feeling very grateful that I've been surrounded by enough love to make me believe sometimes that I'm something worth preserving

Pro Game Dev Tip: consult your most perverted friends for all your worldbuilding. 100% of the lore for heaven in bdh is designed around what makes the angelgirls I know respond with keymashes and/or custom emotes

status: learning to feel love, learning to rest, trying not to crack

I think rock paper scissors would be more strategically interesting if playing paper required you to give your opponent a dollar

uh oh !

sorting out if my "pet" and "child" modes are different or not

trigram mobile

I took my Adderall and ate a bunch of food like I was supposed to and now my body hurts too much for me to focus on work. Mods

the timeline where instead of imprinting on the name Luca from On top of the world (GFDM XG) I did a different wac song and called myself Lucy

sometimes I'm alone in a crosswalk under the dark hazy sky and there's a car coming and I wonder in the headlights that make them faceless if tonight is the night they decide they don't want to stop

misreading "agree" as "agere". it's over for me

hey

I should learn how to raise my needs and wants at appropriate times rather than assume and pretend a want for nothing so that the people around me can better trust that they're doing good by me!

existence cultist

my partner has figured out that she can make me do mental calculations to help me calm down (sometimes I need to double-check afterwards...)

cons of going it/its only: I like being more identifiable as transfeminine within the rhythm game/doujin music space, and "she" tethers me more to a sense of humanity that might be best for me to preserve pros of going it/its only: deep, inherent happiness

the only two political moments that have given me hope in the last decade or so have both been assassinations

getting a new therapist b/c my old one basically told me "hey, I'm not really knowledgable enough about bdsm and kink scenes to help you work with the emotional/mental health impacts of them, but this person is", which feels desperately on brand

that's what I get for getting cheap gloves

made some pretzel rolls for play partners a couple days ago - first time I've cooked in the new place, now that I think about it! they came out real Spicy, so I'll have to adjust the lye concentration next time -w-

gonna try and make this one a little more cosy than the encorestage days