Maybe I can be more like the person I was emotionally, ten years ago. I don't like the idea that I've changed and that this change is irreparable. I don't like the morose, misanthropic and miserable person I am more often than not. I don't like this feeling that my illness has affected my behaviour.

Some photos of @bluejaywolf.bsky.social in their other suit Giffy

I told Rilla she was a cheap date because she would just eat the date. ... I don't think she's going to date me now (but that's probably best for my sake) My favourite dancing shork @rillarequiem.bsky.social

Got tired of the beat up alloys on my Accord EX leaking air so I just replaced them with steelies. Almost makes me wish I had a lower trim that just came with them. Now I need some 16" wheel covers. Anyone got a set?

Maybe everyone else isn't moving too fast. Maybe I'm just moving too slowly.

Today is the day in 2019 when I did my longest bike ride so far, 86.6 miles, to a cafe in Waconia called Mocha Monkey, and back home. It was super cute, and primate themed, which I totally dig. It is also the day in 2017 when I got my current bike, a Marin hybrid. I need to beat 86.6 miles...

Since summer is over, here's four of my favourite photos taken during the season. Look, no squirrels!

It's squirrel season!

Miata photo from yesterday, and two sky photos from today's bike ride.

Me: lacking motivation to do anything today, manage to get out on my bike to deliver something to a friend and then try editing (9) photos at Mojo. Also me: ends up biking 34 miles because I'd feel like a loser if I don't bike more than I did last weekend. At least I got sushi.

I also did some edits of @sharkbuttsushi.bsky.social dancing in Hallow the Possum (who I thought was a lemur upon first meeting them but they're still awesome). Admittedly I am lemur brained. The number of suits I think are lemurs and are not outnumber the actual lemur suits I encounter.

Some more edits of @goldkoicreations.bsky.social I'm having a slow day, it took me two hours to edit four photos.

Photos from tonight's furmeet at the OG Caribou Coffee, taken with the camera I used during those original meets, my 2005 Casio Exilim EX-Z750.

Same Caribou Coffee, same camera, 18 years and 5 months apart.

Finally getting around to editing some photos of the fishcat @goldkoicreations.bsky.social

Today is all about nostalgia as I'm back at the original Caribou Coffee I started a secondary furmeet at back in 2007 and continued right up to covid. Of course I had to bring all the tech toys I had back then (and still do).

I brought my 1979 Olympus XA 35mm camera on the cross country RV trip I took five years ago with friends and I still love the aesthetic of the photos even if they're not "good". They're unique, and different, and already dated. I think I was using expired film at the time but it's what I had.

So everything I had planned to do tonight because I cancelled last week has fallen apart and if I'd done it all last week it would have worked out, but random circumstance completely fucked it up today. I cancelled because I was tired. I'm still tired today but I felt bad for canceling. Oh well.

I've been struggling a lot with my body self image, getting sick and losing thirty pounds I didn't have to lose. It's been about 17 months since I recovered enough to start biking again and I'm getting more comfortable with how I look. On the right is January 2024 when I was in my worst shape.

My coworker randomly has this curiously shaped packaging foam at her desk so of course I had to send a photo to @waveyjaguar.bsky.social

@waveyjaguar.bsky.social at the FM Dance Competition busting a move (or a ligament)

Some edits I finished today of the FM Friday fursuit walk. I'm now done up to the Floor Wars event Friday evening. That's a milestone. 336 photos! flic.kr/s/aHBqjCu6tV

I should be able to make it to this!

Some edits from tonight

For everyone who tells me to use FurTrack, I try, and it is a constant struggle and frustration. It won't let me tag uploads, and I have to go back and tag them manually. I've updated my browser, I'm using the latest, and it still fucks up most of the time to where I am refusing to use it. Sorry.

Icebreaker at work was like "if you won 10 million what would you do" and I'm the only person who said "quit"

Squirrel bluejay gryphon when

Saw this on my way to get dinner

Most of the photos I edited today were of this husky, Koda, I met the day before Furry Migration. She belongs to @roguemangoes.bsky.social and @lycaderg.bsky.social

Some more images of @pinthesergal.bsky.social and part time serg @thatlilserg.bsky.social as her fennec Juniper

And one of @pinthesergal.bsky.social I rather like, when we first met on Friday

Some photos featuring one of my favourite suits, @calyxcabbit.bsky.social and various other friends

I started putting photos on Flickr and FurTrack finally, since it's been a week I figure I should put what I have, which is 150 photos give or take. flic.kr/s/aHBqjCu6tV

I was looking through photos from the Furry Migration informal fursuit walk I went on Friday and they abruptly stopped and there's a big gap. I was panicked trying to figure out what happened to them when I remembered I used my other camera to chase this black squirrel for fifteen minutes.

Why do I like the way I look after biking 15 miles more than when I'm not a hot mess?

This morning I happened to look out the window to see two squirrels roughhousing on the roof of the garage next door and I was both elated and disappointed I couldn't get a photo of them.

Few more today

I'm so exhausted today from nothing I'm having my second iced coffee just to try and edit some more photos.

Here we have @cattledoq.bsky.social & @losermarz.bsky.social , @rillarequiem.bsky.social , A suit by Iron Cat Creations (who is a dragon, not a kangaroo) and @arkbark.bsky.social

A couple more of @goldkoicreations.bsky.social and of @zeusidiot.bsky.social because they were still in my queue. I don't know how much I'll edit today, the mood is very fleeting. If I push myself to do it when I'm not feeling it, I don't think they'll be as good and I'll just end up redoing them.

Kpop Demon Hunters was a great movie.

Decided to finish the night with some photos of @goldkoicreations.bsky.social

Lethargic but still managed to get some photos of @zeusidiot.bsky.social who is one of my favourite suits. I just love this sassy weasel. XD

All that's left of the squirrel today is one little clawed foot

I think if I knew I could get the kind of access to do dance comp photography I have at FM, with a similar level of AV setup, I'd be far more inclined to look into doing another con again. I don't want to staff though. I just want to photograph the dance competitions and that's all.

@thetwistedpuppy.bsky.social (i spent way too much time on the first photo)

Some of @bluejaywolf.bsky.social

Here's some photos of @cattledoq.bsky.social

It's funny to me how many times I'll post photos and get compliments on how amazing they look (appreciated!) but then realize I had accidentally left the orange saturation slider at 100% unintentionally or copied a rogue radial filter in the wrong place but nobody else notices except me. =)

Some edits today and they're all of @darklysynister.bsky.social