i cant read hualian until i finish my assignment. literally cant. if i try i just get anxious and the brain wont process anything im reading. im so mad

Chapter 4 is up finally ! :runs away:

adhd final boss is misplacing your meds

xie lian using the bottle with tiny wu ming still in it as a toy okay goodnight now

stopped everything i was doing to draw this

hmmmm the evil brain is saying im talking too much and need to stfu and stop commenting on every moots posts but the other evil brain is saying i need to always respond to everything to show my love and appreciation and people will hate me if i dont immediately react to everything

*incoherent exhausted groaning sounds*

whenever i have 10 minutes to just relax i spent so much time contemplating whether to read or draw or write or scroll bsky that no relaxing is done at all

im over here crashing out over an assignment and they dont even care 🤧

Done with all the default sprites.

the way i feel asleep at 20:30 like an elderly grandma and slept for like 11 hours

hyperventilating is such a weird experience

why do i literally HAVE TO eat or else stomach ouch?? wdym i need to put food in my face or else ill be in pain? who tf designed this?????

UPDATE! Rain has in fact Not finished that presentation, as of 04:07 am! to the surprise of absolutely no one! bsky.app/profile/arti...

why cant it be the weekend already i wanna sleep cant wait to pass out at 9pm tomorrow and sleep for 10 hours (more sleep than ive had in the last 3 days combined)

My design of @spffnity.bsky.social ´s recent moth San Lang base! :D I hope it´s alright that I joined in on the fun unannounced, but everyone´s been coming up with such beautiful concepts, I couldn´t help but feel inspired （*´▽｀*） #mothhualian #mothsanlang

"im going to be a responsible adult this time and Not procrastinate working on my presentation until the very last minute again" -me, exactly 6 days ago, about to do exactly that

*clears throat* HUA CHENG IN A COCK CAGE- *gets dragged off stage*

Gege-Gun Show #XieLian #TGCF #KnifesArt #天官赐福 #谢怜

alr we've got bug sex and fish sex already (and mammal sec too obviously) dragon au can be reptile sex. now we only need bird sex and amphibian sex to complete the set

and now im supposed to go about my day like a normal person and Not think about gege turtleneck bug sex the whole time? cruel

i kinda ran out of steam and don't wanna color him the rest of the way but u see the vision right. calling this one "san lang are you TRYING to get jealous gege to send you to hot twink jail?" (base by @spffnity.bsky.social o3o )

well....i think we managed to make #xielian breathtaking in the end my badass vampire lord😎✨

anyways moth jiejie at the club

ive experienced the entire spectrum of emotion in the last 2 hours for LITERALLY NO REASON so that was fun 😃👍 but its ok sleeveless turtleneck xl and lesbian moths will resurrect me

somebody take these bugs away from me

someone give me clothes to put on moth jiejie. sleeveless turtleneck is non negotiable.

my period is 6 days late as of today BRO WTF IS THIS I DONT NEED SUSPENSE JUST GET IT OVER WITH ALREADY SO I CAN WEAR LIGHT PANTS AGAIN

what is it with these random ahh people and companies following me on here?? how and Why do they find me? especially normal people with no connection to tgcf whatsoever who are you and why are you in my house. ive blocked at least 10 random accs bc of this

hmmmmm i wanted to post the moth lang fit to tumblr but now brain too eepy to format gud post and write tags

thinking about moth jiejie now

devastated to find out doing creative writing in english is actually very different from casual speaking or chatting or writing essays and just knowing fancy words and Reading lots of good texts doesnt mean i can actually Write a good text

also! i tried to put him in fancy-dark-club kinda lighting

ouch my back why i always gotta draw sitting like a shrimp

i tried! heres him in one of his club outfits, with & without his cloak bsky.app/profile/spff...

[ nsfw, cybermoths hualian ]

nhhggshhsga i wanna read read all the good stuff people are saying but im tired and too emotionally exhausted to enjoy any of it 😔

why is writing a fic so hard… so far ive got 1,8k words of garbage that lives in my math folder. and i write a little bit more every time im bored in class bc the creative juices are gone as soon as i go home

im hungry time for a midnight snack of uncooked ramen and mini pretzels

He got stuck :/ #ghostyfairylian

#tgcf 🦊?

i love those evaluation questions that are like Have You Felt Depressed In The Last 30 Days? Yes/No IDK YOU TELL ME, TF DOES "DEPRESSED" FEEL LIKE?? I CANT TELL. THATS LITERALLY THE REASON IM HERE

sometimes i think i Should go to therapy but then i look up the process of actually getting it and thats like. so much work. also im pretty sure id need a diagnosis first. and even IF i managed it, how do i explain to a therapist that my main motivation in life rn is fictional gay people 🥀🥀

time to sleep now. today was a good day and i feel very accomplished. ive thunk a thought and we all got together to think about merhua self fucking tentacles. and i think thats beautiful

he cant just have hua cheng taken back to his rooms, because they traveled for this dinner and itd be an insult to the person who invited them. but xie lian almost considers it, is going to call for an attendant to help him and hua cheng is the one who says no, no gege itll be fine you can just...

> gently guides each one to hcs slit im going fucking insane at this idea the number of tentacles xl guides down back into him directly relates to how severe xl thought hcs self depreciation was. sometimes if hes only been a bit mean xl will feed back the one and keep the other two for himself

still thinking about this more than i probably should but. idk what it is about merhua self fucking but GOD ITS TOO GOOD IM NOT OKAY bsky.app/profile/spff...

A mid afternoon spiritual energy top-off #hualian #tgcf #天官赐福

time to clean my room and pretend im one of those people on youtube who do free cleanings for extreme hoarders or depressed people