i cant keep up with the diagnosis’s im receiving ahahaha, realizing just how fucked i am is harrowing

i hate to sound miserable but god it is actually harrowing seeing the animation to insanely better on twitter than here, and i didnt even post it, really makes me wonder if this is all even worth it

I wanted to ask, how does this feel, any design gripes, any suggestions or so i want to feel good about art again

im safe for now, ive been talked down

im sorry

I wonder how long id be remembered

This loneliness is suffocating, I feel like im choking every time I try to breathe, I am truly alone, but what does it matter, surrounded by so many, invisible, even if i cast a shadow

One day I'll be truly loved for who I am

just to ramble into the void here, I don't really know what to do I just can't find motivation to do anything, to get outta bed, to draw, to game, to do much at all, I need to focus on my commission work but I feel like no matter what I do I'm just ending up resulting in failure, as well

well that was fucking scary tornado just barely and I mean BARELY missed me

cw #hyper i saw thumb blowing expansion on demand and it shouldnt be as hot as it is

God I can’t stop thinking about shipping others ocs with @pillowbuppy.bsky.social/Maddie, she deserves so many partners ✨🤍

god i love men i love men kissing

I'm so happy to finally be over the food poisoning as well, shit was so fucking miserable and I couldn't work or do anything really

I think genuinely at this point I'm near only attracted to balloony/inflated things/round things, like you can be hyper n everything n its hot i just wanna see those cheeks huge n round ofc theres exceptions n other things can be hot to but like, main attractions/crushes is just balloons lol

I genuinely think I have the worst luck streak in my life right now, cant find a job, had to take a trip to urgent care, then i get food poisoning, power has gone out now with no tell on when its going back up today, I just want to fucking work on my comms and start making money again

iiiiiiiiiiit was food poisoning.

Oh my god my sleep schedule is so fucked I got really really sick and couldn’t sleep all night and now in awake at 3pm

[CW: Hyper, Hyper Breasts, Hyper Ass] A lopunny lounging on the beach, getting in a good stretch ✨ [ #furry #nsfw #hyper #hyperbreasts #hyperass #lopunny ]

I reaally need to learn how to tell myself to be patient I see a post only has 16 rt's and go "fuck this is never going to work"

I have very quickly found out that I hate drawing on anything but my ipad LOL, my old wacom one just feels so frustrating to use

(TW: Suicide mention) Hi, I just wanted to put out a post here, while the topic makes me want to put it on my ad, the severity demands it here: For the past 5+ months, I've been job searching to no avail, my degree in animation is basically paperweight. After an extremely nasty interview where (1/5)

Im not mentally safe

It went horribly, was treated poorly, interviewer showed up 15 minutes late, was condescending about my artwork and said I was too much of a creative and didn’t know “business acumen”, insulted my outfit, no job, I genuinely want to kill myself i give up

nerves so out of wack about this interview, struggling to keep myself together

This gay balloon is really feeling needy today, oops

You SHOULD date a balloon

Would YOU date a balloon? (aero)

quirked up catboy in his mid 40s busting it down sexual style

I like stupid complex outfits okay it gives me life

Something something I wanted to give aero wings

I gotta get better at reachin out to people n talkin despite my fears,

that one friend who gets bigger each time you see him

FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY AFTER HALF A YEAR AND HUNDREDS OF APPLICATIONS I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW SCHEDULED, ONE THATS PRACTICALLY IN THE BAG, ONE THAT IM FIT FOR, I WANT TO LIVE

Its hard being into so many things, wife wants me a permaballoon, which i love, but also fuck being a big assed big bulged curvy boy rules, and then theres the secret third desire, hard to rotate when I wanna stick to one

wiped an entire fucking lobby and meowed at whoever I finished

My part of a trade with @thatonepanman.bsky.social Been quite a while since I drew something of THIS proportion. Was fun to do it with such a cute doggy :3

the world has rewarded all of my suffering with 2 free pizzas I am at peace tonight

Exactly where I’m supposed to be

Where my mpreg freaks at

miiight give aero like, what do you call it, dual toned eyes?

every guy should have giant bouncy boobs i make the rules

juuust gotta keep it together a lil while longer and ill be okay just gotta keep tellin myself im loved and it'll be okay

Small update: went in and talked, I don’t really know how to describe it other than it really was a pressure related issue? Most of the pressure pain is gone now after clearing everything out, just kind of waiting for the rest of the pain to die out, but I’m fine for now, im just exhausted

I can't really keep myself drawing for more than like 5 minutes at a time but i just wanted to try, I know its probably weird I draw aero so thin when im a fat fuck but honestly I just like aero looking this way cause i like ratios and math and numbers in designs

tried drawing something

it's only getting worse I cannot take this I'm going to go to urgent care tomorrow if this doesn't let up

Fuck it, we postin classivs. Sauntering yotie cheeks

I genuinely don't know what I could've done yesterday to cause this but I've been in indescribable pain all night and day now, full on inability to do anything, I really hope this goes away soon because it feels like my eye is about to burst and I need to do comm work

Hard to keep a low profile in VR when your actual body has more fart sounds than your avatar does-