Sorry for inactivity, I just need some rest 🥲🙏

Another pic of #Phainon #hsr #cosplay made by me Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

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The only thing that calms me down at the moment is the fact of having genetically masculine(?) body type. That's all I guess :/

TW eating disorders/trans dysphoria It's kinda like a torture to feel myself caged in my own body. Because it's too defective?? Wrong?? Idk Living with and eating disorder and being trans at the same time is shit because you hate yourself x2 I wanna lose weight and finally do the top surgery...

Another pic with the doctor #Dottore #cosplay #GenshinImpact Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

Totally forgot to post it but here's my Rerir wig upgrade I did this week :P Before/After

Con stuff :3 #cosplay

Modern!AU #Rerir #GenshinImpact #cosplay Waiting for my full costume of this guy haha

#phainon #hsr #cosplay Photo by @samessy.bsky.social Cosplay made by me

#Anaxa #hsr #HonkaiStarRail #cosplay by me Photo by Gerdä!23

Latest irl stuff

I'm so sorry for publicly posting all these thoughts below but I can't hold it anymore

Of course my cosplay skills have grown up for latest years BUT IT IS NOT ABOUT FUN ANYMORE. It is about competing with others, criticizing myself as hell and trying to be better and better AND BETTER endlessly.

I HATE the tendency of turning cosplay into a modeling business. We're doing this for fun and positive emotions, not for suffering, self-hate and competing each other.

I never was a mentally healthy and stable person beyond the "pretty picture". I'm totally broken and torn apart for YEARS because of all the shit people did to me for so long.

I still hate everything I do despite everything. I still can't look at the mirror and accept my appearance despite everything. I still can't stabilize my mental health despite everything. It hurts so much. I'm still empty as hell.

#Aventurine x VOGUE #hsr #cosplay by me, photo by Gerdä!23

Finished pic of my genshin sona Dantalion #oc #genshinOC #art #ocsky #genshinimpact

#Dottore #GenshinImpact #cosplay by me Photo by @samessy.bsky.social

Watching stars #oc #ocsky #art #originalcharacter

Blade!! But a little bit horny~ #Blade #hsr #cosplay

Small reminder of my main cosplay source! t.me/voidvamp_cos

#Phainon #hsr #HonkaiStarRail #cosplay by me Photo by @samessy.bsky.social

#oc #ocsky #art Redraw of a pic from 2019

Vacation ❄️

#Dottore #GenshinImpact #Cosplay by me, photo by @samessy.bsky.social

Snow Vampire

#Phainon #HSR #HonkaiStarRail #cosplay by me Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

I'm on my vacation in Georgia now!!

vampire romance #oc #art #ocsky

Sorry for inactivity but I'm back here! #Dottore #GenshinImpact #cosplay by me Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

Latest stuff

Vampires WIP #OC #OCsky #art

#Dottore #GenshinImpact #cosplay be me Photo by RIZ @samessy.bsky.social

Genshin fan OC wip redraw (2023 original in comments) #oc #ocsky #genshinimpact #art

Work in progress #ocsky #oc #art

#SundayHSR #Sunday #HSR #cosplay by me Ph📷 by Gerdä!23 @gerda23.bsky.social

#ocsky #oc #art

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#artvsartist2025 #artvsartist

#Phainon #HSR #Cosplay Ph📷: RIZ @samessy.bsky.social Cosplay and edit: me

New makeup ✨️

Random

#Dottore #cosplay #GenshinImpact he's finally here!!👀

Test makeup

#Phainon #HSR #cosplay by me Photo by @samessy.bsky.social RIZ

#Dottore #art #GenshinImpact

Work in progress Back to drawing haha #dottore