they don’t know why i know this spot

i need to sleep so much i’m so sleep deprived that my face hurts

another night of this ugly pig snoring like a wild boar and she had the fucking audacity to complain at me because the bed creaked too loud as i was getting in

a woman in this hostel room has been snoring like a fucking pig all night i literally only slept 1 hour and have been awake the rest of the night

a long time ago i met someone for the first time and they told me that neon genesis evangelion was good, but hard to understand. i have now finished it. it was not hard to understand at all, and if i’d watched this before i would have realised this person was stupid sooner than i did

i’ve been so turned off by food lately i can’t even bring myself to eat for the last few days but lowkey that’s a good thing with my recent weight gain

kind of annoying that because i’m goth people always assume im into bats. my favourite animals are crows. my friends describe me as a “crow that turned human” and they still give me stuff with bat motifs ENOUGH

have not been very active because i had an exam yesterday and im traveling soon for 2 weeks but i’ll see y’all soon

i live in a constant dissonance of not giving a fuck and being extremely anxious at the same time

i hate all my friends i hate this place i hate this life i think i’m gonna die in this house

i’m never travelling with someone else unless they either let me decide and handle everything or they take care of everything and i just show up

tried to buy a museum ticket and they almost charged 6000€ out of my account

i hate myself so much i’m such an awful stupid fucking bitch

i will be a nice and kind friend and a good person that does not become angry even tho my friends are very irritating 🫩

i want someone to know me and absolve me so i can be a person again

i know my mental health is on the decline when i start thinking maybe catholicism will be good for me

is it so wrong to not want to be the best all the time and just enjoy life? i feel so guilty all the time for not trying harder and it’s such a useless feeling

my legs are so disgusting it’s borderline repulsive

i just remembered that this friend commented on my pants and i had to explain that they didn’t fit me before because they were too big but now they did, which already made me feel angry, and then they had the fucking audacity to joke about how i got “thiccer”

i’m soooo annoyed i’ve already vented to several people about the situation and i’m still inflamed #MyAngerIssues

MY WEIRD ASIAN FETISHIST WEEB EX FRIEND THAT WAS SECRETLY IN LOVE WITH ME AND THEN GHOSTED ME JUST LIKED MY PHOTOS AFTER MORE THAN A YEAR OF NOT INTERACTING WITH ME AT ALL 👹❌🙅

ALSO i love my new beret and i like wearing and my friends keep making jokes about it like we’re still high schoolers and i dared wear a hat to class, it’s so beneath our age at this point (i will keep wearing it because i like it)

i understand that a 3h30 long documentary is not something that’s easy for everyone to sit through but my friends were behaving like bratty children the entire time it was so annoying because i was actually enjoying it and trying to pay attention

im so hungry after this movie because i hadn’t had dinner yet so when my friend asked if i wanted to get drinks i asked if they knew a place with food and they suggested we go to a wine place that has hummus and lentil soup… why the fuck would i want lentil soup while my friend has 1 drink at 10pm

can’t stand going to eat with this friend anymore because they always pick expensive places and then barely eat anything and feel sooo full and satisfied because they’re “listening to what their body wants”, meanwhile i feel awful for getting more food

back on bsky let’s see if i like it better this time