouldn't exist

Sometimes you just know you make someone's life worse by existing

I think I might look into buying enough rope to hang something.

I'm taking an extended break from social platforms due to me being an awful piece of shit who ruins the mood of those he touches. I won't be back for months.

I've been thinking of smoking marijuana to numb the pain that is my cognizant existence. It'll stink up the house, though.

Today was one of the worst days I've had in memory, and I never even left my bed and slept through all of it. I had vivid, downright demonic dreams that told me such things that everybody hates me, and that I should just get it over with. Waking up from these, I felt no rest, and would sleep again.

[CW: vore] @sirpembertonsc.bsky.social enjoying himself some holiday joy, with some friends all wrapped up nicely in a round package! Seems he wants you to come closer to get in on the festivities! Merry Christmas and happy holidays! #vore #belly

✧*｡🎄(˙𐃷˙)𝐌𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐂𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐬だぬ！🎄✧*｡ #ヌオーとエブリディ

Festive Santa Fe tree display we set up this year!

A gift piece to Barn-Flakes on FA and DeviantArt! His Suicune gal Bubbles in festive attire! Merry Christmas! #suicune #christmas

There's no fucking point.

Spasming meaning not allowing me to sleep I am sufffering

I slept the entire day away. I'm such a failure

I have one goal today: at the very least finish the sketch on an art piece. I can't even bring myself to fucking open CSP because I'm depressed, and can't draw while depressed. It's making me depressed.

Old and not very good art of my two protogen siblings at christmas time. I don't like how it looks. Soulless, stiff, unimaginative.

Se7en eating a sandwich. The quintessential piece of Se7en I have is for some reason, of them eating a sandwich. I've always liked experimenting with how a protogen's mouth looks open. Also, the sandwich looks more like a burger.

I feel really bad for the people who follow me, because the majority of them are either just here for protogens or my weird art, with barely any inbetween. Yet all I ever do is sulk and say depressing shit

?

Am I allowed to say depressing shit on here or will people think I'm going to game end myself

Juno helps Maxx fix his order (no pickles)

CW; Vore, stuffing, size difference *urrp* "Keep 'em comin', I'm nowhere near full~! Get me a few more of your tastiest proots too~!" Happy Birthday to the wonderful @sirpembertonsc.bsky.social! Hope all the cake (and protos) can make it an even more special day! Love ya man!💙💜

CW; Vore, stuffing, size difference *urrp* "Keep 'em comin', I'm nowhere near full~! Get me a few more of your tastiest proots too~!" Happy Birthday to the wonderful @sirpembertonsc.bsky.social! Hope all the cake (and protos) can make it an even more special day! Love ya man!💙💜

I'm sorry, like I always am, at how dramatic my depressive episodes can be. This last one was one of the worst I've seen in a long time. I can't predict them at all, making it all the more destructive to those who know me. The only thing I can do, since my improvement is slow, is to apologize.

What good worth is someone who is just too depressed to do anything and then gets scared and cries

Kill me

There is no looking on "the bright side" with me, because my bright side is that I'm physically alive due to leeching off my parents

My life is meaningless

Was asleep with horrid dreams that felt that they took forever and I felt I'd never escape from, and even after such, I am still oh-so tired. I think I might just indulge in some more.

Can I just have a freak heart attack in the middle of the night and die thanks that would be very nice

Wanna hear a joke?? My life! Oh wait that's right, jokes are meant to be funny! My life is just sad! To experience and to look at! Whoops! Oopsies! HaHAAA!!!

I am nothing