I just did the most lesbian thing ever (applied for a lesbian match making service and ignored them after they reach out with my march) (fear of rejection) (what if I actually like her? What if I find someone I want to live for??)

#gego #夏五

This was one of those things that I pre ordered during a manic episode and then completely forgot about until showed up at my door

Been shut in studying for my finance exam and playing with my toys

Have I shown you guys my wall of shame

I’m failing all my classes too

I didn’t leave my house for 9 months last year until I got my job, I just want to quit and stay in my room and rot. Everything sucks outside, I hate coming online because it just makes me hate myself more. I’m so lonely and I burden everyone’s at Least im old enough to get a gun now

Ghosted my therapist, got my stuff stolen, got sexually harassed by multiple men, today I just want to kill my self

I’m tired of being alive. Nothing makes me happy anymore q_q

My manager sounded so disappointed when I called out today

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'Okay art > a perfect idea.' Only ideas can be perfect; realizing them lays bare their flaws. But okay art can reach others, whereas your perfect idea can only ever entertain you with 'maybe someday's. Worst case scenario, you'll use a perfect idea to strangle the art you could be making.

Didn’t realize this game was so popular 😭 🥺 🙏

난몰라난몰라 천번만번~

#suguru #art #fanart （夏五工場産）

I’ve struggled my whole life to make friends; at school, at work, online. It’s mainly my fault because I never learned how to trust people or communicate, but knowing so doesn’t shelter me from loneliness

ちみすぐもおでこぽりぽりしてほしい夏五

夏五絶対固定工場産🫦

I just want to be 30 already. Being young sucks

214 #夏五 有参考

Sorry I’m reposting a lot today, haven’t felt up to par regarding my art lately

Reminder to comment on that art post or fanfic, and drop a review of that book. Telling creatives what you think, even if it’s just a one line sentence, truly does make a difference! And I don’t just mean ‘engagement’. I mean it will make their day. Tell someone when you love their work 🤍

i asked an art elder for reassurance recently, i said “what is the role of the black artist in times of fascism?” he said: “to create a world for us to imagine and calculate through art.” for me, my task remains that simple.

夏五

I was gonna say that there was no meaning in life but I remembered I have a rice cooker and air fryer so maybe there is hope for me yet

GET OUT OF MY HEAD

I hate feeling like this every day. Been told it will be better but for the past 10 years it just gets worse and every year I just end up more alone

I can’t do this anymore

This is probably too easy but this song reminds me of them

こいつら殺すか #夏五

90% of my time “studying art” is spent looking for a 3hr YouTube video essay to put in the background

R725 #夏五

whenever I talk to my doctor or psychiatrist about my feelings it feels like I’m lying, or I think that they think that I’m lying. But also my Dr noticed how I nervous I was and told me, “well that wasn’t too bad, right?” It’s hard to tell what’s real and not

#夏油傑生誕祭2025 #夏油傑誕生祭2025 🎉

love you #夏油傑生誕祭2025

I feel like such a screw up Was studying for my finance class, and starting freaking out about how unprepared I am for the exam next and then i missed a meeting for my international business class, and I already don’t understand what’s going on Woke up 4am for work I’m too tired to cry

Maybe it’s not all bad