yet it still continues without letting go

I wanted to do art in this but I wont

Compartmentalized

i love my rabbit bro!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I think I should leave, like it would be better for me and for everyone. But I never do.

Nature is one of the things I feel utmost connection too, yet I do nothing to stay in it, maybe i am afraid I'll lose connection to it as the yearning for its presence disappears, and it will become a thing I blankly stare into like a empty canvas

Sorry for anyone who's followed this thinking its gonna be art or anything. It gives me some level of permanence when I complain, cause then I am atleast thinking, and not constantly empty. I used to listen to stuff to drown out my head with thoughts, now I do it to fill my head with anything.

I feel often like I am tricking people with my art, with my introspection, that I am even a person. I feel guilt for waisting peoples time. I bait people with flirting, my art, and seeming deep with questions. I listen to people but I can't actually say anything in return.

I often hate my artwork cause I can see what it isnt. In many causes it feels like the only thing I can share, its the only thing that gives me permanence. But theres nothing deeper to it anymore besides shallow desires now. I only revel on the surface, no deeper.

Sometimes I feel like I have a brain tumour or degenerative brain disorder cause I used to have ideas as a kid. I used to have so many ideas I'd get tired from them, I literally couldn't write them down fast enough. Nowadays my head is empty, I only think about what I lack.

Mental ill rating off the charts lol this downswing is killing me lol

I miss her

Fumble

Crumble

Brains at that point again, but now i dont even have distractions or problems, procrastinations in relation. No excuses for my misery i am in except for the obvious.

Lonely~Wanting to be alone Both Both A flow An ocean

How to stop

Multitudes

Nothing interesting to say

Bark Bark! Relaxing while watching the moon tonight was perfect ngl

🟥 Its @groundupflowers.bsky.social on the right

Scars

Seems like in trying to work through my feelings, i think i just buried them again, taking my creativity and motivation with it. I really dont know how to really process feelings i am finding out, its either bury them, or shout them. I want to know how to work with love not hide it to protect myself

WHOS TO SAY I AM NOT EXPRESSING MY LOVE

maybe i just need to tell myself that emotionally, I am underdeveloped, years of hiding from everyone and with my feelings has made me shut in, and now with opening those doors I become easily enthralled by fantasies, that probably dont even reflect reality