Is the pain residual resistance? I assume I am surrendered. Does the psyche still hold some cage, muzzle or trap? I am not allowed joy, no, I do not allow it. I am afraid of it. I analyze and critique my joy, excusing it as foolish. A raccoon sings, a rabbit in blue. No Apologies or explanations due

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Watched “Kakisa dzirnavas” (The Cats Mill) 1993, with dinner tonight, quite amazing🐈‍⬛💕

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A world we want is still out there

“….Lately, red apples are tasty” ~Hemlocke Springs Coati Five and five inverted, Zacchaeus

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Teeth, well His anyway Draw blood And I cry, not from but for I want deeper, redder To be eaten hid away From this god inflicted world Dig my grave with paws Let me Grow something good As you put wet nose to its bloom May the earth flora orgasm And my spirit shudder with the quaking leaf

“….Lately, red apples are tasty” ~Hemlocke Springs Coati Five and five inverted, Zacchaeus

I am to be rid of him Take to the slaughterhouse Get that man out Baptize me oh ye wolves Lucifer glances Lick my wounds, the beggar I am Leave me weeping in dark homes Empty homes Better is it to be full of beasts Filled painfully Than to allow even a mote Of that spirit that claims I am

The shrine of 57 Mixed media miniature

Portrait of my heart Watercolor on paper

The Satyr of Saturn. 2026 Watercolor and watercolor pencil on cotton “Close my eyes Feel me now I don’t know Maybe you could not hurt me now.”

The Satyr of Saturn. 2026 Watercolor and watercolor pencil on cotton “Close my eyes Feel me now I don’t know Maybe you could not hurt me now.”

“Portrait of 57” Can you hold me down for one night, like I got three strikes? Don me, Don me, Don me. Don me, called on me, called on me. ~Terror Jr.

“Animals In The Showers” Watercolor and pencils in Accordion hahnemuhle watercolor book. 2026 (Track: Oracle by Michael Hedges)

Benjamin Self portrait with migraine Watercolor

57, hollyhock

“You won’t know You won’t know I’m not sure”

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return (blacklight)

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Benjamin

Field goal. Game in someone else’s hands. Watch on, angel eyes.

Mask of Coati. Five and five inverted. Trauma and wounds, healing and right to anger. (Cardboard, paper mache, Bible pages, highlighter, Bible covers (teeth) Bible ribbon (tongue) religious hate pamphlets left on our door and public places, black and gold paint, glue.) 2026

Coati effigy. Thread, Paper clay, gold buttons, glue and paint. 2026

Where there’s joy I bring you trespass Where there’s light I bring you darkness Where there’s health I bring affliction Where there’s hope I bring misfortune Tell me I’m evil horned Tell me I am not the face of god Tell me I’m evil Tell me I’m not love ~Sufjan Stevens

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Eve of August, request to the setting sun. Colors of the 80s southwestern palette my grandmother painted in. 🦡 Find us in our burrow stronger and more playful than we knew possible. ☀️

Self portrait 2024

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🎵Tomorrow's gonna hurt, la nueva realidad Si sabes esperar, todo va a llegar, todo va a llegar Zorra, sabes que ya voy como una cuba🎵

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Zachary, who was standing near a large building near the man made lake.

57 Mask work Papier mache and acrylic paint

Devotional work 57 Athletic cup and acrylic paint

Gift art for @u4e.bsky.social 🚿✨✨✨

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