i mean, it’s better than floundering around on your own like most people end up doing… there is no “support network” for most people, you’re on your fuckin’ own

i honestly think what scott needs is guy friends that can help him be a better guy, not necessarily validate his insecurity but be like “aww sucks she didn’t feel the same way man, been there so i feel for you. still, you gotta respect that, plenty more fish in the sea. let’s hit the weights!”

“that’s my friend scott, he loves me in a non-platonic way but that’s okay and he respects that i don’t feel that way about him” is that a thing?? or do those kinds of friendships typically just fall apart. i guess scott is going to be suffering no matter what, feel bad for both of them

if you have feelings for someone… even if you already know there’s no possible way things will turn out the way you want them to, you should still just tell them and get it off your chest already. you kinda have to, right? there’s going to be friction there even if you don’t, may as well be honest.

should you always try to communicate your issues, especially when you’re not sure there’s a way to do that, that isn’t going to hurt or upset that person? i kinda think so; i kinda think people should just be honest and say what they’re feeling even if it leads to arguments, not that i do that lol.

as for how he “grows up” and learns to move beyond this kind of thing, i don’t know. i’ve been that person since i was 11-years-old and nothing has really changed, you just learn to internalise things more and stop making them a problem for other people.

there’s usually “a girl” involved too, if you’re a young guy talking to a therapist there’s almost always “a girl” involved. what else do i need to say except i feel bad for her? she deserves better, shouldn’t have to deal with this crap, and so on. it’s not her fault he’s emotionally fucked up.

i guess that’s life. we go it alone, we suffer, we find no catharsis or anyone who truly wants to understand or take the time to listen to us, and develop unhealthy ways of coping with those feelings as a result. it’s a vicious cycle…

regardless, i am that person. i missed my friend last night, who i didn’t even realise had deleted me, and he’s the only person i would trust right now not to think less of me, but i guess i fucked it up somehow… i’ve never been someone you can be emotionally transparent with either, have i?

not only that, but believe it or not i don’t want my friends to know how much of a pathetic mess i am; it’s just not an association i’m looking for. hari is an emotional, pathetic guy who always needs me to support him and offer words of encouragement, i don’t want anyone to feel that way about me

talking about it doesn’t make you feel better, especially when you have an anxious mind that is always worrying about saying “the wrong thing“ and making people think less of you… at that point you just need a therapist who doesn’t know you, right?

i’m actually at a real low-point mentally right now, for unrelated reasons, and i’m painfully aware that no one wants to listen to me get into the specifics of that. they just don’t, and i’m not sure it’s fair to dump that kind of baggage on your friends anyway…

@spookwaves.bsky.social Just noticed you deleted me on Discord... you know, I totally get it if I'm a bad vibe or the shit I say just plain makes you feel bad, I apologize. But if there's something in particular that pushed you over the line or made you say "fuck this guy", can you please tell me?

Personally, I read a letter that's been addressed to me & I already have a loaded gun in my mouth. I assume it's the same when anyone reads anything from me LOL!

Two things I realise are 1. You shouldn't be too proud to initiate things with friends, if you're feeling lonely... do it! 2. Interacting through text is completely unnatural and it's no wonder it fucks everything up. You can write a thesis, but you can't connect that way

I enjoyed having a lively hangout & Monster Hunter session with my good friend G__ (very normal thing to say), in the words of Aubrey Drake Graham "I needed this"

It's an easy enough job for them and it keeps the lights on, but even for a Mario Golf game, they never end up trying anything too crazy cuz it's not worth the risk. Listen, it's golf, it has Mario in it... bring back Dweezil already you bastards!

I often joke about Camelot, used to make all these fan-favorite JRPGs on the Genesis, got to carry that on a little with Golden Sun on the GBA, now they're the Mario Golf production line and nothing else, I don't imagine its work they're especially proud of...

Yeah... you know what, I'd take they don't make Paper Mario games at all after Super, and then come back with a really good one 20 years later. I'd take that over "we make one of these each system to pad our our release quota & none of them are particularly good"

Maybe there's something to be said for your favorite series being "on ice" for several decades, makes it hit that much harder when they make their triumphant return. Maybe I'll get something like this for Ape Escape, Mega Man Legends and Paper Mario one day too...

I know I bitch about new games a lot but this is legitimately the most exciting thing I've seen since like, Ocelot in MGSV, the first RE2 Remake trailer... the point is games are still more than capable of making me feel something, it just happens every 5 years instead

HE’S PORTUGESE! A Portuguese Nazi?! They’re gonna gas you too Rodrigo

I feel sick thinking about what the internet has turned into, what people have turned into. Buncha fragile goddamn pussies, I tell you what.

Fuck’s sake… I was following this guy cuz he was the last person making RE1.5 mods, but this killed any interest I had in his work. What a waste.

I was about to say “yeah, same”

Now it’s like “here’s why I’m a pedophile and there’s actually nothing wrong with that” and “yeah I’m a neo-Nazi who thinks certain people should be killed, and?” and “If you aren’t putting metal rods in your legs to stretch your femur bones you’re NGMI” BLEAK!

“Mario 64 best game” “No, Mario Sunshine best game” “SHADDA FUGGUP, F*beeeep*”

Even if you were “le edgy 4channer” by 2011 standards, the Overton window has shifted so much since then and kids are on a whole other level of post-ironic bullshit, it honestly scares me to think about 🙀 I miss the days we just called each other f-slurs for having different opinions

I want them to die cuz I know they’re lying, cuz I know they BENEFIT from spreading fear and division. They’re worse than scum and they’ll never admit it, it’s how they make their $$$ and they’re ideologically captured by an audience that’s neck-deep in the Kool-Aid… yeah. Crazy world.

Can’t say I haven’t seen things that took a toll on me either, and I’ve been to some bad places mentally… I’d love to talk about it, but I’m afraid people would judge me for it, and I’m trying to make up for the wasted time and “faith” I had in certain people I now wish would fuckin’ die…

I don’t exactly regret the time I spent there, or watching channels like hehu42, Isvaffel, etc… I feel a little “savvy” in a way I feel like people who have only been on Reddit aren’t necessarily, it’s good to be well-rounded and it takes a lot to shock me these days, maybe that’s not a good thing

I remember the posts on /v/ when the RE2 remake was coming out, if you dared to be a voice of positivity people would be like “stop ruining everything I love“, I just thought they were delusional for expecting REmake 2, obviously it’s going to be taking cues from RE7… it’s fuckin’ 2019…

A lot of my posts are assuming people are being their good selves and aren’t hiding behind a veneer of anonymity, I didn’t really account for the shit-disturbers… but they’re all like 15 anyway, right…? Kids are dumb, they’ll grow out of it

I understand that there’s a certain kind of person who will make it their mission to get under your skin and piss you off, it’s always been as simple as “ignore the troll”, but people always take the bait… I’ve done a little trolling myself and crapped on games I actually liked, just cuz I could lol

Back on the topic of negativity… I spent enough time on 4chan as a teenager to know there’s a certain kind of person who only exists to stir shit up, but 4chan is a garbage place to discuss anything anyway (unless you happen to meet someone sane), it’s a monkey cage and I haven’t missed it…

Actually, getting into Monster Hunter was a wonderful experience and I didn’t think I had it in me to still love a game that way, let alone a series… I went so hard on it I can‘t believe it was only last year 😨

Last year was a real fuckin’ slow one… I remember playing FFVII Rebirth and wishing I was dead the entire time while playing Astro Bot, not cuz it wasn’t a good game, I was just broken-heart depressed which is the worst kind of depressed

It’s been tough cuz I basically know I’m never going to love another game more than the ones I already love the most, unless something amazing happens (and I do consider Kirby Air Riders one of those “amazing” things that doesn’t happen very often)

If anyone is like me and has struggled to hold interest in playing games for a few years, if you treat it like it’s your job to play & have an opinion about them it weirdly becomes fun again, make sure you take it seriously though and don’t be playing YouTube videos in the background (guilty)

One of my favorite visual things about Forgotten Land is the cool graphic design for the stages, stuff like this rarely stands out or catches your attention so you know it's good when it does

Oh cool... I've just seen that Riki Fuhrmann, the art director for Kirby and the Forgotten Land, has a Tumblr he regularly posts his own art on riki-f.tumblr.com

Maybe that person has a stick up their ass or some kinda weird bias that's influencing their opinion, maybe superhero movies killed their dad or they're having a bad day. I think ppl assume they're "missing" something & are eager to correct them but it don't matter, they don't like it & that's that

I think I've always liked people who aren't afraid to be negative about things especially if those things are popular to an extent it's "the thing" to like them, it took a certain amount of boldness to say "I hate superhero movies" in the 2010s, and I was immediately fond of anyone who said that

I think there's a lot of weird paranoia too like "he hasn't actually played the game, he's just an ass-blasted PS5 player" or something dumb like that, and I couldn't be further divorced from caring about shit like that lol, if a game looks good to me I'll play it, I don't care who made it

I just can't imagine wanting people who don't like a game you do to shut up about it, especially when they're your friends you care about. I mean, if one of my friends hated DMC1 or the OG RE2 that might be hard to listen to, but it's not bad to be able to divorce yourself emotionally from that

Zelda has changed and it's not going back to the old ways, people have a right to be upset about that if they want to, especially when it seems like the overwhelming majority are happy about the new direction, including people who haven't touched a Zelda game since the N64 days

You: "I fucking hate *game I love*" Me: Actually I agree with you, let's talk about everything that sucks about it. I don't bother trying to change their mind cuz why would I? It's THEIR OPINION and I'm not gonna be able to impart my joy and experience on them, and plenty of people love them anyway

Actually, when I talk to a friend who hates those games, I'm more than capable of leaning into what's bad about them cuz I know what the weakpoints are. I know there's stuff that's kinda crappy about them like Hylia Bridge being copy-pasted, the Mii-maker NPCs, lack of stuctured story, etc...

Most of the people I know either fucking hate BOTW and TOTK at worst or just find them boring, I really like them and they're my favorite Zelda games since Wind Waker, different strokes & all that And you know what, I've never been upset that my friends dislike them either cuz I'm an ADULT!

I probably would be much happier if I became a toxic positivity "the latest game is always the best one" guy, but I can't do it You could do an Uno Revese Card "you only like stuff cuz it's old" and that's not true at all, Mario Odyssey is my fave since Sunshine, plenty of examples like that