This is the inspiration I needed today 💚

Yeah it's got it's issues, NPCs act funny, the controls aren't as great as new games, but goddamn.. Red Dead Redemption is still a great fucking game.

I don't know what changed, but somewhere along my autistic journey aside from unmasking a lot more, I seemingly can't cry now? I don't know what changed, but I used to be quite emotional, but for about a year now I just don't seem to be able to cry anymore when I'm sad..

I'm on the fence as to whether I should finish Red Dead or continue one of the other games I started recently. The Last Campfire has Baan an interesting little puzzle game, and I decided I wanted to play all of the Telltale Walking Dead games so I started the first one last night.

John Marston blunk just in time to ruin this photo!

FILTH!

and why not? why shouldn't I finish off the open bottle of champagne from NYE?

FUCKED. UP. DREAMS.

Marston. John Marston.

I have the urge to go on a Telltale Games binge and play all of the Walking Dead games, as well as the second season of their Batman game.

there was an extra chicken burger in the box so tonight I made us burgers and I had an extra patty on one of mine, and it was spectacular

CREAMED CORN

the "other" total for 2025 was 592.. *wink wink*

I did the numbers: 407 records 375 films (not including anything outside of my collection)

oh and Luca and I have been playing Boggle on Netflix games a few nights since last week and I am unbeatable.

my year-long project has come to an end. I haven't counted my records played yet, but letterboxd says I've logged 394 films this year. I almost gave up a couple of times, when I was feeling off or not in the mood, but I persevered. it's actually going to feel a bit weird not doing this every day now

the consensus for NYE dinner was pizza, and I have no qualms ☺️

BREAKING NEWS: Actual facts appear for the first time on "Truth" Social.

I'd like to say that the worst of 2025 is over, but it still has two days to reign hell upon us

Fuck I love being gay so much

I want to have sex with more friends ☺️

I've spent a considerable amount of time looking at porn today, but honestly that's not really any different than any other day 🤷

two movie night tonight methinks.. maybe even THREE

guys, doods, fellas.. it's not hard to spell it correctly

lol we were too lazy to get out and buy some groceries so we are getting pizza. several pizzas in fact, thanks BOGO offers!

Here’s to 2026

I finished PowerWash Simulator 2 tonight 🤘

apple crumble pie and Glenlivet whiskey is a fantastic combination

We’re all born naked and the rest is flagged for potential adult content

Christmas project ♥️

The Godfather and Chinese takeout tonight

And Tiny Sim, who DID die

TIME FOR THE RITUAL

I'm definitely at the point where family gatherings are way too chaotic for me to be able to stay calm and not spiral into meltdown mode. why does everyone need to be nonstop the whole damn time

the love that David Lynch had for film, it's unmatched. just pure, sincere admiration for cinema.

without fail, almost on a daily basis

gurrrl, same

I was listening to Christmas music.. but now I am listening to JURASSIC PARK composed by John Williams

I don't really want to do anything for the holidays other than staying home, gaming, eating bad food and masturbating 😕

panic attacks seem to be over for now, I started feeling normal again in the evening yesterday. I'm in office today.. yayyyyyy

I took the day off work and went back to bed. I ended up staying in bed until 1:30pm. Got up and moved around and as soon as I did I felt off still like I could have another panic attack at any moment. so I've genuinely been slothing.. moving around slowly, taking my time doing things.

3

panic attack. because this is how I wanted to spend the rest of my day after work

it's getting awfully close to whiskey o'clock

I got us both Philips Sonicare toothbrushes for Christmas (early) and I just used mine for the first time and holy shit is it a weird sensation.. my lips still feel numb. apparently it can take a week to get used to the feeling of it 😕

my head hurts and I'm tired