"Blood Censorship" A3 illustration of me bleeding like a good little gore whore

Bloody censorship🩸

New bottom surgery just dropped, & now I got cum on my gloves.

"Boy Toy" A3 Illustration. I have always liked marble sculptures for their ability to show carved impressions of pressure, such as hands grasping flesh. I have tried to capture this here with my linework; I claim this body in the lines I am drawn to.

See you there 💕

"Pulling Teeth" A4 illustration using my teeth X-rays after I split a molar eating a Strawberry Pencil. The gap is so satisfying to tongue.

"Fags & Sore Butts" A3 illustration inspired by hot wax seals, rosebuds & that time daddy @alephlondon.bsky.social stubbed fags out on my arm.

"Depersonalised" A4 self-portrait illustration. Some days, my face feels like a mask I have little attachment to, outside of the eyeshadow I apply to my eyelids, or the needles I drive into my cheeks. I claim my face in the expressions I pull & the dye I smooth into my hair.

Did one self stab face needle then got scared with how close it was to my eye. Enough risk for tonight lol. Next time, I shall attempt to angle the needle tips away from my eyes 😅 Face needle stabbers, any other pointers?

Currently omw to BFM, to fist some pretty boys ✨

I told my mom I'm gay, why the fuck she ain't listen?

Choke me like you want me 🖤 @allthedeadboys.bsky.social

Letting it grow out x

Funnily enough, Same! I have had a huge needle phobia since I was a very young child. Getting over it was triggered by me needing blood work done for HRT. Then every month I would go to my blood play community, & put needles into people, 1 at first, then 10, then 20 etc. first time I passed out Lol

A cascade of shimmering colour, look at what a pretty mermaid I caught in my fishing line.

A very wet & very hard t-dick

• Learning to set boundaries has been extremely difficult as a result of not being allowed to have any boundaries as a child. • Being able to abide by other people's boundaries when we didn't know we were a system was extremely difficult then too. • Now we have to set Internal boundaries too

Welp, my dissociative seizures have started again, which is great, I was missing solo electro-play. Who needs violet wands anywho

Not pretty or perfect, needles get me hard though 🖤🩸

Repost if you love Jacking off to Mortal Kombat Kill Shots 🖤🩸

Lunged forward over my girlfriend and my cig scabbed & dressed arm caught her arm, ripped the padding off with the scab showing a little love heart crater. Equally Awwww & Aaaaa 🖤🥹 payback beatings acquired

Beaten red & tortured my girlfriend with a long needle weaved through her inner thigh. The results are so pretty 🖤

They will be. As a DID system we weren't too aware of why we had mental blocks on certain things around money. Now that Jas/Vincent has fused to make Viktor, we are going to aim to process those memories as it has been causing us to have Flashbacks (That we now can fully experience) & Fear.

Fave shots from tonight's solo needle CBT scene 🖤🩸 #bloodplay #needleplay #cbt

James: Jas/Vincent Fusion is complete! So, reintroductions are necessary. Viktor: Hey. Some facts- I am an age slider between a moody reactive teen (when triggered) and your average 19 year old, I shift depending on PTSD triggers (That I can remember now). I hold anger and sadness (Fight/Freeze)

System PSA: Recently found out about the app Simply Plural, and genuinely- Life saver. I have been trying to think extremely hard. I kept losing notepads and forgetting about our notes app. It's wild that people don't teach you about accessibility tools when you get diagnosed with DID.

Happy System Pride Day to all you beautiful folk 🖤

Was amazing 🖤 Thanks daddy for trusting me enough to use your dick as my pincushion ☺️

No! I have a very rare genetic condition called Nail Patella Syndrome. When it comes to my finger nails, this condition is characterised by having no finger nails on the thumb & index fingers, brittle nails that break and bend after a while, & the nails naturally grow in a sharp claw formation

Two days ago I participated in cigarette burns. Having a pup that really loves burns, I decided to sacrifice my arm for learning how it's done properly. Hurt so good 🔥🖤

Bruising update 🖤❤️‍🩹

Entering my bottoming for heavy impact era 🖤 Better than a deep tissue massage x

Pew pew

The count of 3~

Don't leave a sadomasochist bored or he will stab his cock off

New spiky torture tool acquired!

Today's art from the part that has been dormant for a long time-

Who’s next?

I crave violence. Recent needle play with needle slut

Had a theory that the reason we gave up porn without the main fronter BDSM system knowing was because we had hidden parts with early childhood unprocessed trauma around these sorts of things. Being a kinky exhibitionist is hard when you are in a DID system.

Crossed needles in the head of my t-dick

A happy in-between

Today's artwork bruising colour palette is brought to you by Claude Monet & the dreamy haze of subspace in bloom 🖤 "In Bloom" A3 Illustration of the aftermath of a heavy impact scene. Extremely fun & definitely broke a sweat beating daddy

Previously dormant alter piloting the body through work today at the creative occupational therapist job they always dreamt of working, is a surreal experience.

"Lamenting On Fears of Madness" A4 self-portrait illustration capturing today's vibe

Think my Elvanse dose is a bit too high- My hyperactive DID alters want to do more CBT needles, fuck, fist, tattoo, wank, peirce, travel, preform, post nudes. It seems my body is a slave to a machine run on pain, art & fucking- & I'm not complaining.

Waiting around for the window of time to finish after having an antibiotic injection in the ass cheek, till I can start fucking again. It's so close... Horny jail is rough, but not as rough as not getting STD tested x

"I Regret Nothing." A3 Illustration from a blood & death play scene I did as a radical declaration of my comfort in the body I have & will leave behind post-transition.

Steven: the Trump inauguration is genuinely making me stressed. I wish I could lose my fists at the bottom of a hole