sometimes i reread the thread where yhah'a got pegged in public and it keeps me goin

shoutout deedee megadoodoo in my fc

if any porn has moderately realistic proportions and is decently expressive i'm in

im. gonna just clip my fan to my bed frame and go to sleep

bruh i thought this trading company i signed yhah'a up for based on the carrd and what an rp friend told me was about wares/business. what do you mean you want my blind character to work behind the bar tn. fucking god damn it lmao NO

my best friend in my FC is probably gonna leave.. looks like i could transfer yhah'a to mateus if that happens, cuz that was one of my concerns. but that feels risky cuz i don't feel like i've been having a lot of success with RP for how long i've been working at it. i can't tell if i'm being

sigh. i wonder how long it takes to be better at this.

still bummed my ship for yhah'a got sunk but i'm being renewed and revived with apathy

testing out a gift from a friend. #nsfwgpose | #miqo'te

when yoship finally nukes every plugin bc this community cant be so incredibly fucking stupid i will remain toiling in the RP mines with my vanilla ass cat

i am Frying rn, i cheekily and sarcastically called out an AI art post its author and braindead sycophants are responding to it with genuine positivity. AI sloppers love being illiterate and tone deaf

just saw someone refer to a digital piece of artwork that was human/hand made as "traditional art" AI is fucking up even definitive genres of artwork im fkdjsfajs

yhah'a nelhah, topper of older men and menphina's favorite ashtray

guess who stupidly fell asleep. yhah'a needs new connections and i failed my childddddd

whatever why bother with anything anyway

my FUCKING internet

i can't decide if yhah'a handles heartbreak by his bed dying or by going on an insane sexual rampage/bender while variably intoxicated as fuck in a myriad of ways

i almost want to do like... a trial run of this gpose and then redo it. kind of like a sketch? lately i don't like my gposes after i spend a lot of time on the staging, to where when i look back at the screencap, i'm like i probably should have just restaged and tried again?

(decorates an entire apartment just for a gpose) (procrastinates the gpose) why am i LIKE THIS!!

i cant find my stylus and it shows (max draw before wrist hurt)

might have overbooked RP for today Q_Q;;;

my male au ra cleans up comms compared to Yhah'a lol...

uh oh... heartache ahead for yhah'a confirmed

am i crazy or did they get rid of the courtesan NPC in kugane.... it was just a dialogue NPC but i remember being surprised by him lmfao i wonder if they patched him out or somethin

you know, i find it really interesting that the statue of the dusk mother in the azim steppe appears so androgynous when her children are so split by insane sexual dimorphism. there's probably something present there that's influential in the way au ra treat gender culturally

it troubles me my images look so much better on my gaming monitor than my 2nd monitor..... who is tellin the truth here. which screen should i edit on

>make plans to do poses and grind alts >fall asleep for 3h instead

gurl what am I supposed to do with this (stranger, for context)

hate when your hobbies bum you out lol

damn it... hate when I do a pose of a concept I like more AFTER showing the first attempt lol. here you go anyway #miqote | #ffxivnsfw | #gposensfw / #nsfwgpose

male au ra do remind me of crash bandicoot, but they also remind me of sonic boom knuckles

chronic misbehaver......... :pensive: #nsfwgpose / #gposensfw #miqote #xivnsfw

my brain a bitch

...havin alts with different body mod specifics is annoying... not everyone has yhah'a's scar, everyone's hung a bit different, nak isn't slim... probably i'll only tweak it for gpose or something but (complain noise)

yhah'a drawing from several months ago. RIP my stylus wherever the fuck it went

im sorry i named your retainer after your nameless ex, nakhu

sometimes the limitations of customization is bc game design has qualifications for a reason,,,,,,, sorry, The Kardashians

am i fucked up for finding some of the killer bod stuff kinda fetishistic in the way its implemented...? am i projecting?

feeling a bit of ennui + frustrated cuz an order i made got stolen, but i got some good writin done i owed to a friend for too long, and now i'm finally finishing up yhah'a's carrd... i've long neglected his hooks, but i'm feeling a more solid direction and connection to him as a character of late..

i guess i should use hashtags when i post stuff (fear of being perceived but wanting to yap about dolls intensifies)

the scholar yhah'a mutually fell in love with ~6y ago, but they've lost contact and yhah'a is still limerent for him. their feelings were never sorted out/actualized, and they both carry a lot of remorse for it.

having a bout where i feel extra normal about these two

anyway all of that is to justify the eventual absurd amounts of NSFW i'm gonna be posting of him.

i guess i should talk about my character a little bit. so general about: yhah'a is a 29yo bisexual verse guy who lives in the shroud. he's blind and extremely devout to menphina, and runs an apothecary and spa. he's a masseur, botanist and alchemist (sorta). he makes teas, lotions, oils, and drugs.

i finally gave my character the scar on his side, which means all of his prior nude gposes feel inaccurate. alas!!!

writing a somewhat emotional and introspective RP scene and algo serves me fuckin BUCK-TICK? i haven't thought of this band in 2095035 years. is youtube sniffing my DNA or something?

of course now that i finally got the email verification to stop shitting i forget what i originally wanted to post about, though.

idk how/when to start posting so i'm just gonna. start posting