i should post my animations here more often #animation #horror

I hate that when it gets quiet for me that’s when I start doubting everything again

I can’t sleep. I been trying since midnight and it’s almost 6am 🫩 keep falling asleep and waking up. Too tired to fully wake up and too awake to go back to sleep.

My family nearly made me bawl my eyes out with how much love they show me. I’ll never be able to repay that kindness and I never take it for granted. I love them so much

Got my body worked on by my chiropractor and oh my god I feel so much better 😩

Finally got almost enough sleeves for my entire mtg collection. I need a few more for basic lands and then I’ll just have to slowly add as time goes on. Real happy with the progress

I will get better. I will return to my normal life. I will be strong again. I will return to my job. I will return to streaming. It just takes time and I can’t get impatient.

My space is always lgbtqia+ friendly. This is non negotiable. I’ll rage against everything to protect people’s right to exist.

It’s one of those rare mornings where I feel like I can get up and do something with myself. It’s nice to have these days every once in a while. I’ll keep trying for everyone around me, I don’t like making y’all worry.

Me: hm I wonder why I’ve been so dehydrated recently… Also me: not drinking water for the first time in the day until 5:30pm Oops.

Done with therapy for the day. Was nice to tackle things that’ve bothered me for years. Hoping some of it actually gets solved.

Showered up and ready for therapy, taking it one step at a time today

TFW you roll around in bed for 2 hours and can’t sleep 😶 one of those nights I guess

Got most of my barons war list done now, 750pts down and now 250 more to go. Excited to get this project done for now. I’ll take better photos later in my lightbox. It’s nice getting something done despite everything I’ve been feeling. It’s a nice to accomplish things #baronswar #miniaturepainting

Got most of my barons war list done now, 750pts down and now 250 more to go. Excited to get this project done for now. I’ll take better photos later in my lightbox. It’s nice getting something done despite everything I’ve been feeling. It’s a nice to accomplish things #baronswar #miniaturepainting

Got hit with a well of emotions, I haven't been this debilitated by emotions before and this sucks. I'm doing what I can to get better though

The owner of my local comic store checked in on me when I came in. Had a long conversation about getting help and self care and it was so insanely nice. I’m surrounded by so many nice people, sometimes I feel like I’m not grateful enough. Thank you all and I love you guys

Good morning everyone, hope y’all have an easy day today. I’ve been watching some anime again since I haven’t been able to do much productive stuff recently. It’s been real nice

Yesterday I spent the day with a childhood friend for his birthday. It was healing for me tbh. Walked around my childhood city, then went to a card shop and played a lot of magic. It really did refresh my mood and for once I didn’t reset to sadness. I’ll make it out of this.

Just did my second session of therapy. Lots of new information and things confirmed. It’s more than I’ve dealt with than before but I’m taking steps to better myself.

I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet this last weekend. Had people seeking me out to keep me happy and distracted. It’s taken so much energy for me to not cancel fun things last minute. I’m not sure why but I’m filled with dread every time

Maybe I’ll do an earlier stream on Thursday just to spend some time with y’all, open up some Yugioh packs or something. This is all a hypothetical because it requires everything to arrive on time.

Trying to not only eat fast food/instant food but man. Getting that energy to cook for myself right now is really hard.

Okay I lied NOW I’m up.

Stayed up late last night but spent most of yesterday with my franken family. They kept holding onto me and making sure I was okay the entire time, and it felt really nice to be with them.

Holy shit my supervisor called me and checked in on me. She was worried about me and wanted to make sure I was getting the support I needed. Even took care of some paperwork for me. All the kindness I receive is so heartwarming, even in the state I’m currently in

Posting this as just a sneak peek but yeah. Gonna keep it simple but gonna try and draw every person I feel comfortable calling friend. Debating doing another one with inspiration vtubers. But this image along already has 35+ characters hahaha. Channeling my grumpiness into kindness

I woke up at 8:40, fell asleep, and woke up at 12. Hm.

Tried waking up at 8 today, immediately fell back asleep and it’s almost noon now 😶

I haven’t picked up a paintbrush in about a month and a half. I need to change that in this coming month, get some progress done!

I’m treat maxxing today. Donuts and coffee in the morning, curry chicken katsu in the afternoon and steak in the evening!

Went shopping for groceries for the first time in weeks. Felt good to take care of myself.

Guess who forgot to turn on an alarm and slept in till 11? This duuuude 😶

Took through Thursday off. Dunno man I just need to be away from work and take care of myself.

Barely got any sleep last night and my head is killing me. I hate using leave right as I get it but I need my rest

A before and after of the 30 gallon when I cleaned it today. Wish I took the photo before removing all the duckweed, the tank was dark and almost moody before I removed most of it! #aquarium #fishkeeping

Had an amazing day yesterday and got some new cards, a new way to store my mtg collection and a ton more fond memories. Loved yesterday even if I’m exhausted haha

FORGOT THE THUMBNAIL AGAIN!! Tonight at 6:00PM PST me and @elladritch.bsky.social are dropping feet first into hell with Halo 3: ODST! Come listen to some sweet saxophone with us while we fight our way through New Mombasa! Links in replies!

Still not 100% but I’m climbing. Gonna reach that height I was at months ago. Not for anything but myself. For my own mental and wellbeing I will feel better about myself.

Got my tooth fixed finally

Alright I’m feeling a lot better. Thank you all for reaching out, for all the love and care I’ve been given even if I didn’t ask. I’ll be stronger, I have to be. I love you all and hope you have an excellent day today, ready to be more social again

I’m still brooding but I’ll shut up about it till it goes away so I don’t flood the tl with my stupid shit. Sorry for the radio silence.

I’m sorry I’ve been unresponsive and sad today. Im mad at myself but I’m at a helpless state with my mental health. I’m sorry I’m posting about it too but I just do not have the mental or emotional energy to talk individually about it. Again I’m sorry.

I don’t normally post shit like this but I just gotta scream this into the void. This isn’t a cry for help, and I’m sorry I’m venting publicly but I just need to get it out. Love y’all. I promise I’m okay. I’m just frustrated with myself.

Whelp a chunk of veneer chipped off one of my front teeth. Rip.

I’ve been very absent recently and I apologize for that. I promise I’ve been doing okay! Just been lower energy recently and have been getting other things done!

No thumbnail but today at 6pm PST we’ll be playing Halo 2 with @ElladritchVT today! See y’all on High Charity nerds! Links in replies! #ENVtuber #VtuberUprising #Halo

Love waking outside and just hearing a chorus of coyotes yelping about 50ft away from the building I work in 😶 the fact it’s happened numerous times this morning is what’s kinda worrying me haha.

I’ve been in such a mind fog recently and I’m not sure what to do about it. It frustrates the hell out of me not even knowing what’s causing it.

I think for a while I’m gonna stream at my pace. Just when it feels right. We’re gonna continue Fridays for Halo but other than that I’m gonna take my time.