the pain and my health have been so bad recently that I'm kind of constantly on the verge of breaking down but she's been with me for the whole thing 🥹

streaming today might've been a little premature because of the pain. going to unlist stream and hold off doing another for a bit. thank you and im sorry to those who came.

ending my vtweeting arc and planning on streaming osrs deadman mode tomorrow at the normal time (1pm et) pain permitting. a week later than I wanted to but that's just how health works I guess it's a pvp mode so I'm expecting to get pked a whole bunch it'll be fun!!! (/gen)

im so tired of so much unquestioned racism and homophobia and transphobia in vtubing from so many huge well-respected talents like what are we doing here ppl saying " keep politics out of vtubing" but then directly commenting on current issues but if it's right-wing it's okay

I keep seeing this take from creators and please somebody tell me how including civil rights history in the EDUCATIONAL VERSION of a product designed for SCHOOLS is pushing politics it's literally just teaching kids history. if that's "too political" for you you're just racist

sorry you're going to start getting the political bitching on Twitter crossposted here as well because I'm just so tired of it all

i need surgery so bad the pain won't stop i can barely do anything 🥲

physical and mental health are at rock bottom today so probably might try and take it a little easy this week 🙇‍♀️ the runescape will continue until health improves

I finally got to sleep in my own bed again beside my cat 🥹 going to be returning to streams on Monday assuming I avoid a hospital trip (I will need to give in and go to the hospital next month probably but trying to hold off until then)

4 hour layover dormie

4am airport dormie

I want to go home

I'm in so much pain we have to push back my flight 🙃 praying it's not a hospital trip at least

my laptop charger just exploded :)

the pain was so bad I was waking up every 30 minutes 😔 please log this in the menstruation tracker thank you

gallbladder attack 🙃

the cure might be one of the greatest drinks I've ever had...

ikz

I tapped out after half 😔

this drink SUCKS ASS 10/10 exactly what I expected

it's pink!!

what if I drink the airport shell shocker

accidentally took the cats meds instead of mine during breakfast and as a result almost gave her my adderall day starting off strong

hey why does malort combine well with blue gatorade

this was a lot of fun!!! I'm also now fixated on the idea of setting up a server for my community (maybe for members?) to fight against the eternal winter might squeeze in one more stream before my trip but when I get back I plan to make up for all the time lost to illness!!

Everyone keeps talking about a new early access indie survival crafting game inspired by Minecraft! So we're gonna be checking out Vintage Story, the other early access indie survival crafting block game inspired by Minecraft! 1pm ET Tomorrow (Tuesday) on the YT youtube.com/live/VZSPWur...

ran out of my meds and trying to get a refill and it's like pulling teeth 💀

haha what if I get my masters

im so sorry for having to end stream so abruptly and im so sorry for those who watched me cry. things are still not great and might be rough for a little more. i might try and still do tomorrow's stream but ill play that be ear. i really hope things are normal soon.

moving the gamedev stream to tomorrow!! having a few issues readjusting to meds and also a mouse is doing her anniversary stream today I'll make up for it with an extra long stream and maybe start a little earlier!!

in an hour! 115 et we're playing elin, successor to elona, one of the greatest roguelikes ever made. elona, a game where the tutorial npcs kill you, drinking from a well can make you pregnant with a chestburster, and panties are a throwing weapon that deals sanity damage youtube.com/live/k6koXPm...

shedule. 1pm et daily THUR: Elin (Successor to Elona, that jp roguelike with the panty throwing weapons and the xenomorphs) FRI: Godot Gamedev Stream. Working on Untitled Rabbit Rage Game!! SUN: 3D Modelling Stream. Let's make a Gengar-shaped Plastic Mascot Outfit for Minki

so I love the locked tomb series but I know some people struggle with harrow the 9th so I'd like to recommend chronological order! you read the prologue chapter but then skip to epiparodos which is located after chapter 38 then you want to read 1-11 but then skip to 19 before

I ended up omitting the lemon because we just ended up recreating the exact flavor of grapefruit

alcohol: there's at least a 60% chance this makes something yummy tonight I'll find out after dinner

awful hell days but silly and dumb oshi streams are helping to get through it

im making these tweets because I need to put something positive into the world for this next year

since 2025 was definitely one of my worst years in nearly every way I'm going to do my best to cross off every project I either started or planned to do this past year!!! and finish the stream games I couldnt finish!! it's a big list but all of these should be a lot of fun

My big goal for 2026 is to get back into drawing!! I haven't really drawn in nearly a decade and a half since I left art school back in 2013. I used to really love it and I need it to accomplish some of my personal dreams so I'm teaching myself from scratch this time!!!!

manifesting...

she's heard the fireworks (it is still quieter than the heating)

:)

eating a car live on stream in an hour (230pm et) rough time of the year for me but kirby will heal all ills www.youtube.com/live/kz6_DVx...

as bad as these holidays are I can take solace in the fact that at least they're going better than last year's

still doing pretty rough so probably mostly going to be gorilla this week if I'm doing better maybe we'll play some Kirby tomorrow!!! im excited to eat the car

the holidays have been rougher than I expected so not really in a state where I can talk on stream without it being a bad time so I'll be canceling this weekend streams I'm sorry I'll do my best to finish up armored core next week before the new year

i underestimated how rough Christmas would be this year im sorry probably no stream today unless something changes by evening

slowly and sadly realizing that people have completely forgotten how to use social media without relying on the most predatory algorithms mankind could ever dream of

as is tradition we will be spending Christmas Eve alone with Handler Walter and the pretty woman who lives in our head. in about an hour at 215 et sorry for the delay! today has been a little rough but I'm excited to stream and chat with you all!! www.youtube.com/live/H0rJXQo...

you will get more of my terrible posting over here and I apologize in advance